Venting How many failed attempts have you had?

[SadCryingBunny]

I've hung myself a lot, bled out once,oded several times, poisoned myself a lot, and electrocuted myself... I've given myself irreversible brain damage and it doesn't help that I've given myself a life time worth of trauma...

I just hope one day I do die and my misery can fucking end

So hanging was never successful how?

 

[Jisatsu]

So hanging was never successful how?

I've been saved 2 times and I fell 3 times ... sometimes I just fail and give up.

I suck at dying

 

[SadCryingBunny]

I've been saved 2 times and I fell 3 times ... sometimes I just fail and give up.

I suck at dying

I'll be doing it from a strong thick tree branch. How was it? I tried it before and almost passed out, felt like going to sleep. It's my only method now

 

[Jello Biafra]

0.

As others have said, mine has to be a one and done. It seems like most failures come from half hearted attempts or poor planning, or backing out at the last minute.

No matter what method I use, I will be employing a plastic bag over my head for insurance that survival is 0%.

If I had access to benzos or something, I would just OD on those. They wouldn't make me ctb on their own, and they don't need to. The plastic bag will take care of the heavy lifting once I lose consciousness, so there will be no waking up in the hospital or something like that.

 

[Jisatsu]

I'll be doing it from a strong thick tree branch. How was it? I tried it before and almost passed out, felt like going to sleep. It's my only method now

I've never attempted outside with hanging... I might change that soon

 

[barelyholdingon]

holy fuck, what was the aftermath of driving off a cliff like??

My van was completely destroyed, but I walked out of it with zero injuries besides my neck being a little sore from whiplash. I just sat there crying for around 20 minutes before a girl came by and saw me at the bottom of the cliff, she then called the cops. I told them that I was texting and driving as an excuse. Then I called a tow truck and they were miraculously able to get my van out

 

[DoomedDarkCircles]

63

How old are you?

 

[Jisatsu]

How old are you?

26

 

[Nightfoot]

Two previous attempts. I tried the plastic bag over the head method, but wound up ripping the bag off due to not being able to breathe and the heat that built up in the bag. I also tried the charcoal in a tent method, but I was drinking vodka as I prepared, to calm SI but wound up passing out and setting my back porch on fire. Luckily, a neighbor noticed the fire before it caught the whole house. Both attempts were years ago.

 

[Euphoricfilth666]

Twice. First time was in 7th grade, i was a stupid kid i didnt really know what i was doing. I tried to strangle my self with rope, obviously didnt work. Not sure if it really counts, but i really did intend to die that night.. Second time was in 9th grade i got really drunk, and tried to ctb by alcohol poisoning. I passed out and vomited all over myself but didnt work.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

One due to starting and then not being able to follow through all the way.

 

[shylady222]

Zero. I have my plan in place just haven't put it into action yet. I am hopeful and expecting my first attempt at ctb to be my only attempt.

 

[InTheAbyss]

More times than I can count as a kid and teenager. A handful of times as an adult. I've really lost count of how many times as long as we are counting the attempts that most likely never would have worked with the ones that had a decent chance to work.

 

[天使ない]

The first time I tried SN I was in grade 2 in our senior high school. I was trying to drink it up but failed. If I had been dead I wouldn't suffer from my current life like this

 

[Last_sunset]

At some point I tried counting how many attempts but I have no idea anymore.
Way too many failed attempts

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

0. I really don't want a failed attempt. That said the only guarantee is a gun (close enough), which I don't have, and a big jump, which I know I cannot do. There are crazy high bridges within a day's drive but I would piss myself and probably faint before I got over the rail.

Plan now is to hang myself. If I can ease into partial without exploding-head I think I can do it.

Problem is, I'm so weak in my depression right now. "Go to sleep and don't wake up" is the only plan I have the willpower for, and where is my miracle drug?

I view inert gas as go to sleep & don't wake up. Pass out & don't wake up… similar.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I view inert gas as go to sleep & don't wake up. Pass out & don't wake up… similar.

It does sound great and I "decided" on it the last time I was suicidal. But I just don't see myself going to the store and playing it cool. Same with a gun. I have rope right here. It's worked for many.

[Watch me fail and lose my ability to buy a gun]

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

It does sound great and I "decided" on it the last time I was suicidal. But I just don't see myself going to the store and playing it cool. Same with a gun. I have rope right here. It's worked for many.

[Watch me fail and lose my ability to buy a gun]

Ah. To be perfectly honest, they do not care. They just sell the stuff. I called, placed my order, when I picked it up there wasn't much conversation besides "sign here". About losing one's ability to buy a gun, this is why I'd like to buy one first. I'll be able to stay cool (to a degree) at the gun shop because I don't think I'll have to use it. That takes the pressure off, just buying it to have, just in case, as people do.

 

[Tarantula]

I've attempted to ctb multiple times before, but the attempts didn't work because they were usually unplanned, completely impulsive, and honestly pretty fucking stupid and pathetic. My first attempt was self-strangulation with my hands, but it didn't work at all. My second attempt was a few weeks ago when I tried to impulsively OD in Ibuprofen, which also didn't work. The amount that I took wasn't even enough to knock me out, all it did was make my stomach feel like it was burning and the burning sensation would get worse during the night time and it would also burn every time I ate food.

Spoiler: Eating Disorder TW

I've also tried to starve myself to death before and there's been times in my life where I would make myself puke regularly in hopes that it would insta-kill me. My chronic suicidal ideation is one of the reasons why I developed an Eating Disorder, sometimes I intentionally try to make myself relapse when my Suicidal Ideation gets worse because it can kill me and not traumatize my loved ones the same way that traditional suicide methods would. It's obviously not a good method tho because I'm still here