Discussion How lonely are you right enough?....

[Cute_&_Loving]

I don't think I felt more lonely in my whole life.... I thought I found my person who understood me completely but that was one big lie..... I thought I could always talk to my mother and she would understand everything but I had no idea how wrong I was..... I'm so exhausted and drained mentally/emotionally that I can't even find the strengh and energy to commit suicide..... I envy those who're feeling numb.....
They say when you feel so low and suicidal, reach out.... And I did.... So many fucking times..... Not a single soul tried to be there.... Even my former therapist..... God knows no one actually cares.... Those people who I helped when they were feeling awful, when I was there for them, didn't even try to return thr courtesy..... They couldn't care less..... This world is indeed the loneliest place there possibly could be......

So how lonely are you?... Is it enough to end this all as soon as possible?...........

P.S. Sorry for venting................... I do want to know how you guys feel..........

 

[venin]

I don't think I felt more lonely in my whole life.... I thought I found my person who understood me completely but that was one big lie..... I thought I could always talk to my mother and she would understand everything but I had no idea how wrong I was..... I'm so exhausted and drained mentally/emotionally that I can't even find the strengh and energy to commit suicide..... I envy those who're feeling numb.....
They say when you feel so low and suicidal, reach out.... And I did.... So many fucking times..... Not a single soul tried to be there.... Even my former therapist..... God knows no one actually cares.... Those people who I helped when they were feeling awful, when I was there for them, didn't even try to return thr courtesy..... They couldn't care less..... This world is indeed the most lonely place there possibly could be......

So how lonely are you?... Is it enough to end this all as soon as possible?...........

P.S. Sorry for venting................... I do want to know how you guys feel..........

I am kinda numb, but I can honestly tell you this is not desirable either. I feel like a fucking chair or something

Other than right now I feel enormously lonely and misunderstood.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

Just find this melody very sad but incredibly beautiful.... Wanted to share it....
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[FuneralCry]

I will always feel alone but not lonely, I've never really desired being around other people as such a thing could very likely lead to more suffering but I'm certainly alone, trapped with my own thoughts in an existence that will always be undesirable, I'm just passing the time until somehow I finally find true relief from this existence.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

I am kinda numb, but I can honestly tell you this is not desirable either. I feel like a fucking chair or something

Other than right now I feel enormously lonely and misunderstood.

I get it... I heard people say that they hat it feeling so numb..... And I'm truly sorry you're feeling this way.... But don't you think it's still better rather than feeling this huge pain when you that makes you think you're losing your mind?.....

 

[roboteulogy]

i'm alone most of the time. i've not had an irl human interaction in months. the only person i'd want to be around is on the other side of the planet.

that's fine though, i don't feel too lonely most of the time. i'm fine being by myself, the freedom in it is nice but sometimes i wish i had someone to call home and it gets pretty bad.

i'm sorry you're going through this. loneliness can get unbearably hellish.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

I will always feel alone but not lonely, I've never really desired being around other people as such a thing could very likely lead to more suffering but I'm certainly alone, trapped with my own thoughts in an existence that will always be undesirable, I'm just passing the time until somehow I finally find true relief from this existence.

I understand it.... but sometimes, very rarely I just want to be hugged I guess... I hope rather sooner than later you'll get that freedom....

 

[brokeandbroken]

I don't think I felt more lonely in my whole life.... I thought I found my person who understood me completely but that was one big lie..... I thought I could always talk to my mother and she would understand everything but I had no idea how wrong I was..... I'm so exhausted and drained mentally/emotionally that I can't even find the strengh and energy to commit suicide..... I envy those who're feeling numb.....
They say when you feel so low and suicidal, reach out.... And I did.... So many fucking times..... Not a single soul tried to be there.... Even my former therapist..... God knows no one actually cares.... Those people who I helped when they were feeling awful, when I was there for them, didn't even try to return thr courtesy..... They couldn't care less..... This world is indeed the loneliest place there possibly could be......

So how lonely are you?... Is it enough to end this all as soon as possible?...........

P.S. Sorry for venting................... I do want to know how you guys feel..........

Incredibly alone. But I'm also at a point where A) I'm used to it. B) Where I really and rightfully hate humanity.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

i'm alone most of the time. i've not had an irl human interaction in months. the only person i'd want to be around is on the other side of the planet.

that's fine though, i don't feel too lonely most of the time. i'm fine being by myself, the freedom in it is nice but sometimes i wish i had someone to call home and it gets pretty bad.

i'm sorry you're going through this. loneliness can get unbearably hellish.

Absolutely understand it.... And I'm sorry to hear that.... Maybe one day you'll be with that person.... Stranger things happened....

 

[venin]

I get it... I heard people say that they hat it feeling so numb..... And I'm truly sorry you're feeling this way.... But don't you think it's still better rather than feeling this huge pain when you that makes you think you're losing your mind?.....

Yeah, if I think about it, you're right. I've felt this way 2 weeks ago and I wanted to jump in front of a car or something. It was like my chest was imploding. Like an alien was gonna come out of me…

So yeah. It is kinda better. It's still hell but at least you don't wanna smash your fucking head on the first rock you see.

hugs darling. I'm sorry you feel that bad…

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

Incredibly alone. But I'm also at a point where A) I'm used to it. B) Where I really and rightfully hate humanity.

Can't say I don't understand it.... I kinda feel the same.... hate mankind with all my heart..... we're the worst species this planet could give life to..... Trust me, I am very sorry you're so alone....

Yeah, if I think about it, you're right. I've felt this way 2 weeks ago and I wanted to jump in front of a car or something. It was like my chest was imploding. Like an alien was gonna come out of me…

So yeah. It is kinda better. It's still hell but at least you don't wanna smash your fucking head on the first rock you see.

hugs darling. I'm sorry you feel that bad…

yeah... exactly)) it's a bit better not to want to smash your head)))
but regardless I absolutely believe you that it sucks majorly to feel like you do....
Thank you, dear!! Thank you

 

[brokeandbroken]

Can't say I don't understand it.... I kinda feel the same.... hate mankind with all my heart..... we're the worst species this planet could give life to..... Trust me, I am very sorry you're so alone....

Hopefully, there's peace eventually and maybe just maybe we won't be alone. I'm terribly sorry you are alone as well. If you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here for you.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

Hopefully, there's peace eventually and maybe just maybe we won't be alone. I'm terribly sorry you are alone as well. If you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here for you.

You mean in death we'll be able to find that peace?.... Thank you very much!! Same here))) Honestly

 

[Captive_Mind515]

20+ years alone. It's not good, but sadly I've gotten used to it.

I can survive it and have done for a long time obviously, but I no longer see any real point in continuing this hollow sham of an existence.

I'm sorry you are so alone. If it's something you are not used to, it can be very hard to cope with. But even getting used to it is not really a good thing. It's better to find a way to break the cycle early or find some resolution, rather than just coping. There is never any joy in permanent isolation.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

20+ years alone. It's not good, but sadly I've gotten used to it.

I can survive it and have done for a long time obviously, but I no longer see any real point in continuing this hollow sham of an existence.

I'm sorry you are so alone. If it's something you are not used to, it can be very hard to cope with. But even getting used to it is not really a good thing. It's better to find a way to break the cycle early or find some resolution, rather than just coping. There is never any joy in permanent isolation.

Wow.... You're a true sirvivor.... Can't imagine how you were able to get this far...... I am very sorry....
And you're right.... It's not somethig I'm used to even tho I've been lonely for a few years now.... It just only hit me now that despite being surrounded by people who claim to care.... they barely do if they do at all and no one wants you whne you need them the most bc apparently you're so negative. I just realized that all the people in my life only tolerated me when I wasn't bothering them with my problems....
No i know... It won't be permament.... As soon as this wave passes I'll be catching the bus))) it's been honking for a while now))))

 

[ellipse]

almost 10 years alone here

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

almost 10 years alone here

i can only imagine how much it sucks.... i love nature but fuck it for creating us to be social creatures..........

 

[WonderingSoul]

I feel so insanely lonely. It's driving me nuts

 

[Starry✧･ﾟDaze]

I'm alone most of the time and I hate it. But at the same time I love it, cause I'm too exhausted and too much social interaction drains me.

However, even when there are people around me I just feel so lonely and out of place.

There is a ripple in the air. It looks transparent, but colorful chromatic and almost invisible in my mind. It's between me and them all the time, a constant reminder that I can't break through, can't get into their colorful world.

I feel like a virus in this huge organism called society. A virus that never wanted to do any harm, never wanted to be born in the first place, but got isolated early on by the blood cells and now is too weak to impact or change it's surroundings.

I just wish this would end, it honestly drives me insane.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I am alone but that's normal for me. I can't say I get lonely that often. Maybe because I'm so used to it. It's been over 20 years since I lived with anyone. I usually work alone too.

I don't know how good that really is. I guess I'm glad I don't feel lonely but I've probably learnt to be like this via feeling hurt when I have lost people. Just seems easier not to have them to lose now.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

I feel so insanely lonely. It's driving me nuts

I know exactly how it feels. I feel the same. And I'm so so very sorry..... wish there was a switch to turn it off.....

I'm alone most of the time and I hate it. But at the same time I love it, cause I'm too exhausted and too much social interaction drains me.

However, even when there are people around me I just feel so lonely and out of place.

There is a ripple in the air. It looks transparent, but colorful chromatic and almost invisible in my mind. It's between me and them all the time, a constant reminder that I can't break through, can't get into their colorful world.

I feel like a virus in this huge organism called society. A virus that never wanted to do any harm, never wanted to be born in the first place, but got isolated early on by the blood cells and now is too weak to impact or change it's surroundings.

I just wish this would end, it honestly drives me insane.

I know what you're talking about..... I wish I had just one person to stand by me. I don't want these huge gatherings of people around me. It drains me too.. but just one person who cares a 100%..... just one.... I wish for humans to stop existing.... i care for animals and nature.... this planet needs to be humans free.....

I am alone but that's normal for me. I can't say I get lonely that often. Maybe because I'm so used to it. It's been over 20 years since I lived with anyone. I usually work alone too.

I don't know how good that really is. I guess I'm glad I don't feel lonely but I've probably learnt to be like this via feeling hurt when I have lost people. Just seems easier not to have them to lose now.

Maybe you're right.... maybe you're right....