Discussion How many of you would not CTB if you were given food daily and a place to sleep like a shelter for the rest of your life ?

[BigG91]

How many of you would not CTB if you were given food daily and a place to sleep like a shelter for the rest of your life ?

I feel like this is a sort of solution for most of the mentally ill people out here wanting to ctb.

I feel it's not the illness but existing in this world that creates all the mess and feelings of distress.

I personally know I'm gonna end up on the streets in a few years unless i ctb or if I'm miraculously cured...

 

[its-about-time]

Idk I'm on disability and have food stamps, food and shelter are not an issue for me, I think I'm quite fortunate, I think community is really the bigger question, I always figured I'd do well in a communal assisted living type thing,, I do so well when I'm in the hospital for a good stint of time, there's a schedule and routine and groups and all that, I'm never going back to the hospital but I think that model in a community setting could be great, no locked doors keeping you in, more privacy, but the option to engage in community… if I win the lotto I'll build one. Funny I just had a conversation today about all this minus the ctb factor

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

If my basic survival was guaranteed with the ability to have at least a small level of privacy it would definitely affect my more immediate goals for CTB. However, being able to ensure that I don't waste away with each day becoming an exercise in suffering as my physical abilities deteriorate is a big reason for having the knowledge and ability to CTB on my own schedule as opposed to waiting for nature to mercifully end the suffering.

 

[Red Scare]

No, that sounds like a living hell to me. Low quality of life, no goals, no means to achieve anything.

But it doesn't matter, I don't want a thing anyway. I want to die because the one I love is dead. Nothing could make me want to live in this world without him.

 

[UnravelingWinter]

I live with a chronic illness where I feel physically sick nearly every day. Having my food and shelter paid for would take a lot of stress off my mind, but I'm not sure it would keep me around for more than another few years.

 

[its-about-time]

No, that sounds like a living hell to me. Low quality of life, no goals, no means to achieve anything.

But it doesn't matter, I don't want a thing anyway. I want to die because the one I love is dead. Nothing could make me want to live in this world without him.

That makes me so sad, the part about your loved one being dead, my loved one always said she'd have to die too if I killed myself, it broke my heart but I don't think she'd really do that, but what a horrible thought, that my death could push someone else to death, that your loved one's death is pushing you to death, it's just all very sad. Goddamn.

 

[Cathy Ames]

What do you mean by "a shelter"? In the U.S. "shelters" most often are really grim, tiring places without privacy and they often won't let you stay there during the day (only at night between certain hours).

 

[houseofleaves]

I have enough money to buy good food almost everyday and my parents are buying me a nice flat (yeah yeah i'm really spoiled i know that). But i'm still going to CTB ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

[HappyForever?]

I still would CTB. However, if I had a partner I would not CTB even if I struggle to get these things.

 

[BigG91]

What do you mean by "a shelter"? In the U.S. "shelters" most often are really grim, tiring places without privacy and they often won't let you stay there during the day (only at night between certain hours).

Shelter i meant was like a place to sleep .. a bed perhaps and a toilet/bathroom .. could be a common shared one too....
Overall i mean like a hostel place where you jad your own bed and could stay there as long as you'd like and not have to worry about rent or any kind of bills

 

[Al_stargate]

Not all problems are existential, rich people kill themselves too. Money can fix a lot of problems but not all though.

 

[FogFilledLife]

How many of you would not CTB if you were given food daily and a place to sleep like a shelter for the rest of your life ?

I feel like this is a sort of solution for most of the mentally ill people out here wanting to ctb.

I feel it's not the illness but existing in this world that creates all the mess and feelings of distress.

I personally know I'm gonna end up on the streets in a few years unless i ctb or if I'm miraculously cured...

I live with relatives and get that now, it just makes me feel like an even more worthless burden.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like in my case, nothing would ever make me want to live. All that I want is to not exist. I simply do not see my life as being worth living, to me, life is so pointless and unnecessary and I have no interest in living. I prefer the sound of non existence.

 

[Insomniac]

I technically already have that but I still intend to ctb

 

[Pain In The Ass]

How many of you would not CTB if you were given food daily and a place to sleep like a shelter for the rest of your life ?

I feel like this is a sort of solution for most of the mentally ill people out here wanting to ctb.

I feel it's not the illness but existing in this world that creates all the mess and feelings of distress.

I personally know I'm gonna end up on the streets in a few years unless i ctb or if I'm miraculously cured...

if it was my own self-contained premises, with some money to spend on drugs and fun stuff, I'd stick around for a few more years maybe - but right now I'm a burden to my elderly parents and mentally ill brother, all of whom I can't stand being around, and I have no privacy - If I could smoke all day, drink, take drugs, eat junk food in my own place, until I die after a few years, then maybe I'd not CTB and just wait for the inevitable deteriorating health from self-abuse to kill me

 

[Foresight]

Sleep in a shelter with other people? Oh I'd be gone. I'd rather work and have my own space. I'm working now to have as much space as possible.

I did survive because of a scaled down version of your description though. I lived off my spouse during my hardest periods with ample rest, food, support, etc.

 

[Toonloon]

No. I hate being dependent on others as well as being told how to live and such. Which happens in those places. I hate that. Basic needs met are not what makes ctb urges disappear. Especially in a structure where you slowly realize you have no control in ur life.

 

[Ednospatient]

I live with a chronic illness where I feel physically sick nearly every day. Having my food and shelter paid for would take a lot of stress off my mind, but I'm not sure it would keep me around for more than another few years.

Can you go into further detail? I also feel physically sick and throw up nearly daily.

 

[lostmylove]

The situation you described is no different to a prison. They get a roof over head and meals too.

 

[sealbabies]

Yeah, no. I do hate the idea of being homeless, but other than that - living hell you described.

 

[PaperGodzilla]

honestly idk, if i could avoid all the things that are stressful to me, life would be worth living maybe. The main problem i have with life if that I need to get out the house to go to work to a stressful job with little pay. If i never have to work in my life maybe i would try to enjoy life but for the moment all i want to do outside of work is avoid thinking about it and that make me almost as exhausted as work itself. I stopped drinking like 6 months ago so i don't have this easy solution anymore.

 

[Nightmare Painting]

Those things wouldn't make a difference to me at this point in my life. I live with two narcissists that provide me with shelter and food but even if I had those things without them it wouldn't even make a dent in my suffering. Nothing will give me my health, bring my sweet dog back, or make up for three decades of suffering & loneliness. Having the guarantee of shelter and food would've helped me 15 years ago when my physical health wasn't as bad & it might have given me the opportunity to recover from my trauma but it's far too late now.

I get your line of thinking though and do think it has merit if you provided those things to someone with mental problems earlier on in their life. A safety net would make peoples lives easier and less stressful without having them feel like they're completely trapped. Many people live in abusive living situations or can't take care of themselves because of various mental or physical problems so offering practical forms of relief like housing & food would definitely help.

 

[Judy Garland]

Nothing here matters. I'll be leaving.

 

[Darkover]

no there's nothing here that would keep me from leaving here when i do finally leave i'm hoping it last for all time too

 

[Leiden]

I'd rather be homeless with no food, rummaging through garbage cans than be in the situation that I'm in.

 

[symphony]

Lol, no. Having the bare minimum means to survive is words away from having a life that registers as worth living or even bearable.

 

[come to dust]

I would as long as i still had my touch screen laptop, phone and internet. Or else id die of boredom. i need free healthcare too.

 

[UnravelingWinter]

Can you go into further detail? I also feel physically sick and throw up nearly daily.

Doctors don't know what it is and meds don't work. Some meds actually make it feel much worse.

 

[Of The Universe]

I may be homeless in a year. Hopefully I will ctb b4 then.

 

[miserable_existance]

How many of you would not CTB if you were given food daily and a place to sleep like a shelter for the rest of your life ?

I feel like this is a sort of solution for most of the mentally ill people out here wanting to ctb.

I feel it's not the illness but existing in this world that creates all the mess and feelings of distress.

I personally know I'm gonna end up on the streets in a few years unless i ctb or if I'm miraculously cured...

having a place to live and getting food enough to survive doesnt satisfy me , i already have that ,my suffering is mental illness ,if there is an alternative to ctb ie , spending another 40 years of my life in a suspended stage , deep sleep without conciousness , i would have opted for it , being aware is extreme misery for me ;- part of my mental illness , i get extreme bombardment of random thoughts random images ,memories in my mind all the time along with other mental conditions .