Discussion How many of you are here due to incurable health issues?

[Sockeye Salmon]

Not sure if these counts I have ADHD that has ruined my life and with little to no chance of having medication, OCD, BPD, and probably more that I haven't just realized yet. Probably a list long enough to be it's own book. You name it, I probably have it.

 

[Naufrago]

I also have annoying 24x7 tinnitus, depression, l3 lumbar injury, L4, ghosts of the past, two divorces, traumas of consciousness for having run over 13 people with train. Losing the intelligence I had, moving to dementia. I know a lot of people here have infinitely bigger problems than I do, but I'm seeing my future and I know what's going to happen.

 

[Brayu]

I also have annoying 24x7 tinnitus, depression, l3 lumbar injury, L4, ghosts of the past, two divorces, traumas of consciousness for having run over 13 people with train. Losing the intelligence I had, moving to dementia. I know a lot of people here have infinitely bigger problems than I do, but I'm seeing my future and I know what's going to happen.

I'm sorry you're going through this, my dear Brazilian brother.

Your problems are indeed relevant as far as your feelings. I hope you find a way out of each of these things or whatever...

you look humble

 

[Лавина]

I have a painful illness. I'm tired of living this way. terrible ringing in the ears .. 24/7

 

[Butterflyfree]

I am 56 disabled and bedridden with chronic pain, Diabetes, MS, neuropathy, loosing my vision, kidney disease, a spinal injury leaving me partially paralyzed from the waist down but still in terrible pain. Anxiety, PTSD, OCD, the list goes on and on.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I have a really nasty, intractable disease called life.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

PSSD, some pills gave me that. My cognitive functions are really bad, I have severe sexual dysfunction meaning I don't have any desire for my girlfriend, no empathy (don't care for my gf, parents and friends), no motivation and I don't feel joy or hardly any feeling anymore. Basically I'm sort of a zombie. I took them for anxiety and I was on such a good track! Had a girlfriend, found peace in Qi Gong, ordered my life, wrote in my diary what I was grateful for.
And now these pills took all that away from me. I don't have the capacity of finding love, finding God, finding a fulfilling career… What a wonderful life it could have been…

same exact situation :( I'm sorry this also happened to you… I also went from happy and highly functional, to bedridden, emotionless, severe fatigue, cognitive dysfunction etc because of pssd. I don't understand how this is fucking legal ;( they destroyed me before I was even an adult… only reason I haven't ctb is because I don't want to hurt my family

 

[cloudnone]

I have wanted to CTB since long before I found out, but I found out that I have a connective tissue disease that makes it so that I will eventually probably not be able to walk and also threatens my heart and is also the cause of the large amounts of previously unexplained pain.

The discovery of having the disease has certainly amplified my desire to go. Not just because of the pain itself, but because my one want in life is for a true love, and how could I ever ask someone to bear that burden with me?

 

[Amalur]

Incurable physical and mental health issues are the #1 reason I'm here. Live is just not worth it.

 

[facel]

I have wanted to CTB since long before I found out, but I found out that I have a connective tissue disease that makes it so that I will eventually probably not be able to walk and also threatens my heart and is also the cause of the large amounts of previously unexplained pain.

The discovery of having the disease has certainly amplified my desire to go. Not just because of the pain itself, but because my one want in life is for a true love, and how could I ever ask someone to bear that burden with me?

Ehlers Danlos Syndrome? Looks like I have that too - late diagnosis in my life after many years of different symptoms and pains. I agree on finding someone to be with you despite your deteriorating health. Wishing you all the best.

 

[cloudnone]

Ehlers Danlos Syndrome? Looks like I have that too - late diagnosis in my life after many years of different symptoms and pains. I agree on finding someone to be with you despite your deteriorating health. Wishing you all the best.

Yeah, it's Ehlers Danlos. Shit sucks. I'm only 23 but already experiencing major issues… not fun at all. I guess it's nice to know about what all those random pains were though.

 

[xLosthopex]

Not sure why anyone would 'choose' to feel suicidal but ok…

 

[facel]

Yeah, it's Ehlers Danlos. Shit sucks. I'm only 23 but already experiencing major issues… not fun at all. I guess it's nice to know about what all those random pains were though.

I'm so sorry, that's very difficult at such a young age. Is it ok if I drop you a PM to discuss EDS rather than clog up the thread?

 

[cloudnone]

I'm so sorry, that's very difficult at such a young age. Is it ok if I drop you a PM to discuss EDS rather than clog up the thread?

Of course! Go right ahead. :)

 

[Mors]

I am 25. I was a very active person and was finishing my college degree so I could work at my dream job. I earned good grades (6 As, 1 B last semester). I was working full-time before the semester had started. My performance review was stellar and my crew leader told me that I was the hardest worker in our crew. I sustained an injury at work which required surgery after being misdiagnosed.

Malpractice after the surgery forced me to drop out of school. I can't work, can't exercise, can't enjoy any minute of my life anymore after what they did to me. It's untreatable, incurable and totally devastating. Death is the only option.

 

[Chockles]

Look you probably didn't mean to, but you came across as kinda arrogant - playing a game of one-downmanship. We are all suffering here - that is literally why we are. Trying to say you're suffering more than others is kinda snotty to me. If you swapped your pain for someone else's pain who also wanted to CTB you'd be right back where you started. And claiming that people chose to be so miserable they wanna CTB is so obnoxious I don't know where to start. We generally try to support each other here. And I'm generally not one to attack others and especially not on here - usually if there is a post I think is silly or whatever, I just ignore it and not post anything. There is enough negativity in the world, and the last place in the world I would want to add to it is on here. I try to be supportive and do what little I can.

That said welcome and if you choose to CTB then I hope it is relatively quick and painless, and that it brings you the peace you deserve. I have never heard of severe tinnnitus before let alone so severe you wanna CTB but there you go. I'm certainly not making light of your suffering; it if it enough to force you, or even just consider CTB then that is proof enough to me your suffering is severe. Please just pay us the same respect. :-)

Exactly I have tinnitus but it's by far not the worst of .u 150+ symptoms & diagnoses but I don't claim to be worse than others even tho I feel on deaths door every day bed ridden & crying in agony 24/7. Have some respect for others tinutus may feel like the end of the world to you, pain is different to everyone

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I am 25. I was a very active, healthy person and was finishing my college degree so I could work at my dream job. I earned good grades (6 As, 1 B last semester). I was working full-time before the semester had started. My performance review was stellar and my crew leader told me that I was the hardest worker in our crew. I sustained an injury at work which required surgery after being misdiagnosed.

Malpractice after the surgery forced me to have to drop out of school. I can't work, can't exercise, can't enjoy any minute of my life anymore after what they did to me. It's untreatable, incurable and totally devastating. Death is the only option.

I hope you find peace soon. Everyone deserves the chance to have a peaceful end when we have things like this going on. Euthneasia should be legal everywhere in our circumstances.

Ehlers Danlos Syndrome? Looks like I have that too - late diagnosis in my life after many years of different symptoms and pains. I agree on finding someone to be with you despite your deteriorating health. Wishing you all the best.

I have EDS amongst other things. Death is my only option now but not solely down to the EDS. wishing you the best.

 

[lotus11]

Me, chronic eating disorder, ruined my mental and physical health

 

[yoyogirl]

I would need a lot of time and space on this forum to write all of mine down. Some I was born with and don't really cause major problems and others I have developed as result of others/environment and some have happened for no apparent reason.

 

[borderlineinchaos]

I have borderline, it is not a serious disease but it is forever

Curious how many people are here due to actually having their life stolen from them and how many "choose" to feel like shit.

 

[Sadism]

Exactly I have tinnitus but it's by far not the worst of .u 150+ symptoms & diagnoses but I don't claim to be worse than others even tho I feel on deaths door every day bed ridden & crying in agony 24/7. Have some respect for others tinutus may feel like the end of the world to you, pain is different to everyone

Is yours maskable? Mine isn't.

 

[Stopthepain]

Is yours maskable? Mine isn'ö

I withdrawl from everybody and everything. How old are u?

 

[frenchniceguy]

I have hyperacusis (I can't be in restaurant/cinema), tinittus 24/7 very strong and have bruxsim (Teeth Grinding) when there is big noise with big pain. Its destroy my life

 

[Bot]

Sorry if this offends you but it feels like you're begging for some sort of attention

looks like u need some attention..

 

[Chockles]

Is yours maskable? Mine isn't.

None of my widespread physical symptoms are mashable. I am attached to an electric fence 24/7, can't eatcsolods, cant use toilet without enema, can't sleep for crippling muscle joint & nerve pain, ears blocked off & crack all the time. Jaw issues akin to MND. So no it's not maskable & later this week I finally hope to end my torturous existence.

 

[Thaneem]

I'm surprised how many mentioned tinnitus and hyperacusis as I have a similar issue - middle ear myoclonus. The muscles inside my ear spasm and even after having them surgically cut, it persists. Add to this the neurological damage I suffered 20 years ago due to MDMA that robbed me off my youth.
In all honesty, I think Id be miserable regardless, but my stupid choices and bad genes have made a bad life much worse.

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

I have 24/7 tinnitus, and (loudness) hyperacusis (these basically can't be cured :/ ), and I also have some kind of chronic nerve pain that the cause of is unknown.
These health issues are the biggest catalyst to my future ctb.

 

[tryingtoescape]

Tinnitus, chronic pain, PTSD, and other psychiatric illnesses.

 

[Chronicillness]

The large majority of people living in westernized cities/communities have some form of illness, more than one illness usually, too.

I think the determinants of what makes a health condition bearable or unlivable depend on how much function you have in life; can you walk, exercise, socialize, maintain employment, eat food/drink water without assistance and live independently? Or are you crippled by your symptoms? So crippled that you are locked in the house, unable to leave, even despite a visceral yearning to reintegrate with the world and become functional again.

A lot of people are able to "fake" wellness, and if you're well enough to construct a facade everyday without it sending you into a crippled, bed-ridden/worsening state of health, then I'd say you've got enough function to have a half miserable and half rewarding life.

I cannot fake wellness to anyone, it's screamingly obvious that I am very sick, and I require help (that I am not able to pay for) in order to just make myself a meal or even fall asleep at night. I have none of the vital bodily functions working properly that are necessary to fake a normal level of health.

I'm being tortured every moment of the day because my symptoms are so merciless and unrelenting. The absolute state of my body right now is torturous, but the future for me is looking even more ghastly than it feels now, and I can't even comprehend how the human body has no ceiling when it comes to unconscionable suffering, but when it comes to tremendous pleasure, it's designed to be ephemeral and forgettable when compared to the day-to-day violence that the body is capable of self-inflicting without any malevolent stimuli.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

The large majority of people living in westernized cities/communities have some form of illness, more than one illness usually, too.

I think the determinants of what makes a health condition bearable or unlivable depend on how much function you have in life; can you walk, exercise, socialize, maintain employment, eat food/drink water without assistance and live independently? Or are you crippled by your symptoms? So crippled that you are locked in the house, unable to leave, even despite a visceral yearning to reintegrate with the world and become functional again.

A lot of people are able to "fake" wellness, and if you're well enough to construct a facade everyday without it sending you into a crippled, bed-ridden/worsening state of health, then I'd say you've got enough function to have a half miserable and half rewarding life.

I cannot fake wellness to anyone, it's screamingly obvious that I am very sick, and I require help (that I am not able to pay for) in order to just make myself a meal or even fall asleep at night. I have none of the vital bodily functions working properly that are necessary to fake a normal level of health.

I'm being tortured every moment of the day because my symptoms are so merciless and unrelenting. The absolute state of my body right now is torturous, but the future for me is looking even more ghastly than it feels now, and I can't even comprehend how the human body has no ceiling when it comes to unconscionable suffering, but when it comes to tremendous pleasure, it's designed to be ephemeral and forgettable when compared to the day-to-day violence that the body is capable of self-inflicting without any malevolent stimuli.

I can't even begin to put into words how much your post resonated with me and how much I relate to it. You expressed the various aspects of living with chronic illness (or trying your best to) and how it affects one's life so heartbreakingly perfectly.

I'm so so so very sorry you're going through what you are. I know firsthand due to my own long list of longstanding, chronic health problems what it's like to live such an existence. If you ever need or want someone to talk to, vent to, commiserate with or simply listen....PLEASE reach out to me. Sounds like we have much in common.

Putting good thoughts and energy out into the universe for you, friend.

 

[Rational man]

Yep. Intractable pain and loads more. Medics are not.really helping now. Its probably auto immunity related so probably difficult to.fix. Previously fit, active and healthy i cannot go on like this.