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I think most people would spend the billion first, or at least most of it, unless they were in severe physical pain due to a medical condition. Some others might, but my gut instinct is that at least 90% of suicidal people would postpone ctb if they were given one billion dollars in cash.
 
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I would postpone ctb if I were given a cheap manwhore, let alone one billion dollars.
 
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PeacefulTonic

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I'd postpone ctb to figure out how to distribute it amongst my friends/family/ex
 
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drune11

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I think most people would spend the billion first, or at least most of it, unless they were in severe physical pain due to a medical condition. Some others might, but my gut instinct is that at least 90% of suicidal people would postpone ctb if they were given one billion dollars in cash.
I think hypotheticals are often useless because it's hard for anybody to say with accuracy what they would do in a given situation. For example, how many normal people easily say the usual "hey it always gets better", "you just gotta keep on going" etc to us? They have no idea how it feels and how they'd be thinking in our shoes.

Still, honestly I think money would actually make my situation more difficult - I already am very apprehensive and pessimistic about women and their intentions or lack thereof with me, so I think if I knew that I'd be attractive because of it, it would just make me more neurotic and pessimistic. But who knows. I don't really want anything material other than a house at this point, but I'd be lonely inside of it anyway.
 
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Smart No More

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I think most people would spend the billion first, or at least most of it, unless they were in severe physical pain due to a medical condition. Some others might, but my gut instinct is that at least 90% of suicidal people would postpone ctb if they were given one billion dollars in cash.
Well, without a doubt this would open possibilities for the most peaceful of deaths. I'd pay a pharmacist to make powdered N or even, if possible seconal or secobarbitol and a load of barb's from way back if it was realistic. Alongside that I'd set up a foundation for all the people who deserve to die with dignity and make it free for as long as financially viable. Hopefully it would find a way to stand on it's own feet through donations and crowd funding before going under after I am gone. I'd pay somebody to find me the medical help I need if it exists and leave that ticking over in the background whilst I continue with my pre ctb mission. Then I'd buy the perfect property for my cat so she could go outdoors without risks and I'd train somebody to care for her properly when I'm gone. That's a massive concern for me. I'd set up my brother financially and buy him a home too. Possibly combined with the home for moggy and carer. I'd probably sort my parent out (semi begrudgingly) and then I'd spend as much time using drugs that relieve the worst of my symptoms without further imparing my cognition and memory. During which time I'd write my memoirs and maybe eak out an art project idea I had, just to leave a legacy of some kind. The follow up would depend on how medical treatment went/goes but I'm guessing not so well so I would most likely ctb but feel whole because I've managed to meet the demands of all the things that concern me surrounding my ctb. I would go happy.
 
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I think most people would spend the billion first, or at least most of it

I would not even spend it. I would sit on it for the rest of my life, pretty content with a few millions of interest per year. Because for me the most desired thing in life is stability and freedom from economically forced labor. I would postpone any plans to ctb until some serious illness, but would use some of the money to make sure that nobody can take the right to die from me when I need it.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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If I was given that much money, it would not postpone my ctb or make me want to live. Nothing would ever make me want to live. The only thing I want is to be free from this horrible world.
 
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Cherry xoxo

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Oct 15, 2021
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Money no matter what the amount is won't solve what's broken inside of you, you can't buy happiness... You'll still be left with your thoughts every night.

I personally would not postpone to ctb because it really wouldn't change anything.
 
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mold

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Jun 25, 2019
72
i'd probably postpone, and see if the money will alleviate my pain in some way
 
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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
6,029
Are you sure that asshole wasn't actually murdered by Putin? :sunglasses:
Many people say becoming very rich can make you ill. I think some billionaires etc. make one cocaine party after another and destroy their brain. However your theory can be true too.
 
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deathLiberation

Student
Oct 31, 2021
161
Of course i wouldnt ctb.

I would F* THE SYSTEM with 1 billion.

I would get big piece of land, make small houses out of hemp and other cheap sustainable materials and give them out to the educated likeminded homeless that somehow got screwed by life/governments. Let them work in the fields and build a sustainable culture to get food.
Of course this wouldnt be a flawless plan, but its enough money to make the system shake a bit somehow.
 
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Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
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Of course i wouldnt ctb.

I would F* THE SYSTEM with 1 billion.

I would get big piece of land, make small houses out of hemp and other cheap sustainable materials and give them out to the educated likeminded homeless that somehow got screwed by life/governments. Let them work in the fields and build a sustainable culture to get food.
Of course this wouldnt be a flawless plan, but its enough money to make the system shake a bit somehow.
I love your plan
 
BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
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In cash? Too inconvenient, would ctb on the spot.
 
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Mar 30, 2020
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I don't understand why you keep torturing yourselves with such unrealistic shit.
 
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forget dbt and cbt i wanna ctb
Dec 11, 2019
47
I would just party extremely hard on some fancy island if I had that cash and hope I died at the end of the bender
 
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Someone123

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If I was given that much money, it would not postpone my ctb or make me want to live. Nothing would ever make me want to live. The only thing I want is to be free from this horrible world.
I am curious about this- if could have a really nice home and car and food and be able to hang out with people who are nice to you all the time- they are out there- wouldn't that be worth it. There are nice people out there somewhere, but they are not always easy to find. Are there some nice people around you who may be able to help?
Well, without a doubt this would open possibilities for the most peaceful of deaths. I'd pay a pharmacist to make powdered N or even, if possible seconal or secobarbitol and a load of barb's from way back if it was realistic. Alongside that I'd set up a foundation for all the people who deserve to die with dignity and make it free for as long as financially viable. Hopefully it would find a way to stand on it's own feet through donations and crowd funding before going under after I am gone. I'd pay somebody to find me the medical help I need if it exists and leave that ticking over in the background whilst I continue with my pre ctb mission. Then I'd buy the perfect property for my cat so she could go outdoors without risks and I'd train somebody to care for her properly when I'm gone. That's a massive concern for me. I'd set up my brother financially and buy him a home too. Possibly combined with the home for moggy and carer. I'd probably sort my parent out (semi begrudgingly) and then I'd spend as much time using drugs that relieve the worst of my symptoms without further imparing my cognition and memory. During which time I'd write my memoirs and maybe eak out an art project idea I had, just to leave a legacy of some kind. The follow up would depend on how medical treatment went/goes but I'm guessing not so well so I would most likely ctb but feel whole because I've managed to meet the demands of all the things that concern me surrounding my ctb. I would go happy.
This is a very insigfhtful post and I do appreciate it, but of luck in dealing with your medical concerns and with finding peace in whatever way works best for you as time goes on. :)
 
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Oct 11, 2021
668
I wouldn't. I'd be a rich motherfucker
 
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I would feel inside and ask myself if there are some experiences that I still wanna make, even though I can't think about many. It wouldn't change a lot, after all. I was already in a position of decent money and all the time i wanted. I still felt like shit. So I think I would probably donate a lot of it, some to charity, some to a buddhist monistary that I really like, some to friends and family.
 
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Someone123

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I think hypotheticals are often useless because it's hard for anybody to say with accuracy what they would do in a given situation. For example, how many normal people easily say the usual "hey it always gets better", "you just gotta keep on going" etc to us? They have no idea how it feels and how they'd be thinking in our shoes.

Still, honestly I think money would actually make my situation more difficult - I already am very apprehensive and pessimistic about women and their intentions or lack thereof with me, so I think if I knew that I'd be attractive because of it, it would just make me more neurotic and pessimistic. But who knows. I don't really want anything material other than a house at this point, but I'd be lonely inside of it anyw
 
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Let me go...please
Jul 27, 2021
218
I won't CTB if I was given 1 billion dollars. I can get celebrity therapists and move as far as I can from my family. I'd move somewhere countryside and find a kind/caring significant other for myself and lead a peaceful life.
 
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Apr 13, 2021
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It is very possible.

The thought of Putin offing one of his oligarch bitches warms my heart for some reason

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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
I will always be suicidal I think in this world. But I might want to enjoy some things for a couple years or so before I ctb If that kind of money fell into my lap . I know that will never happen though. I am content with eternal peace rather than chasing after money.
 
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Someone123

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Oct 19, 2021
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I won't CTB if I was given 1 billion dollars. I can get celebrity therapists and move as far as I can from my family. I'd move somewhere countryside and find a kind/caring significant other for myself and lead a peaceful life.

I will always be suicidal I think in this world. But I might want to enjoy some things for a couple years or so before I ctb If that kind of money fell into my lap . I know that will never happen though. I am content with eternal peace rather than chasing after money.
Yes, I just brought this subject up to see how much money factors may play a plart in people's decisions, to try to separate this factor from other factors. Most people take a while to plan a carry out ctb, so there's a lot of time to think about things.
 
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Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
Still would ctb, cause money does not solves what makes me unhappy.
 
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Quiet Desperation

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Dec 7, 2020
204
Money is vital when you don't have it, but people arrive at this place for many other reasons, each of them no less valid than the other. Trying to fit them all into one generalization that makes sense to you is both understandable and misguided.

The belief that money fixes everything only lasts until you have it. Then either you just want more and more and it's never enough, or you realize that it is an empty pursuit, devoid of meaning or purpose without some other reason for living.

Some of us are born broken, and others are broken by the selfishness, greed, lies, cruelty and loneliness we have experienced. Money doesn't fix that. I would give everything I have in a heartbeat to be able to take back just a few of the decisions I've made.
 
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