How lonely are you?

[NotToTouchTheEarth]

According to some "friend", not as lonely as I think I am

But I think I'm better at perceive hom I'M feeling than they are, so here it goes :

I've never been lonelier. The few people that surround me do not understand how fucked and beyond repair my brain is. The entities I meet by smoking DMT compose most of my company. I've lost my online audience for my writing long ago due to nervous breakdowns and deleted works. All my relationships of the "love" kind have failed miserably accross the years.

I am, as it turns out, gonna be thirty this year, and cannot be loved, am unworthy of love, unworthy of sharing my art, and will forever be left aside. I am alone. There is no love. There is no hope. And yet I'm not ready to go since I failed the last time - I feel like fighting.

Because the rare moments someone talks to me, the rare moment I happen not to feel lonely, well, if they still exist, these moments are to be cherished and can still make me feel alive.

I just don't want to live a life void of any love. Because it isn't life. It's a pre-death situation, nothing more. I'm tired.
I don't even go outside anymore because seeing the happiness of other people in the city streets doesn't make me happy for them : it only makes me genuinely hate them, envy them, and despise their happiness. And I find this quite scary. So I understand how going to college every day must feel. Right there with you.

As lonely as mitski in nobody.

I am 29 and single. I'm worried it's too late to find someone. It hurts.

Excellent reference tho <3

 

[dkdkdkdkkd]

I feel very lonely but because I have friends and one close friend I feel like I shouldn't feel lonely, but I just can't share anything with my friends because it feels wrong to share idk and so I feel lonely and bad for feeling lonely at the same time.

 

[soleil]

I'm probably the loneliest person that exists Absolutely no contact with anyone.

 

[Alyra]

No friends on or offline. I'm also a shut-in so i'm isolated day-to-day. Yeah i agree, it hurts.

 

[wannabeasuperhero]

pretty f#cking lonely. I got dumped two weeks ago, but it's deeper than that. sometimes I feel like I'm not wired for human relationships, then have to deal with the consequences of not having them when times get tough. we're designed for connection, so of course we feel sick without it….

 

[Konnsz]

I dont know, I know I have people surrounding me but I dont feel a genuine concern. im trying to change that tho, bu to certain extents...I do feel lonely often.

i try to go out constantly to talk to people, taking advantage that I'm in college, it should be easy, and it kinda is, sometimes. but i also have extreme pressure to make the most out of it....

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Personally I am extremely lonely. 27 and no partner or close friends. I want to recover so bad but being alone just makes everything feel so pointless. And its a self feeding cycle since being a lonely depressed loser is not attractive to a potential partner and/or friends. What's really sad is that I am in college and around so many people everyday; taunted by the reality that all of these people have intimacy in their lives while I am completely and utterly alone. It really, really hurts

Loneliness is truly awful, yet I rarely experience the feelings of Loneliness these days due to the fact that I have now completely given up on the hope of ever being in a true friendship or relationship. Being constantly betrayed by people for no good reason has turned me into a misanthrope.

 

[ClaudeCTTE]

I'm not lonely because loneliness is always with me!

 

[MeltingBrain]

How lonely are you ?

Yes

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

According to some "friend", not as lonely as I think I am

But I think I'm better at perceive hom I'M feeling than they are, so here it goes :

I've never been lonelier. The few people that surround me do not understand how fucked and beyond repair my brain is. The entities I meet by smoking DMT compose most of my company. I've lost my online audience for my writing long ago due to nervous breakdowns and deleted works. All my relationships of the "love" kind have failed miserably accross the years.

I am, as it turns out, gonna be thirty this year, and cannot be loved, am unworthy of love, unworthy of sharing my art, and will forever be left aside. I am alone. There is no love. There is no hope. And yet I'm not ready to go since I failed the last time - I feel like fighting.

Because the rare moments someone talks to me, the rare moment I happen not to feel lonely, well, if they still exist, these moments are to be cherished and can still make me feel alive.

I just don't want to live a life void of any love. Because it isn't life. It's a pre-death situation, nothing more. I'm tired.
I don't even go outside anymore because seeing the happiness of other people in the city streets doesn't make me happy for them : it only makes me genuinely hate them, envy them, and despise their happiness. And I find this quite scary. So I understand how going to college every day must feel. Right there with you.

Excellent reference tho <3

Seeing other people happy is painful when you are dead inside. I particularly hate the summers because everywhere is crowded with people who are unlike me: For I am a walking corpse , alive on outside and dead on the inside.

 

[four-trees]

I have a few close friends, a partner who loves me. Yet, I still feel as lonely as ever. I am undeserving; there are so many people who have no one and I have what some people would give anything for and it's ironically what makes me feel isolated, wearing the mask of "being okay" for loved ones. I am proof that having love in your life is not enough to be whole when the problem comes from within.

 

[dyingslowly]

Personally I am extremely lonely. 27 and no partner or close friends. I want to recover so bad but being alone just makes everything feel so pointless. And its a self feeding cycle since being a lonely depressed loser is not attractive to a potential partner and/or friends. What's really sad is that I am in college and around so many people everyday; taunted by the reality that all of these people have intimacy in their lives while I am completely and utterly alone. It really, really hurts

That was me during all my previous life, right now the problem has become the opposite. The topics of intimacy or sx brings so much anxiety that it throws me flying away even thinking or talking about it with someone. Now, I am need to be alone to function properly.

 

[HyugaHarbor]

I'm genuinely sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. Loneliness can be tough, especially when it feels like everyone around you is connecting with others. I wanted to share something that might help, even if just a bit.
I've noticed the transformative power of taking care of oneself. When someone starts eating healthy, sleeping for at least 7-8 hours, working out and sees improvements in their physique, confidence is always boosted. It's not just about looking good but feeling strong in your body. This newfound confidence can make interactions and building relationships a lot easier.
Additionally, taking the time to dress well and focus on grooming can further enhance that confidence. Feeling good about how you present yourself to the world can change how you approach situations and how others perceive you.
Starting with these self-improvement steps might seem small, but they can create a ripple effect in other areas of your life. Over time, as you invest in yourself, you might find that other aspects of your life, including relationships, shift positively.
It's okay to seek support through online communities or counseling, as everyone's journey is unique.

 

[gore]

No friends in real life or online.

 

[R_N]

I am not "lonely" atm but I wouldn't be lonely even if there was no one in my life.

I had a period in my childhood where I was alone a lot and I think in those years I learned to entertain myself and deal with being alone better than most. I was curious kid and my imagination can be pretty vivid as well even without external factors.

Was I attached to some people in my life and was it hard to lose them? Yes. Ocasionally. But eventually I got to the point that I could deal with burning bridges like it is nothing. I can feel sorry for others but I can also suppress those emotions if I want somewhat or completely especially if I have other distractions.

So in short, I don't think I can feel lonely anymore. People are fun but so are other things, it is not mandatory for me to socialise at all.

 

[sadwriter]

I'm wildly lonely & isolated. I have a number of people who care about me, but nobody that I'm really close with in my city. It can be crushing at times, and I know that it's making my recovery process a lot harder. I'm also in college (though currently on a break) so I feel you on that as well...

 

[Anonymoususer1234]

To be honest I am a lot more lonely than I would care to admit. I like to say that I'm not but I have a lot of evidence otherwise. I'm really good at living with it though. I have to be.

 

[リンさん]

Very. I don't have any friends or meaningful connections for that matter. I get sad regularly because there's no one to talk to.

I wish I had a person who I could care for, and someone who would have genuine interest in me. But it's hard to find, and the search itself is exhausting.

 

[Ε. Η. R.]

Fully.
But even loneliness, completely without friends, is much better than being betrayed by those who were dearest to you.

 

[nozomu]

I'm lonely even with a partner. The only time I feel remotely alive and real is when I'm with them.

I feel like I died inside the day of my serious attempt last year. When I woke up from that… the part of me that was avoiding CTB because of not wanting to let everyone down died completely in that attempt. I have not been able to form other close relationships since then. I feel too guilty.

 

[Geist]

I'm a full blown misanthropist, so it's rare for me to feel "lonely". I just have a massive problem being around other people, because I just hate our entire race. Humans are just so fake, and only ever act like themselves when they're at home or with close friends. But as soon as they leave their comfort zone, they completely switch up, start acting "professional" or whatever and just put on a performance to impress others. I never liked that about people. Just fucking be yourself, why do you give a shit what other people think of you?

I've noticed that I'm more comfortable around women, because I just find it easier to talk to them. Men usually are very basic, and mostly talk about mundane stuff. With women, it's usually much easier to have meaningful / deeper conversations, and they're also a lot less judgemental. They also don't switch up as much as men do when they get out of their comfort zome. Exception being those "half a pound of make-up", basic bitch girls, who are all about materialism.

Dating is something I've given up over 10 years ago. Relationships with me just never end well. As I said, I just can't stand being around people for more than a few hours at a time, and that includes a significant other. Needless to say, they usually don't like that. I think my longest relationship was like a month.

And here's another hot take from me. Sex is overrated as hell. As a teen, I was imagining it to be the most mindblowing thing ever. But when I actually got my turn... I don't know, I just wasn't feeling it. I just felt awkward as hell. Never even climaxed during ^^, not once. My GF at the time blamed herself, which made her feel really bad about her self-confidence. That's why I just said, fuck this, broke up, and never bothered with dating again. I've been questioning if I might be asexual, but I'm most definitely into women. I don't know. Can you be both?

I will admit tho, I miss just getting hugs sometimes. There's something so comforting about it.

Sorry for the long post, hope this isn't a case of TMI.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

No friends nor partner, am doing okayish like so since am not a social person

 

[colormesuprised]

I'm pretty lonely. Maybe I shouldn't feel as lonely as I am though. I have some following online, I have some friends, but I feel so empty and hollow and tired.
My mother just got out of an abusive relationship and is raising my two half sisters, so she doesn't call me or visit me until she remembers. I'm fine with that. I live with my father, but he's so touchy with any sort of conversation that is negative.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

Extremely lonely..... I've got my mom and I'm grateful for that cuz without her it would've been so much worse,,,,,, But knowing I'll never meet a single soul who could support me and love me and accept me for who I am makes me cry so much every single day........ I've accepted my worthlessness and the fact that men can't love me, but I can't accept having to live this pathetic life of a pathetic disgusting thing that I am..... I pray to gods that sooner rather than later I'll be ready to ctb.....

To all the lonely people out there, I know how awful it feels.... And maybe some of you feel even worse than I do and it's breaking my heart to know there are so many of us, and I wish I could do anything to make you feel less lonely.... But all I can do is say that I understand and as ironic as it sounds, you are not alone feeling this way.......

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I'm a full blown misanthropist, so it's rare for me to feel "lonely". I just have a massive problem being around other people, because I just hate our entire race. Humans are just so fake, and only ever act like themselves when they're at home or with close friends. But as soon as they leave their comfort zone, they completely switch up, start acting "professional" or whatever and just put on a performance to impress others. I never liked that about people. Just fucking be yourself, why do you give a shit what other people think of you?

I've noticed that I'm more comfortable around women, because I just find it easier to talk to them. Men usually are very basic, and mostly talk about mundane stuff. With women, it's usually much easier to have meaningful / deeper conversations, and they're also a lot less judgemental. They also don't switch up as much as men do when they get out of their comfort zome. Exception being those "half a pound of make-up", basic bitch girls, who are all about materialism.

Dating is something I've given up over 10 years ago. Relationships with me just never end well. As I said, I just can't stand being around people for more than a few hours at a time, and that includes a significant other. Needless to say, they usually don't like that. I think my longest relationship was like a month.

And here's another hot take from me. Sex is overrated as hell. As a teen, I was imagining it to be the most mindblowing thing ever. But when I actually got my turn... I don't know, I just wasn't feeling it. I just felt awkward as hell. Never even climaxed during ^^, not once. My GF at the time blamed herself, which made her feel really bad about her self-confidence. That's why I just said, fuck this, broke up, and never bothered with dating again. I've been questioning if I might be asexual, but I'm most definitely into women. I don't know. Can you be both?

I will admit tho, I miss just getting hugs sometimes. There's something so comforting about it.

Sorry for the long post, hope this isn't a case of TMI.

I love women but I've always had a very low sex drive. I would be quite happy to have a gf who wasn't bothered about sex.

 

[accountnamerequired]

I moved away from my home town and into another state to begin a job I didn't even end up liking, and have been very lonely since then ( about 4 years). While the public school environment kind of forced me to talk to people and meet people and I was able to make some friends and be fairly popular growing up, I now fully live my introvert ways and stay in my apartment all the time besides work or errands and haven't really met anyone here, so I would say very lonely.

 

[BringMeToLife]

I am completely lonely. I don't have any friends in real life - close or distant. All my online friendships have ended and I'm afraid to make new ones. If I did, it would be hard for me to maintain them. I stay at home every day, go outside only if necessary. I don't think I have many opportunities to meet new people in person. I would have to create such opportunities for myself, for example by joining clubs, which is stressful and I'm not sure I want it. It's hard to meet people who tolerate me, let alone meet people who accept me.

 

[Jenny 1234]

Personally I am extremely lonely. 27 and no partner or close friends. I want to recover so bad but being alone just makes everything feel so pointless. And its a self feeding cycle since being a lonely depressed loser is not attractive to a potential partner and/or friends. What's really sad is that I am in college and around so many people everyday; taunted by the reality that all of these people have intimacy in their lives while I am completely and utterly alone. It really, really hurts

I feel lonely as well. The only family I have are my parents. I have never been close to my dad and my mum has dementia now

 

[sadmailman]

Been feeling pretty much alone for years. I literally don't know how I keep going or how I somehow cope with this.
I used to push others, but when I learned to keep all the negativity in me and not be whiny on the public, everyone suddenly disappeared. It's… weird, to say the least.

I'm surrounded by different people, maybe even lots of them. But both myself and they feel so…distant…so absent.

I'm lonely. I hate loneliness. But I also hate social interactions. But I do want to interact.

 

[anoufrievy]

i dont know, i dont have any friends/close friends and my lover lives far. i dont talk to family much either.