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Yes that's true. I guess it all comes down how you view life and your circumstances - if you take a reductionist approach and focus on the little things then yes, this and that thing may get better at some point. But if you take a more "whole"-istic approach then you will see that as a whole, life is shit haha.
Haha exactly. Unfortunately, life is not a gigantic flu. It's more like cancer with an occasional stroke that paralyzes you just in case simply cancer wasn't enough.
I think it may be just the stupid survival instinct.
You are not a coward just because you can't seem to go through with "it" right now. That makes you exactly like the rest of us. It makes you human. It's freaking hard to kill yourself. You have to reach the lowest of the low points in your life. Any and all hope for better days has to be extinguished. It can even seem like you're at the lowest point in your life, but you're just not. If you ever get there, you'll know it. In the meantime you can just hang around and commiserate with the rest of us. Are we that bad?
I totally agree.
Good question. I'm not sure I've ever thought to myself "that's correct! I just need to struggle on because it gets better!". For most of my life I just completely dismissed or wasn't aware of CTB; I think because I was less cognizant of it even being an option, if that makes sense.
My life was relatively shitty. And it was a constant it gets better... insert my story. How I spent my life trying to help people and then found myself needing help because I was the victim of a life altering crime. Only to be given none. I went from medical school president of the oncology research group... learning amd working towards taking away people's cancer to homeless in a year. None of it was my fault. Honestly if I can't get help or illicit peoples empathy. I just don't believe it exists.
I can somewhat relate. There was a time when I was really growing as a person. But even then, when most of the growth was done, something was amiss. I had always been excited about life lessons and learning and growing. But got to the point where I was just so tired of all that and the thought of going through another "life lesson" was exhausting, because while my body and personality were improving, my life wasn't. That was the beginning of me becoming a nihilist. I was religious at the time but couldn't help wondering if life truly has any meaning as that religion claims.
I think I know what you mean. When I was a kid, I wasn't suicidal but I was getting depressed because of the toxic environment I was in. But I remember one day I was standing by the window and my mother was just screaming at me hysterically. And I still remember thinking - wtf did you even give birth to me if you're treating me like this? So I screamed back - if you keep shouting at me, I will jump through this window. She screamed that I was welcomed to jump because the devil was waiting for me right down there lmao. And that I would only break my bones because it's only the 3rd floor.
Same. There comes a time when it just becomes too late to turn things around. For example, to try to remedy my situation it would literally take several decades. And what is the point when you're not 19 anymore and don't have much time left anyway? And I agree, people just feel like they need to say something so they say some bullshit and feel good about themselves for saying it.
I know what you mean. But in my case I was brainwashed into being religious since childhood and so for many years all I heard was "trust god", "god will help you", "god will fix all your problems". I wish I had realized sooner those were just lies they told us to keep us around.
"It gets worse" will never become a common saying due to optimism bias and Pollyanna syndrome
I was also indoctrinated by religion but I got out of it pretty quickly. I quickly realised that religion is bullshit. When I was religious, I never relied on god though or thought that god would make things better
