How many of us will actually CTB?

[mentalhealthfighter]

If you're on here, what are the chances you will actually CTB? As for me, I'm starting to my recovery. I just took my mood stabiliser for the first time and it will take a couple of weeks to see if its working.

I wonder how many people actually go through with it because I have some suicidal friends that scream everyday they're going to end it yet they keep on living.

I have no choice but to choose recovery first. I can't leave my mom behind and its impossible to obtain something like SN as long as I live with my mom. If meds dont cure me, I get the choice to either live with being suicidal or go for euthanasia. I really hope they would accept my request.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

The chance is 99% for me. U can never say that something will be 100% sure so I'm making it 99%.
I've attempted 3 times. Why didn't it work ? Goodbye posts/messages.
So next time there wont be a goodbye. Next time I'll just do it and this time Fent will be my method.
I believe there's no way someone can survive 100mg`s of this shit.

 

[logan]

If it were that simple, many of us would certainly no longer be here.

But it is not easy and it is probably the most difficult decision we can make for ourselves.

And we are all equipped with a very strong survival instinct.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

If it were that simple, many of us would certainly no longer be here.

But it is not easy and it is probably the most difficult decision we can make for ourselves.

And we are all equipped with a very strong survival instinct.

To overcome SI can be very hard. I tried to hang myself after my last attempt in a psych ward. very close before I blacked out a panic attack started. SI kicked in rly hard.

 

[slyna]

Even if there would be a chance I wouldn't wanna live with people. F*** I hate people man..
I feel like I suffocate when I think about people

 

[Luonis]

Between 40% and 60% for me, it is difficult to say. There are days when I want to commit CTB as soon as possible and other days when I am happy and would like to live forever. I am currently planning of doing it, but sure I will break down and do nothing, but who knows.

It is difficult to beat the survival stimulus and especially when I have a relatively good life and a large number of people who love me. I feel stupid and think ''Why do I think about committing CTB with the life that I have? I'm an idiot.'' but then desire comes back in, like a force that pushes me to do it, and so on.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

100% forecast of death. Continuing to live in this world minus all the things I need to make me happy? I don' think so.

 

[929er]

the only reason i haven't done it yet is that i want to be 100% certain that i will be dead. because i know any small miscalculation can lead to me living an even more miserable life. I'm gathering money to get my almost guaranteed exit. i know i will because i just don't see myself living past a certain time. it's not worth it and it'd be quite difficult to continue living in the circumstances I'm in.

 

[motel rooms]

And we are all equipped with a very strong survival instinct.

Cursed, not equipped.

 

[logan]

Cursed, not equipped.

Yes, depending on the angle from which you look at it ...

 

[trewer]

I think I will eventually, but honestly I can't know for sure.

 

[Cheza_mus]

99% for me...I am now trying to loose weight just for my overdose method to work

 

[whitefeather]

The chance is 99% for me. U can never say that something will be 100% sure so I'm making it 99%.
I've attempted 3 times. Why didn't it work ? Goodbye posts/messages.
So next time there wont be a goodbye. Next time I'll just do it and this time Fent will be my method.
I believe there's no way someone can survive 100mg`s of this shit.

Please PM me how to obtain fent . Thank you.

 

[slyna]

Please PM me how to obtain fent . Thank you.

We cant pm you

 

[FuneralCry]

My ctb is inevitable. I am not putting up with this life for decades longer. I believe I was never meant to be alive, I wish I was never born. My suicide will prevent decades of suffering. My death is the one thing I have control over. Things will only get worse for me in the future and I do not want to be there to see it. I do believe that someday I will reach the point of complete desperation and then I will be able to overcome the SI. Non existence is what I want.

 

[Lost Magic]

There are a few simple pleasures that I will miss but not nearly enough to make me want to stay on this rock for the next 30 or 40 years. I hope I can muster up the strength to say bye bye this year actually.

 

[one.way.out]

The chances are actually pretty slim for all of us. I'm hoping I'll be able to do it, but statistically the chances are against me.

 

[demuic]

I will eventually, whether it be soon, or years down the line. Unless I somehow die of an accident, murder, or other unforseen causes.

 

[Parn]

Probably around 90%. Gave myself a year to try, and improve, see if it was worth sticking around. So far it hasn't been worthwhile.

 

[S like Siren]

If it were that simple, many of us would certainly no longer be here.

But it is not easy and it is probably the most difficult decision we can make for ourselves.

And we are all equipped with a very strong survival instinct.

Exactly!!SI screwed my last attempt...it was all perfect and i failed,damn and regret it a lot.Now I don't have the same chance that I had over two months ago ... that's the problem otherwise I would be dead already.

 

[draw a circle]

Probably like 10% i have a rope ready and i know a place i can visit to do it but I'm a huge coward who actually likes living sometimes (there are so many things I'm looking forward to, but it's not worth all the problems that comes with it imo) and I'm actually scared of failing. If i have the courage to die i wouldn't have a problem in staying alive lmao. I wanted to make another drastic decisions first before i really try to die though. Just to fuck shit up knowing I'd have a way out at the end (that is, if i don't fail). And MAYBE I'd try recovery. I just want to ruin my life rn (in a good way, not like drugs or shit, more like doing things without thinking of what people might think about me). Since everyone is so keen on making me stay alive, might as well make it a problem to everyone. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

[WaitWithoutHope]

If you're on here, what are the chances you will actually CTB? As for me, I'm starting to my recovery. I just took my mood stabiliser for the first time and it will take a couple of weeks to see if its working.

I wonder how many people actually go through with it because I have some suicidal friends that scream everyday they're going to end it yet they keep on living.

I have no choice but to choose recovery first. I can't leave my mom behind and its impossible to obtain something like SN as long as I live with my mom. If meds dont cure me, I get the choice to either live with being suicidal or go for euthanasia. I really hope they would accept my request.

I'm in the same boat as you. I don't want to leave my mother with the grief of losing her only son. If not for her, I'd already be gone.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Oh, I will ctb. No question about that. Just a matter of when, how soon it will be.

 

[rosie93]

I'm in the same boat as you. I don't want to leave my mother with the grief of losing her only son. If not for her, I'd already be gone.

Maybe she will be better without you, have you thought about it? I know my family will be better without me. They are strong.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Once my Dog's passed, l'll be gone soon after, l already have my way out,and for me it's just a waiting game! No note, No good-byes, l'll just be gone!

 

[floofhook]

I think I will actually do it. What pushed me over the edge into becoming suicidal was being jobless. After I started working I stopped thinking about suicide for the first month or so, but now I think on how much I want to die every single day. The least of inconveniences and I think if I should just end it now. There is no getting off this ship for me. Same as many what's stopping me is my family, for now.

 

[Bedrock48]

I'm thinking around like 60-70% chance that I'll ctb sometime. I'm still desperately holding onto hope for recovery and I've yet to determine if this is a fully futile effort. There's also a good chance that unhealthy coping mechanisms and dangerous choices could ultimately kill me before I actually complete suicide.

 

[Jblack]

I don't know if or when. There are days when I am ready for the rope but just don't seem to have the energy. There are other times when I think let me give it a little more time. A lot of times I sit and ponder the dilemma of death, I am going to die sometime so what does it matter if it is today or tomorrow. At least today it would be on my terms and by my hand. As for fear of dying, I feel that I can overcome the SI. There are times that the drive to die becomes so overwhelming that I don't eve think SI is present.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

100% that I will do it. Whether that happens sooner or later (years from now) is a different question.

 

[lonerclown666]

Me in 2022 or the begin of 2023 if there are any complications