Discussion how many attempts have you made?

[Morphinekiss]

Serious attempts? 1

Dumb, unresearched, angsty teenager attempts? 3

 

[LongTimeComing]

I read the post but it doesn't really say what happened ….
3 dumb failed attempts as a teenager with OTC pills
Tried again 1.21.18 (decades later) with 140mg flexeril, 4 oz whisky and pepto bismo so as not to puke, but saved my life, I think.

I would try flexeril and booze together again in a heart beat if I had solid info on lethal doses.

I tried to od on flexaril as well and believe I had more than you and I mixed it with codeine. It'd be wonderful if the lethal dose was discovered, because it was such a lovely experience (at least for me)

 

[GinaIsReady]

Short version: 1) I always liked my music LOUD. Like STUPID LOUD. 2) For the past year i'd been vaping to the point of nicotine poisoning every day without realizing, vaping was too convenient and i pretty much puffed on it all day. As a result of 2) i'd been sleeping like shit for quite a while (and didn't stop to ponder why coz i was working my ass off all the time). and 3) Had a dumb accident with a firecracker this new year's.

The result is damaged auditory nerve. Outer and middle ear are perfect, it's the inner ear and nerves that got damaged, and that can't be healed.

Oh man, I'm sooo sorry. Is there nothing that can be done? fuck.

I tried to od on flexaril as well and believe I had more than you and I mixed it with codeine. It'd be wonderful if the lethal dose was discovered, because it was such a lovely experience (at least for me)

We need a pharmacist …..

 

[not_a_robot]

two but they were kinda halfassed, I knew I probably couldn't complete with my method, but it could induce liver failure which would qualify me for physician-assisted in my state.
Liver healed up just fine... sigh.

 

[Mars]

Age 19, partial suspension by rope.

I used a belt and pushed down, counting from 10 to 0. I remember after 1-2 seconds I realized that I hit the "spot". My feet started to go numb and my whole body got that "sleepy" sensation. I stopped counting down before I got to 0 and relaxed my body and closed my eyes.

I went unconscious then woke up some short time after (guessing > 30 seconds), my feet literally running parallel to the ground. I stood up and tried to drink water but my throat felt like it had closed in. Ended up wearing a hoodie for the next 3 weeks in the summer.

That was a long time ago but here I am, keep coming back to these feelings and these places.

 

[Sailfisher]

0 yet.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Fortunately I only had one failed attempt for now. It was a few months ago, when I had free access to my meds. I overdosed on TCAs, benzodiazepines and antipsychotics before going to sleep, and it failed miserably. I only slept more than usual and had hiccups. Luckily I didn't vomit or had seizures, but it was a possibility due to the dosage not being enough to kill me. Now that I think about it, I should have waited a few months so I could stockpile the meds, and then it could have worked.

 

[John Smith]

2. Overdose and Hanging. When my third attempt will be? Who knows...

Why did you fail at hanging and was it partial or full suspension?

I'm guessing around 8?
Age 12/13? - Hanging...eith an elasticated skipping rope because I was stupid
Age 16 - Overdose
Age 18 - Train chickened out
Age 20 - Cliff but chickened out... Did this a couple times
Age 21 - Bridge but someone pulled me back
A couple weeks ago I tried to hang myself too but that failed because I can't make myself pass out

Full or partial suspension? Why couldn't you pass out?

 

[bea1974]

Once. Last summer. Took a lot of tramadol, a few valium and a bottle of gin to wash it down with.

My dog was staying with a friend as I was "unwell".

Was found 18 hours later by a neighbour who had keys to my flat, following phone calls from my mum. I hadn't thought to put the latch on my front door as I did not think my absence would be noticed so quickly.

Doctors said I was "lucky" to have survived as most people wouldn't have, at the dose I took.

I didn't agree, I was furious that it had not worked.

I was in intensive care for five days then psych ward for six weeks, under section. It was horrific.

I won't make another attempt, next time it will be successful. I have, however, decided to stick around until my dog dies, as I don't want to risk her suffering in any way. She is old, and deaf, and has kidney disease, so unlikely to be adopted from a shelter - I know that my family would hand her in to a shelter and I cannot allow that to happen to her.

Thanks to this website I have my way out planned and ready for when the time come. This gives me the peace of mind to continue in the meantime, caring for my beloved dog until she lets me know the time has come for us both to move on.

 

[hunthunt]

At 27 I overdosed on Benzos an alcohol and "tried to cut" my wrists, in the end I just vomited everything and ended looking like a stupid with 2 injuried arms, my family didint even bother take me to an hospital, just let me sleep because i was so drank that i just cut only slightly my skin,.

Then I overdosed on Cocaine, benzos, and alcohol, and in the meantime I did a lot of stupid stuff like call friends and familiars, in the end a lot of people came, including my ex, and ended looking like the worst of the clowns when I wake up 3 days later.

Not more of that bullshit, the next one will be the last one.

 

[woxihuanni]

One. Because of circumstances, not depression. Was young and ignorant so thought cutting the vein in the crook of my arm would work. No cries for help, no suicide note.

Lost a fuckload of blood, though.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Why did you fail at hanging and was it partial or full suspension?

Full or partial suspension? Why couldn't you pass out?

Partial and I can't find my cartorid arteries

 

[EmptySteph62]

Two attempts, I slashed my wrist in high school which was incredibly impulsive and didn't work for obvious reasons. And I tried hanging but my mom came home early and I wasn't able to complete it.

 

[Tired of trying]

2 and they obviously did not work. Now need guidance

 

[Blackjack]

If you had any failed attempts, write how many and the methods you chose. I had two failed attempts which were honestly pretty stupid, one using 50 tablets of 500mg aspirin and then calling the suicide hotline from pure instinctual fear, and the second being exanguination in the tub slitting my veins vertically with three scalpels, but my mother found me even though it was 4am, it was an unfortunate coincidence that she woke up to go to the bathroom, which had no key.

All within the past 8 months since being diagnosed with ALS:

1. Pills/alcohol
2. In closed garage w/car running
3. Starvation/dehydration
4. Partial hanging

 

[Wayfaerer]

As of right now, zero. I have a good feeling that one will be all that I'll need with the method I have chosen.

All within the past 8 months since being diagnosed with ALS:

1. Pills/alcohol
2. In closed garage w/car running
3. Starvation/dehydration
4. Partial hanging

Can you not get N?

 

[Blackjack]

As of right now, zero. I have a good feeling that one will be all that I'll need with the method I have chosen.


Can you not get N?

Yes I have it now.

 

[Rachel74]

Over the 22 years of suffering I've attempted it about 15 times. Always via overdose, the last one was tablets and attempting jumping into the river but my partner managed to talk me down.

 

[Oblivion]

Tried Amitriptylline in 2016, its was TOO FUCKING BITTER AND ACIDIC (powder dissolved in water) i had a big sip at first and couldnt finish it, so i ran to the hospital

 

[itskindofafunnystory]

Partial hanging: 3 serious attempts, but all failing due to me panicking when I started to black out
Jumping in front of train: 3 attempts; each time freezing in fear when locking eyes with the train conductor and hearing the horn
Jumping off a building: people came by and started staring at me, so I didn't do it

I now have SN, so hopefully that will be my final (and hopefully successful) attempt.

 

[John Smith]

2. Overdose and Hanging. When my third attempt will be? Who knows...

Partial or full?

 

[LastFlowers]

No serious ones. I think if I had, I would probably be too brain damaged to even be using the Internet. Hopefully my first will be my last. Well it has to be really.

 

[c824767]

I have had stupid attempts of exit bag, od and hanging and failing them was awful. I do not know what death will give me but I know what my life will look like from now on until I die and I do not want to live that way. I have a plan to die in a vehicle immersed in water. If that fails, I will be devastated.

 

[mathieu]

- antidepressant OD (mum called ambulance)
-drowning in bathtub with sleeping pills (got up out of bath, don't remember why)
-stood in front of train but dived out of the way at the last moment (train was going slow and SI kicked in)
-took 80 valium, just slept really well.
-snorted 0.5g of heroin

So yeah, I usually chicken out and have chosen unreliable methods.

 

[Dawn0071111]

4... my next and final will be lucky number 5

1. Age 14
2. Age 21
3. Age 27
4. Age 39

This is bullshit.... Age 40. Im out

 

[Phazed Reality]

1. Partial hanging. I couldn't pass out and felt as if my head was exploding.

 

[Erin Inari]

I've had a few over the years but not really any of them were that serious. Most where trying to overdose with different meds but I didn't do much research so nothing really came of it besides throwing up and feeling drunk off my ass. Tried to starve/dehydrate once in college and made it to a point where my legs gave out on me and the world was spinning but stopped after that. The last one that I did was my first hospitalization, tried to hang myself but in the end couldn't and chickened out and told my therapist. Since then I think that i've become more informed and hope that my next try, (partial hanging) will be the one

 

[John Smith]

I have had stupid attempts of exit bag, od and hanging and failing them was awful. I do not know what death will give me but I know what my life will look like from now on until I die and I do not want to live that way. I have a plan to die in a vehicle immersed in water. If that fails, I will be devastated.

Did you attempt full supension hanging? Why did you fail?

 

[Painpleasure]

I have had one serious attempt. It is ironically the only time I felt most "alive" and excited in my life. I have never experienced such focus and determination in my life. Fully prepared to embrace whatever awaits us all after this life. The rope unfortunately snapped, much like my limited tolerance for this abysmal life.

 

[c824767]

Did you attempt full supension hanging? Why did you fail?

no, partial. when I regained consciousness the first time I tried again and same thing, I just came out of the nice dark dreamy unconscious place, back to reality feeling my breathing being constrained and I decided to abort. Afterwards I tried different hanging methods, i.e. in my vehicle with a noose tied to the outside door handle and bringing up the electric window but it felt shockingly awful as soon as the noose tightened, I could not get through the panic. A daughter of a friend died from hanging last month and I thought I can do what she did but no way.