Discussion How many attempts have you made?

[IAmSam]

How much did you take when you OD'd?
Oh goodness-100+ partial! Did you not pass out quickly enough?

30-34 of 1gram paracetamol
1 x. 30 loramet + 10 dominal forte + alcohol
1 x. 60 xanax + 60 diazepam + 30 loramet

never passed out
But next time Will be my last attempt using SN

 

[Brick In The Wall]

4 or 5 attempts, my next one is going to be guaranteed.

 

[IAmSam]

care to share more on helium bag experience?

I was totally relaxed. And the gas was flowing in the bag. I almost fanted but just seconds before that i felt the urge to go to the bathroom. When i was there i was already to late. Lol. The gas was a Tiny bit smelly and Goes right to your head. I never tried that again

 

[beyond_aquila_rift]

did you back out because you thought it wasn't working? Or because you changed your mind? I mean I don't really care if I shit myself as long as I ctb. No judgment of course just curious as I don't know a lot about this method

I was totally relaxed. And the gas was flowing in the bag. I almost fanted but just seconds before that i felt the urge to go to the bathroom. When i was there i was already to late. Lol. The gas was a Tiny bit smelly and Goes right to your head. I never tried that again

 

[IAmSam]

did you back out because you thought it wasn't working? Or because you changed your mind? I mean I don't really care if I shit myself as long as I ctb. No judgment of course just curious as I don't know a lot about this method

I didn't changed my mind. And at that point i didn't know i shitted my pants. Just felt the urge to go

 

[beyond_aquila_rift]

Oh ok thanks for the info

*hugs*

I didn't changed my mind. And at that point i didn't know i shitted my pants. Just felt the urge to go

 

[LastRide]

2 real attempts - one benzos (yes, not I know they are useless, but it was in the days before internet and where would you get that info?), one partial. Lost consciousness while hanging quite comfortably, actually a really good experience...but then I must have started thrashing around since I woke up when the door came off and hit me on the head ! And of course a lot, a real great lot of bringing myself into dangerous situations to see whether I'd die or not...well obviously I didn't. Cannot believe I survived all that shit !

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

I think any more then 5, then something clearly isn't working, and that person needs to really sit and look at whats going on. Doesn't mean you're not destined to die, more of a case of you are doing something very wrong. And maybe need to take a break and relook at your options

I have had 2 serious attempts, then an overdose just because I wanted to sleep for a long time, (but not to CTB) ripped into my arms in the hope of serious harm, but again not to CTB.
This was my most Serious Path

Wow read that blog and you are so brave to post that and write every inch of pain you felt in that time! Hope your okay and thank goodness for your brother , our loved ones can over ride our emotions sometimes! 8 hours is so long but I bet it didn't feel like that to you....! Selfish that someone sent you a message saying you wasted resources, you always get one idiot that hasn't had any experience with mental health! Sorry you had to experience them!!!

 

[disconnection]

Two but neither were hugely likely to succeed I realise now. Paracetamol overdose / cutting my neck. My excuse - I was young. Third time's a charm!

Edit: Plus I've tried to get partial to work numerous times but just can't manage it! Have also drunk more than 6l of water in less than 2 hours twice, no effects. These I see more like experimentation tho.

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

3.....

first one was when I had my breakdown with depression. Had a fight with my mum and ran out the house in my pyjamas and bare feet, just ran and ran and ran can't remember much but I climbed into an electricity sub station and tried to electrocute myself. Just remember the police dogs barking in my face and I was scared as hell! Then I was in hospital for a night as a place of safety. If I had refused I was getting sectioned.

second was partial hanging with one of my dogs leads , no idea why my dad knew to look along that beach for me but he did and he saved me probably because the marks around my neck were deep.

third was partial hanging again with the cord from my dressing gown on the back of my bathroom door but my then boyfriend came in and I stopped. Not sure about that night either because all three attempts were when I was in denial about being unwell. Just accepted my depression and anxiety in the last year or so and tried to get better. ( not going great as I have my SN ready for when I decide to ctb next time!)

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Sorry for asking, but does an aborted attempt count? I can't remember if I've asked this already or not.

As in, you're attempting to kill yourself but stop right before you cause any true damage. :/

 

[NightmareTour]

6. I am exceedingly terrible at dying, apparently. Just like everything else.

 

[Sartigan]

I walked near a subway station with the intention to put myself infront of the train 2 times, didn't gather enough courage yet.

 

[CAH]

Only one. It scared the life out of me, metaphorically speaking.

Did that cure you permanently of wanting to?

 

[Quinlor]

Cyanide poisoning - one time

Hanging - many times and one serious attempt

SN - micro doses many times

Night Night - twice

 

[Deleted member 10475]

Just three times so far. I tried hanging when I was 11 but my mom found me, then I od'd twice last year.

 

[Green Destiny]

Don't possess the means for a proper attempt so none thus far.

 

[Tintypographer]

I've made one. Unsuccessfully obviously.

 

[Puppy]

I don't know how many exactly because there were many times that they were impulsive attempts. As for planned out attempts I think 3/4 times. I have such bad memory, it's kinda sad I can't even clearly remember how many times I've tried to end my life lol

 

[ghostgirl1995]

Probably like 20 attempts most impulsive. It gets frustrating after awhile :(

 

[ssaaahmo]

Sorry for asking, but does an aborted attempt count? I can't remember if I've asked this already or not.

As in, you're attempting to kill yourself but stop right before you cause any true damage. :/

I would count that as an attempt

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I would count that as an attempt

Then I guess I've technically had one attempt. Thanks.

 

[Valsalva]

Cyanide poisoning - one time

Hanging - many times and one serious attempt

SN - micro doses many times

Night Night - twice

Why did the hanging fail?

 

[Blowba]

The amount of times I made was 2 but no one really knows a out the first time I tried since I kept that in secret besides my therapist

 

[GoBack]

Countless impulsive attempts, not v good at planning this. Mainly overdoses of painkillers and/ benzo

 

[Quinlor]

Why did the hanging fail?

I didn't have the guts to go the end...

 

[Valsalva]

Partial I guess...?

 

[niloc]

Within the last few months, I would have to say I've had 5 real level attempts. This is where I'm in position and ready to go, just simply can't. Thinking back on these times I just don't know what stopped me - not a real survival instinct, but,.. who knows.. I just felt nothing and sat for several minutes until I just moved on.

I know ultimately that gunshot will be the way I go.. I just have to get over that last hurdle and manage to pull the trigger. Maybe I am a coward or somehow in my mind I'm thinking "i'm not really that bad off" - nothing more than the shame or walking or driving home from an failed attempt.

 

[ugly_loser2008]

2 attempts for me.

1 full hang at 15
1 partial about two years ago
Several practice parial lately

 

[Valsalva]

Why did you fail with full?