disabledlife
Arcanist
- Jun 5, 2020
- 467
Hello, I'm no longer getting along with my family, and I'm tired of being surrounded by people who have succeeded in life. Their birthdays were wonderful, they were surrounded by loved ones... There was a time when, because I was so fed up with comparing myself to others, I gradually changed my contacts, workplace, hospitals for treatment, and especially for months I stopped responding to my relatives when they asked how I was doing, even though they knew my life was far inferior and uninteresting compared to theirs. They even criticized me for not being able to continue my studies (which my health and my country have stolen from me). Before my sister got into a relationship and improved her standard of living, we used to talk regularly. Now I feel forgotten. When I send a text or make two calls over two days, she doesn't reply. If she "gets revenge" for my wanting to isolate myself because of this comparison of our lives, and because she doesn't acknowledge that my life was stolen and unwanted, I consider it a definitive break. The CTB (Center for Transhumance and Life Support) remains the only solution for me. I'm tired of having lived half my life disabled when I could have been an engineer, and knowing that my illnesses are incurable and it's too late to hope for a dignified life again. Since my birthday is coming up soon and it's a milestone birthday (10, 20, 30, 40, 50 years old...), therefore more important, and since I saw that my sister's boyfriend, who is the same age as me, had a wonderful birthday with lots of people around him, a trip... while I'll have a poor man's birthday, a restaurant with two or three people and cheap gifts, I thought the CTB was the best gift I could give myself.
