How many people here indulge in alcohol and other drugs?

[Roberto]

Rather frequently? It's obviously not conducive to a long term plan rationally speaking but it works for me. I guess it's self medicating. Kratom, phenbut and booze so too nothing serious. I find that I need to take the edge off things.

These last months I drink almost every night.

 

[khw777]

All my life I've been really square and never tried drugs or alcohol. Since I've become suicidal I've lost my self-preservation instinct and have tried any drugs and medicines I can get my hands on. I hated everything I tried except tramadol. Taking a large dose of tramadol every day is the only thing that brings me any kind of relief.

May I ask why do you want to ctb?

 

[Neurodamaged2]

Drugs are what caused my present situation by fucking up my dopamine / serotonin / oxytocin system, so I try to stay away from them now even though it doesn't really matter - the damage is done. I take benzos every day to keep from pacing (akathisia or similar) and to keep myself sedated - in a semi-alive semi-dead state. I know I'll build up a tolerance though so I've recently started taking valerian root, melatonin and doxylamine to help the sedation. I also take zopiclone to sleep. I'd warn against zopiclone though, once you're on it you can't sleep without it and sleep just isn't the same anymore. Oh and benzo withdrawal is a bitch.

 

[LonelyLight]

I go thru stages. I wont drink for weeks. Then I'll go on a bender. I'm currently on day 4. And when I drink, I drink to get fucked up. Not a social one or two. Give me the bottle. And another if I finish that.

 

[Le_lacrime_di_marzo]

May I ask why do you want to ctb?

Health problems :(

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I smoke a lot of dope, and drink once in a blue moon.

 

[passenger27]

The only reason I'm not a raging alcoholic is because of ulcers. If I can have 2 drinks or even 2 beers without stomach pain I'm lucky.

Having said that, I do partake in a bit o' the green. It's a lifesaver.

 

[WilliamKline]

The only reason I'm not a raging alcoholic is because of ulcers. If I can have 2 drinks or even 2 beers without stomach pain I'm lucky.

Having said that, I do partake in a bit o' the green. It's a lifesaver.

Well there is one solution to your problem:

Wife Charged In Booze Enema Death

Police: Alcoholic Husband Could Not Drink Due To Ulcers, Heartburn

www.cbsnews.com

 

[ithappens]

I smoke a lot of weed when I can get my hands on it. I moved to another state a while back and lost my connections. That month I spent dry while finding a new one was like hell. But then I'm smoking now and I'm here so it's not like it does much more than help blanket the anxiety at this point. Still does more than those useless SSRIs the doctors keep prescribing me.

 

[passenger27]

Well there is one solution to your problem:

Wife Charged In Booze Enema Death

Police: Alcoholic Husband Could Not Drink Due To Ulcers, Heartburn

www.cbsnews.com

Whew, I'll pass on that. I've heard of people doing that but I don't know how they keep it up there.

Talk about a ring of fire. I bet it'd be worse on your ass than a dozen jalapenos

 

[CrushedHopes]

Not me.

 

[WhiteDespair]

The worst is when the drugs stop working.

 

[Kodama]

Sometimes few Mojitos
Sometimes Weed
Rarely in fact...

 

[sullengirl]

I used to drink a lot for a few years until I became very intolerant to it. Otherwise I have been a daily weed smoker for 4-5 years now. I would be long gone without it.

 

[Starseedchip]

Used to be a heavy drinker to the point of blacking out, smoked like a chimney, abused xanax, would get high to the point I was sick, ate super shitty food regularly, and over did it with sleeping pills. I have a super addictive personality plus the self loathing made me not give a shit. Regret it because the effects have made my life worse and me more suicidal.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

am I the only one who has never had a black out or hangover.... fuck this I feel like I am fialing!

 

[sammii]

The only things I partake in now are weed, alcohol and cigarettes. When I was younger I used to take anything I could get my hands on so I've done a lot I was extremely fond of cocaine. To the point where I took it too much and ruined it for myself cause I had to stop lmao, I get addicted to things crazy fast.

am I the only one who has never had a black out or hangover.... fuck this I feel like I am fialing!

Yeah I think so I've blacked out a bunch of times. You're not missing anything, it's not fun.

 

[Aolelife]

I had a heavy daily weed habit for like 20 years, but I quit 4 months ago. The funny thing is I never used to dream when I was smoking and ingesting weed, but now I have super vivd dreams and I remember a lot of them when I wake up. I wish I could stay asleep more. In my dreams, I am in the moment and I not depressed.

I am 46, and I have had off an on phases with many drugs. I loved cocaine in the 90s. I had great times with acid and mushrooms, but that was in the 80s. A few years ago I spent a good amount of time with a steady supply of Percocet and Xanax, but the constant blackouts made me nervous so I quit. Now I mostly drink Jameson and Guinness as much as possible.

The worst drug that made me feel terrible was Celexa. The side effects made me more depressed than the depression. At least with weed I could leave the house.

 

[MisanthropicLycan]

I am an alcoholic and a crystal methamphetamine addict. I'm also a smoker.

 

[issyishere]

I imagine a sizable portion of us are heavily into drugs/alcohol. I personally engage heavily with weed because it helps me not feel sad. Sucks when it wears off though

 

[Sweet emotion]

I'm on pain medication for my complex regional pain syndrome and I take Xanax but I never really have the urge to indulge in them. I want to save up as many as possible for when I die. I just never enjoyed drinking and I never did illegal drugs before. I have taken extra when the pain has gotten too severe to bear or when I get so depressed I just want to sleep I'll take a Xanax but that's about it. I have medical marijuana but it makes !e paranoid and scared. And the lower dosages of THC don't do anything for me or my pain. I don't enjoy smoking it anyway since my nerve condition is in my mouth. If it helped it would do it but it doesn't.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I'm a sugarholic. I bet a lot of us (far more than admit or officials care to acknowledge) distract ourselves from life's horrors with lots of "bad" things. If the people who claim they have the answer actually had 'em, I doubt addiction would be such a huge problem...

 

[CaptainT]

Used to use alcohol a lot but it definitely makes the depression worse. Now I'm a total sugar addict. Gives me a temporary high like nothing else. Was on Valium (diazepam) for panic/anxiety but could feel me getting addicted to them fast so stopped, and the comedowns also trigger depression. Saving my last strip of them for CBT time.

 

[pieces]

I'm an alcoholic. My parents both were. Alcohol makes me feel adequate and free, my mind won't talk anymore while I'm drunk. I wish I could feel that way all the time.

 

[Mizzmini45]

benzo and vodka

 

[Aonewayticketplease]

Alcohol and lots of it. Don't have much experience with other drugs.

 

[Hennessy]

coffee, alcohol and music.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I used to be an alcoholic and use drugs. I know it's bad because I miss those times because I was numbed out and not aware of my shitty life and my emotions. Now my apathy is so bad I don't care or bother and it seems nothing has effect on me like it used to. I can't afford it anyway even if I wanted it.

 

[MissNietzsche]

My escapism is food. I have BED, and I'll gorge myself on 7K+ Calories almost every night.

 

[EmptyArms]

I love drugs and booze and all manner of nefarious and illicit activities, but those days are behind me and now I am clean as a whistle. I used to get buzzed from exercise, but now that is prohibited so now I just watch Coronation Street and eat a lot of bland pasta

This made me laugh. Giving up booze can add up to 6 years to your life. Let that be a hideous warning to you.