How.many failed attempts have you had

[WaterUnder]

2.
One at age 16
One at age 46. Damn near made it to the other side that time.

 

[uiop]

1. A few months ago. I tried to OD on antipsychotics hoping to go by way of an induced heart attack. Obviously, vomited, but thanks to this form I learned that I needed some antiemetics. Also thanks to this form I was able to obtain N, so my next attempt will be my last (hopefully, otherwise I'll feel like a complete failure that I am).

 

[IRIYAMA]

2 serious attempts and an experiment with some medication on the LD50 list for the 3rd attempt.....

 

[JustLosingMyself]

16 in the last 10 months, ow 1 in the A&E and 3 in psych wards... keep on getting saved or survival instinct kicks in.

 

[Nihil]

Three attempts (hanging and two seperate occassions of playing Russian roulette) and three aborted attempts (another hanging, poison gas, and inert gas) at the last moment.

 

[Batstern]

1. Different method than what I'd try now, but it got me scary close.

Filled an empty bag with deodorant, emptied my lungs, put the bag over my head and tied a cord around my neck. After about 20s or so my whole body was numb and warm, and everything felt distant. That feeling scared me so I ripped the bag off. Smelling that deodorant always reminds me of that now.

 

[psykotiskt]

Two. One when i was 12 and another when i was 14. The last one was five years ago.

Both were by hanging. The first time the thing i was hanging from broke and the second time i ended up backing away so the pressure came off.

 

[headinghome]

1. Different method than what I'd try now, but it got me scary close.

Filled an empty bag with deodorant, emptied my lungs, put the bag over my head and tied a cord around my neck. After about 20s or so my whole body was numb and warm, and everything felt distant. That feeling scared me so I ripped the bag off. Smelling that deodorant always reminds me of that now.

What was the deodorant supposed to do

 

[Mr. Hang Man]

I had zero failed attempts simply because I did not attempt suicide at all. This is because I know my method and also the circumstances in which I would commit suicide hasn't happened yet. I have gotten close to wanting to attempt it at times such as having a plan, method, and date (in the past), but never acted on them since I haven't reached that breaking point yet. Finally, given my method (firearm via shotgun), there is no just 'attempting' because you only have one attempt and if you fail it, you may never get another chance again (you end up as a vegetable and/or sectioned without the ability nor means to try again at a later date).

I feel the same way, I wish I had such a reliable method avalible and ready for use, I would definitely take advantage of it.

 

[Batstern]

What was the deodorant supposed to do

Deodorant doesn't contain oxygen, so you'd be breathing a gas without oxygen and you'd asphyxiate. It's a similar method to using an exit bag, but deodorant isn't as pleasant to breathe. If you google it, lots of people have died like this by accident before, by having too much sprayed in enclosed spaces for example.

 

[Begemont]

1, 2 or 3 or more depending on how you count it. I'd say myself 1. I don't really count the first one usually since it had basically fuck all chance of succeeding. Second was also pathetic in that regard. One where I got close. Then a few practice runs with partial, one that got even relatively close, I think.

 

[Jc40]

Too many to calculate. I'm frequently suicidal. CO in tent was closest, I regret calling for help. Shoelaces around neck I regret cutting off. Having helium tank in flat, regret giving away. Lots of od's that was just stupid.

 

[headinghome]

Deodorant doesn't contain oxygen, so you'd be breathing a gas without oxygen and you'd asphyxiate. It's a similar method to using an exit bag, but deodorant isn't as pleasant to breathe. If you google it, lots of people have died like this by accident before, by having too much sprayed in enclosed spaces for example.

how many people have died by deodorant??

 

[Batstern]

how many people have died by deodorant??

No idea, but I got at least 7 from the first page when googling "Death by deodorant"

 

[John Smith]

Three attempts (hanging and two seperate occassions of playing Russian roulette) and three aborted attempts (another hanging, poison gas, and inert gas) at the last moment.

Did you fail at full suspension?

 

[elcade]

Too many I literally don't know. 1st time I think I was like 9 or 10.

same here
first 9 and so many attempts 3 very seriously

 

[JadedGray]

Too many to keep track of and remember. 4 attempts that required going to the ER (which were the only ones that were serious): benzo/opiate overdose, slitting my wrists, Acetaminophen/alcohol overdose, and Amitriptyline cocktail.

 

[Jc40]

Too many to keep track of and remember. 4 attempts that required going to the ER (which were the only ones that were serious): benzo/opiate overdose, slitting my wrists, Acetaminophen/alcohol overdose, and Amitriptyline cocktail.

What happened for you when did Amitriptyline cocktail?

 

[JadedGray]

What happened for you when did Amitriptyline cocktail?

You can read about it here, sorry it's quite long: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/chloroquine-100mg-diazepam.14826/post-287820

 

[Jc40]

You can read about it here, sorry it's quite long: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/chloroquine-100mg-diazepam.14826/post-287820

Thanks

 

[JadedGray]

Thanks

You're welcome.

 

[NOT]

JadedGray

You swallowed 8 grams of amitryptiline? That is like 800 pills of 10mg. And a bottle of vodka. And that was all in your blood chemistry supplying your heart, brain and organs. This is X files. No if I OD I am not gonna do it in home or hotel. I am going to open a tent in a forest, and OD there, so there are only wolves and bears that can find me.

 

[JadedGray]

JadedGray

You swallowed 8 grams of amitryptiline? That is like 800 pills of 10mg. And a bottle of vodka. And that was all in your blood chemistry supplying your heart, brain and organs. This is X files. No if I OD I am not gonna do it in home or hotel. I am going to open a tent in a forest, and OD there, so there are only wolves and bears that can find me.

They were 25mg capsules. I emptied the powder, I wouldn't have been able to swallow that many pills.

 

[NOT]

I am really sorry for you. Thanks for sharing your expirience. Don't lose hope. Body is incredibly resiliant. It just doesn't wanna go.

 

[JadedGray]

I am really sorry for you. Thanks for sharing your expirience. Don't lose hope. Body is incredibly resiliant. It just doesn't wanna go.

Thank you. I won't ever give up (giving up). Suicide is my only option.

 

[headinghome]

Last year I tied a bunch of scarfs to my face to try and suffocate myself. It was either that or climb inside the freezer.

That was creative

 

[NOT]

I watched on TV some immigrants from Syria trying to cross the border in the back of a freezer truck, and they didn't die. I don't know how long they were there.

 

[Nihil]

Did you fail at full suspension?

No, it was with a belt noose at partial suspension. It was tied poorly, and after a few seconds of hanging, it came undone. No permanent or noticible injuries, but that brief taste of pain, yeah no. Hanging ain't my way to go.

 

[Siagos]

1. Different method than what I'd try now, but it got me scary close.

Filled an empty bag with deodorant, emptied my lungs, put the bag over my head and tied a cord around my neck. After about 20s or so my whole body was numb and warm, and everything felt distant. That feeling scared me so I ripped the bag off. Smelling that deodorant always reminds me of that now.

Do you think that you would have eventually passed out if you left the bag on your head? I'm curious, because if there was enough gas inside to keep you unconscious for more than 1-2 minutes, then you'd probably remain unconscious from lack of oxygen and eventually die from inhaling carbon dioxide, which would make this a really good method for people who can't order a tank of helium.

 

[Wanderer_with_Death]

Four "serious attempts" for me. Two of which had me at Death's door and I can re-account with clarity how it felt.

The first one that had me at Death's door was slowly suffocating myself with a plastic bag on my head. I must have laid there for over an hour just slowly letting Carbon monoxide replace the oxygen, being aware of my labored shallow breath over "time". it takes about 15 minutes of the body to lose all oxygen and "die" even unconscious, so I figured elongating the process slowly would deprive my organs of the oxygen and allow Death to be easier to achieve.
I was right.
Something within me "clicked" I went from lying calmly to thrashing/choking, I had the "flashing before my eyes", like all your thoughts/perceptions are being scrambled like eggs with a fork, you get blinks of things overlaying, your eyes are "open" but you can't see. I felt and heard my heart beating in my chest, I remember screaming in my head for it to stop, to have the pain stop, I felt like I couldn't take it anymore.
Then, bliss.
I felt like I was floating, still, and everything was calm, but I was floating "downward", it was very peaceful, no thoughts, no feeling, just "being". I didn't see anything but darkness, but I "felt" surrounded. IDK if that is the "afterlife" or not, but I felt like I was coming upon something that would be. But then something within me called, whether it was "God/guardian angel/Death" I can't say, but it wasn't my own "voice" saying how "it's not your time yet child."
Then I ripped the bag off my head and gasp'd for air.

My second almost attempt was partical suspension in hanging.
The last thing I remember was just dropping my full weight. I wasn't even aware I was unconscious it happened so fast. However the "human survival instinct" was very strong within me and some how I managed to "stand" and get weight off my neck and breath again, regaining consciousness.
It was terrifying, I felt like a deer panicking fully in raw instinct, I was instantly in tears and scared trying to run away only to be held by the noose and result in more panic. I managed to get it off of me and collapse on the ground trembling and sobbing so hard my chest felt like it would burst into pieces.

Found my will to live after that hanging attempt, I am doing everything I can to try and die naturally, however I know if I have enough reason I could easily have another attempt and probably succeed.

Perhaps because I'm a high empath, and an old soul that has me come here despite being "healthy" I by no means am here to condemn or persay anyone from doing what they feel they have to. I do have experience and advice, and if that can offer and help another suffering soul find peace with as little pain as possible then that is intention I can find peace with.