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catfriend

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Apr 3, 2025
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had my first SN-specific suicide dream last night. details are hazy now, but i remember a feeling of anxiety, like the supplies and measurements needed to be checked multiple times for correctness. then i ingested the stuff and rushed to my chosen 'spot' before i passed out. i think i was successful, though -- i vaguely recall a 'fading away' feeling. that part was nice. :)

who's had similar? i'd imagine dreams about hanging, say, would be quite different.
 
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NiveusAnima

NiveusAnima

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Apr 19, 2025
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For me, I have lucid nightmares and dreams quite often. It's... not great.
My chosen method for the longest time was self-immolation, and when I dreamt about it... yikes. Uber painful. I'd wake up still able to feel it.

I've had a couple about hanging, though. It was weirdly... relaxing? Even though I couldn't breath and was panicking a bit, I remember this feeling of relaxation washing over me. Like I didn't have to worry about anything anymore. I also got a kind of "fading away" feeling for a few of them, too.

Not a damn clue what led up to the exact moment I did it, though. Those have been long forgotten. Maybe dousing myself in something or measuring rope was involved, but the painful and scary bits stick around for me.
 
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JesiBel

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Dec 5, 2024
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It's strange that I've never dreamed of my method (hanging), it's the only one I watch videos of and stay informed about.

In my dreams I don't die by suicide but because someone shoots or stabs me and I start to bleed. Then everything goes dark and I wake up..
 
getoutgirl

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Mar 17, 2025
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I've dreamt about drowning, which I was considering as a method, and the dreams felt cold, dark, claustrophobic and like there was an industrial vacuum on inside my chest. not great, partially why I'm not a big a fan of drowning now
I also had a dream in the place I wanted to cbt (countryside secluded solar place) that I frequented at nights and I fell asleep there and dreamt i was still there but unable to move and I saw my corpse crawl out from the hole behind a tree i planned to dig, and it advanced towards me with just sheer terror on its face. Never been back there. I think one of my first posts here was talking about that.
So yeah had dreams but they were not nice at all.
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

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Aug 28, 2021
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As a child I dreamt, that I hang myself in our garage, it was not a bad feeling.
 
dead dav

dead dav

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Feb 27, 2025
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I dream about different methods of ending my life hanging being the most dreamed about I find the dreams kinda pleasant
 

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