Venting HOW LONG CAN I KEEP THIS UP?!?

[itsmeagain]

How long until I crack?! Until at the worst fucking possible moment every goddamn thing falls through. How long?!?

I HAVE A CURSE!!! A curse that EVERY time I'm about to Game Over, something swoops in and gives me just enough air to breathe until it's back to being fucking WATERBOARDED!!!!

Every time. Every bit of work I have. Every time I think that I'm about to either HAVE my happy DEATH or I'm about to WIN IT ALL, it's TAKEN from me!!!

Why do I have this constant dance?! If there's a God, he thinks it's REALLY FUCKING FUNNY to watch me dance like a CLOWN.

Please… make it stop.

 

[pretentioussuika]

Yeah, i can relate to this too. It's like pinballing.

I can also relate to kamatte-chan

 

[itsmeagain]

Yeah, i can relate to this too. It's like pinballing.

I can also relate to kamatte-chan

How do you relate to her? I've loved her for so very long that sometimes I honestly forget what it's like…

 

[hopeless-believer]

I'm sorry that it's so up/down/sideways, never fully sunk but never out the water of struggle and hardship. Not easy, sending you , whilst I'm here x