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Iwantoutrightnow
Experienced
- Jun 27, 2019
- 274
From Sunday I will be free to ctb as my flatmate will have moved out. I didn't want her to be the one to find me as I know it would have affected her badly, not because we are good friends but because she already struggles emotionally and I really didn't want to add to that.
If I go back to the full suspension plan, or even partial if I could just get it right, and I died in my flat with all the windows shut how long before the smell of my decomposed body would reach the outside world? Once my flatmate has gone there will be no one to find me. The fact that nobody will find me is a sort of protective factor stopping me from ctb, not because I want to be stopped but because I don't want to be found, I don't want someone to have to find my dead body. But that is unpreventable so it's something I'm going to have to get over. I have googled it and it sort of suggests 3 weeks, does anyone have any thoughts on this?
It doesn't make any difference to the success/failure of any attempt but it might make me feel better to have an idea of how long I'll be there and how decomposed I'll be. I don't want to traumatise anyone but I guess that finding a dead body will never be nice for anyone no matter what state it is in
If I go back to the full suspension plan, or even partial if I could just get it right, and I died in my flat with all the windows shut how long before the smell of my decomposed body would reach the outside world? Once my flatmate has gone there will be no one to find me. The fact that nobody will find me is a sort of protective factor stopping me from ctb, not because I want to be stopped but because I don't want to be found, I don't want someone to have to find my dead body. But that is unpreventable so it's something I'm going to have to get over. I have googled it and it sort of suggests 3 weeks, does anyone have any thoughts on this?
It doesn't make any difference to the success/failure of any attempt but it might make me feel better to have an idea of how long I'll be there and how decomposed I'll be. I don't want to traumatise anyone but I guess that finding a dead body will never be nice for anyone no matter what state it is in