There a few people in the past that messaged me privately that they follow my threads for years. And told me insider jokes only frequent readers of my threads know. I think though most of them are passive because I only learned about them after years of passive reading. They might not reply to this thread.
And I think it is quite difficult to follow all the events that happen. And sometimesit is difficult to differentiate between reality and potential delusions.
So I think the biggest events were. I think my journey on here started with psychosomatic pain that was always present in my life from 2018 to 2020.
The college nightmare that I lived through for fucking 2,5 years.
The almost suicide attempt that followed because of the aftermath on my mental health. The nightmarish clinic stay afterwards where I thought I triggered a woman into committing suicide.
My first romantic and sexual experiences with a woman from a dating app that turned out to be a borderline patient that ghosted after our first date.
My extreme obsession with the quantum physics professor and the frequent analysis of his mind and how he potentially perceived me.
When Sanctioned Suicide might saved my life because a woman from my country sent me a private message informing me about a social welfare program that guaranteed me a couple of hundred Euros as monthly income. Eventtually I got the money and it might saved my ass.
Filing the complaint against my former therapist who tried to ruin me - thus far I don't know the outcome of that case.
I almost forgot all my insane self-help group stories.
The list could go on and on. I think the things that happened lately are present in my mind the most. I also had an obsession with a former clinic therapist before the obsession with the quantum physics professor started. The common element is they were able to recognize something in my pathology that I was unable to see. There also was a therapist that gave up on me and thought that I gonna commit suicide. To that time point I thought this would be rock bottom of professional therapy. But life proved me wrong in this instance. Lol.
And I think it is quite difficult to follow all the events that happen. And sometimesit is difficult to differentiate between reality and potential delusions.
So I think the biggest events were. I think my journey on here started with psychosomatic pain that was always present in my life from 2018 to 2020.
The college nightmare that I lived through for fucking 2,5 years.
The almost suicide attempt that followed because of the aftermath on my mental health. The nightmarish clinic stay afterwards where I thought I triggered a woman into committing suicide.
My first romantic and sexual experiences with a woman from a dating app that turned out to be a borderline patient that ghosted after our first date.
My extreme obsession with the quantum physics professor and the frequent analysis of his mind and how he potentially perceived me.
When Sanctioned Suicide might saved my life because a woman from my country sent me a private message informing me about a social welfare program that guaranteed me a couple of hundred Euros as monthly income. Eventtually I got the money and it might saved my ass.
Filing the complaint against my former therapist who tried to ruin me - thus far I don't know the outcome of that case.
I almost forgot all my insane self-help group stories.
The list could go on and on. I think the things that happened lately are present in my mind the most. I also had an obsession with a former clinic therapist before the obsession with the quantum physics professor started. The common element is they were able to recognize something in my pathology that I was unable to see. There also was a therapist that gave up on me and thought that I gonna commit suicide. To that time point I thought this would be rock bottom of professional therapy. But life proved me wrong in this instance. Lol.
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