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Gardishver

New Member
Feb 5, 2023
1
Because I'm just so fucking sick at this point of "getting up, falling, getting up, disappoint my family, falling, getting up, disappointing myself, falling..." etc. etc.

I mean for fucks sake what does it matter when I'm gone from here? It's not like it's hardly gonna make that much of a difference anyways. My family's busy as shit being successful with their lives, I have no friends and any sort of human interaction I'm just gonna fuck up anyways because I can't socialize to save my life (not like I'm really desiring it anyways). I'm stuck here being fucking miserable at myself wondering why the fuck should I continue if all that's left for me is no gain and all pain? No success, no one to settle down with, no ambition, no happiness. Just why do I even bother ffs...

Anyways, just a ventpost for a rough night tonight. Because it really feels like it's been over for me for a looong time and I've been trudging along for whatever reason.
 
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moochu_

Angelic ♡
Mar 24, 2023
7
Life is a process of growing. But as humans we can only grow so much. There will come a point where death is the only option to grow freely. I hope you'll find peace eventually via any means. Sleep tight ♡
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Yeah, we all keep trudging along until we just can't anymore. I don't see any point to any of it, either, although I know I've lived longer than you have. In the end, I think there's only so many times one can get up when they fall down. I suppose some can do it longer than others. That's how it works. Eventually, though, it all becomes just too much. I haven't any happiness for a long time, no one to love, not loved by anyone, no friends, no hope for anything in the future. I just barely exist and am moving toward the inevitable. It'll be sooner rather than later. That I know. Like in the game of poker, you need to realize when it's best to just fold your cards.
 
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Ki_Nam

Slow brain turdle
Mar 23, 2023
123
It's okay to disappoint and to fail. People do it all the time. That's how we get better at something. But it's good that you've tried many times. We all have our limits.
 
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WorthlessCoward

Specialist
Mar 21, 2023
301
I only care about disappointing myself, really
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,542
Life really is just a futile and pointless cycle of suffering that serves no purpose and exists all for no reason. I think that it's true that not everyone is meant for existing and I could never wish to suffer at all anyway. Life certainly is incredibly disappointing and can of course be incredibly torturous with no limit as to how much we can suffer. At least for me only death could ever offer relief from this curse.
 
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Anonymus

Enlightened
May 6, 2022
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As many times as it has to happen...
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Tantes vegades com tingui que passar...
 

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