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Sod123

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May 25, 2020
14
I've not left the house in 4 months, the agoraphobia is so bad I can't see how I'll ever leave apart from in a box
 
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Deleted member 24434

Deleted member 24434

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Dec 3, 2020
53
I stayed in the house for 6 months solid. I have agoraphobia too. I take panic attacks when I have to go outside.
 
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Sod123

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May 25, 2020
14
I'm the same, it's like a brick wall hitting me
 
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Deleted member 24434

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Dec 3, 2020
53
I totally understand. It's a horrible feeling.
 
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mimiopo22

mimiopo22

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Dec 4, 2020
380
hum? 7 years?
 
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AQUA

AQUA

Headstone
Dec 2, 2020
300
1 year, severe depression.
 
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Notwinnernotawin

Notwinnernotawin

Specialist
Apr 4, 2020
341
2 months and a half
 
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clocktower

clocktower

anxious
Jun 25, 2020
63
about 10 years? after dropping out of education. i really miss having a life but i just don't know how to function outside anymore.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
I'd say 6 months but I went out to buy my food 1 block away from my apartment.
 
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AQUA

AQUA

Headstone
Dec 2, 2020
300
about 10 years? after dropping out of education. i really miss having a life but i just don't know how to function outside anymore.
I can really relate to this. Do you still talk to your past friends and classmates?
 
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Notwinnernotawin

Notwinnernotawin

Specialist
Apr 4, 2020
341
hello, are you all right? have you been better since your mom threw your sn in the sink?
Not really. I'll jump in the river or get a job and move to get my SN.
 
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Latios

Latios

Experienced
Nov 22, 2020
269
I've not left the house in 4 months, the agoraphobia is so bad I can't see how I'll ever leave apart from in a box
How did you get food?
 
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Sod123

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May 25, 2020
14
How did you get food?
Home delivery which is scary aswell, I've severe social phobia, I go days without eating sometimes
 
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DeathBySuicide

DeathBySuicide

Member
Nov 30, 2020
46
About 2 months or so? I dunno, I forgot
 
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Deleted member 94

Deleted member 94

Wizard
Mar 24, 2018
696
3 months I withdrew a lot of cash and made my brother buy food and ciggerates during this whole period. I'm still the same I spend 23 hours in the house and force myself to go out to get smokes and food.
 
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clocktower

clocktower

anxious
Jun 25, 2020
63
what happened to you?
i was bullied severely, had a developing anxiety disorder and undiagnosed autism. school was hell. i dropped out at 14 and never managed to join society again as my mental health has just gotten worse and worse.

I can really relate to this. Do you still talk to your past friends and classmates?
i talk to one classmate about once a year. the rest dropped like flies when i got sick.
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,049
A few years.
 
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ghostspace

ghostspace

ghost space, ghosts pace
Feb 10, 2020
410
4 months
 
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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
9 months
 
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NightmareTour

NightmareTour

Specialist
May 13, 2020
398
I think I did just over a year a while back when I was recovering from a serious illness and my immune system was basically nonexistent. Right now I'm probably at about 4 or 5 months if you don't count hospital trips, about 2 if you do count them. Agoraphobic and generally just have no desire or need to be near people, plus my immune system still isn't great.
 
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suicidal257

Member
Nov 24, 2020
52
I can't order booze from outside in this country unlke I order it from abroad, which I don't like to do.

That's why I go outside at least twice a week. To buy booze.
 
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Lotus

Lotus

Experienced
Dec 17, 2019
235
About two months for me. That's when my life started to fall apart and I stayed inside day in and out for 2 months and just slept. I barely ate anything. It's very fuzzy thinking about it now (it was in 2017).
 
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Puppy

Puppy

F Up
Apr 9, 2020
46
Probably 4/5 months I can't do that anymore now that I live alone
 
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ZardozOmega

ZardozOmega

Narcissist Gay NEET-cel
Mar 4, 2020
718
i only leave to go to my therapist and psychiatrist
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
Years.
 
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next-season .?

next-season .?

Member
May 28, 2020
53
02 years i've gone out only one time
 
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Marchioness

Marchioness

Eternal sleep
Feb 17, 2020
295
Hard to say. Every so many years I'll have a really bad depression and not work or go anywhere outside. The worst was 9 months. I stayed in a room and only came out to use the restroom/shower or get food and bring it back in the room. I didn't bother brushing my hair and it turned into a matted mess.
 
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Deleted member 94

Deleted member 94

Wizard
Mar 24, 2018
696
How did you manage that, do you have support from family to do the usual errands like shopping etc. My brother looked out for me for 3 months when I became a complete shut in. I was completely in shock when I went outside after that time and saw election posters everywhere, I didn't even know it was election time.
 

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