Discussion how many attempts have you made?

[White_Room293]

Short version: 1) I always liked my music LOUD. Like STUPID LOUD. 2) For the past year i'd been vaping to the point of nicotine poisoning every day without realizing, vaping was too convenient and i pretty much puffed on it all day. As a result of 2) i'd been sleeping like shit for quite a while (and didn't stop to ponder why coz i was working my ass off all the time). and 3) Had a dumb accident with a firecracker this new year's.

The result is damaged auditory nerve. Outer and middle ear are perfect, it's the inner ear and nerves that got damaged, and that can't be healed.

That's completely rational. There is this company called OTONOMY working on ear medicines but those won't be out for years and genuine tinnitus treatments probably won't be the normal until 2030-2040

 

[welshie84]

1 . loads of amitriptyline

 

[shaosin]

more than 10 for sure

 

[ARW3N]

I've attempted suicide twice. My first method involved the use of crushed apricot kernels to release a natural cyanide. Nothing apparently happened after I swallowed the poisonous kernels until the next morning when I had a convulsion and recovered. Natural cyanide is simply not strong enough to cause death. I overdosed on paracetamol for my second attempt but kept vomiting the whole lot up until I recovered.

 

[NotSoComfortablyNumb]

If you had any failed attempts, write how many and the methods you chose. I had two failed attempts which were honestly pretty stupid, one using 50 tablets of 500mg aspirin and then calling the suicide hotline from pure instinctual fear, and the second being exanguination in the tub slitting my veins vertically with three scalpels, but my mother found me even though it was 4am, it was an unfortunate coincidence that she woke up to go to the bathroom, which had no key.

I have made several attempts at OD the first when I was 16. Took over a thousand Panadol,huffed butane. Drank a lot of alcohol. Pumped my stomach. OD several more times on tramadol while depressed and hooked on drugs. Failed. Two nights ago I slashed my wrists and tried to hang myself but chickened out when the cops were kicking in my door.. sigh

 

[HannahB]

The first time I was 9 right after my dad went to prison and my mom remarried. I took all the sleeping pills at my godmothers house. All I remeber is her wailing the whole way to the hospital. Then again when I was 14 by trying to slit my wrists. Somehow I made it to 20 where I ran away to Portland to die. I did soooooooo much drugs and drank constantly. It was a 6 month continuous attempt to ctb. It's amazing how much you can drink when your high and never sleep. Then I tried again when I was 23 26 and now on my 27th by hanging. I'm pretty good at being a failure. Done it my whole life.

 

[hatelife]

2 total

 

[lotus11]

none yet, if I do it I hope to do it one time and succeed

 

[konarti]

If you would call an attempt sitting by the train tracks hoping to build the courage to chuck yourself under an oncoming train. I'd say at least 50+ attempts in my 34 years. I've tried hanging, pills, bridges as well. Never had the balls once to go through with it, even at my lowest points.
Thankfully I found this site and learned a few other methods, which I plan to go through with during or by the end of this week. Just waiting for one more delivery then I am set to go.

 

[MysticPerception]

I haven't bothered to keep count of my failed half attempts as I call them. I've tried to stab myself in the heart multiple times, stood out on the balcony with the intent to jump multiple times, drove out once to find a good tree to just slam my car into before. Also nearly drove into a tree after that though that would have been a whim. My only real attempt I count that is honestly hilarious in retrospect so feel free to laugh is me being so messed up and tired that I thought hypothermia would be a decent way to go. It doesn't snow where I live so I did the stupid idea of drench myself in cold water in the shower with all of my clothes on then get in the coldest water I can in the tub while still completely wet and just wait until my body temperature drops enough. Needless to say pain and SI forced me out of the tub far sooner than I would like. I at least felt slightly better for trying afterwards so at least there's that.

 

[ready 2 go]

4 serious attempts. Too many half-arsed attempts where I couldn't fully commit and wasn't sure about it. Would never tell anyone about the non-serious attempts, I'd just carry on the next day

 

[BPD Barbie]

3 - supposedly third time lucky but just wasn't the case for me.

 

[LonelyDude15]

One, I don't want to be one of those people who have a lot of attempts. I don't want people to think I;m looking for attention I want to die and be forgotten

 

[NightmareTour]

About 5 improperly planned ones at really low points that didn't get very far (usually just attempting to overcome my fear of heights, I've learned by now that that isn't going to happen, and the time I walked to the train station to throw myself in front of a train, but felt too guilty), and 3 properly planned ones. Overdose (threw up once the first few pills hit my stomach, my gag reflex is way too strong) hypothermia (someone found me) and suffocation (didn't tie my hands properly)

And years of passively suicidal reckless behaviour. I'm very bad at dying.

I'm pretty sure mental health services have labelled me as "attention seeking" now, but I plan to make the next one foolproof, so they can go fuck themselves.

 

[fixitinpost]

Two. Neither of them thought out or planned. In the first attempt, the idea was to starve myself to death - which is probably one of the worst ways to go about trying to kill yourself. The second time I got drunk and walked in the middle of the road at night. It was really dumb and I was endangering others, but luckily there were no cars.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

If you had any failed attempts, write how many and the methods you chose. I had two failed attempts which were honestly pretty stupid, one using 50 tablets of 500mg aspirin and then calling the suicide hotline from pure instinctual fear, and the second being exanguination in the tub slitting my veins vertically with three scalpels, but my mother found me even though it was 4am, it was an unfortunate coincidence that she woke up to go to the bathroom, which had no key.

One. The year 2001/2. 8 grams dilantin. Roomies were supposed to be gone 4 days. Sudden, unexpected storm brought them back that afternoon. 4 days in hospital, with no memory of events while there. I have 3 different means this time. My favourite means...the debreather. SN, with all the trimmings. Chemicals needed for H2S. There is no question that I shall succeed.

 

[Delia]

Three,
Two that were with medecine which are usually suicide proofed which were technically a terrible mistake.
The third one, maybe i could've died. It was an overdose. Three days of hell.
I won't say fourth cause i started at that time a metoproclamide regimen and when i sat down in front of my key out i had a sudden unexplained change of heart. Truly a stupid moment.