Discussion How is your poker face?

[Anxieyote]

I've been receiving a lot of comments from coworkers saying, "You look sad."

It bothers me a lot, because I don't trust any of them enough to even begin to describe my mental health struggles. The weight of a million wrong decisions I've made is a burden I carry with me daily, so I can't give any of them a quick and simple explanation like "My dog just died."

Does anyone else struggle blending in because of a look of devastation or hopelessness on your face that other people can detect?

 

[Sherri]

poker face like lady gaga

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Does anyone else struggle blending in because of a look of devastation or hopelessness on your face that other people can detect?

No, both the basement and my family are super-depressive environments where I blend in just fine.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I've been receiving a lot of comments from coworkers saying, "You look sad."

It bothers me a lot, because I don't trust any of them enough to even begin to describe my mental health struggles. The weight of a million wrong decisions I've made is a burden I carry with me daily, so I can't give any of them a quick and simple explanation like "My dog just died."

Does anyone else struggle blending in because of a look of devastation or hopelessness on your face that other people can detect?

I'm sure people can see it on me right now… hollow eyes

 

[Flying Away]

I hate it when people say I look sad. I'm not sad I'm bloody depressed

 

[Anxieyote]

I hate it when people say I look sad. I'm not sad I'm bloody depressed

For them, being happy is the default. They can't even fathom the emotional level we are functioning on.

 

[Flying Away]

The other one i hate is "cheer up it cant be that bad". Well actually yes it is.

 

[Anxieyote]

The other one i hate is "cheer up it cant be that bad". Well actually yes it is.

I really wish emotional wounds were as visible as physical wounds so people could get a better idea of how much we are suffering.

They wouldn't go up to someone who was bleeding out with multiple spear wounds in their chest, and say, "Cheer up already!"

 

[Snake of Eden]

I really wish emotional wounds were as visible as physical wounds so people could get a better idea of how much we are suffering.

They wouldn't go up to someone who was bleeding out with multiple spear wounds in their chest, and say, "Cheer up already!"

They are visible for people who can really see

 

[FuneralCry]

I always look miserable, just by looking at me you can see how tired I am of life. I am not around people much though, I mostly just keep to myself.

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

When I'm at work I can hid it by being overly loud and laugh, but on the inside crumbling. I said to my therapist I'm the fakest person I know.
When 2 colleagues at work found out about my mental health, they said they couldn't believe it cause I am always so cheerful.
I call it my mask. It is not a healthy mask to have as you know

 

[Snake of Eden]

Never had one. Never can act

 

[cambrai33]

I'm 3 months into this now.

My old self was happy and confident, the joker of the pack at work and then this state of mind hit me, they noticed right away and I just said I was finding some things difficult and I would be fine.

Im getting help but it won't work as just below the surface I have about 4 weeks left, im calm but empty of emotion. I owe it to all those that love and care for me to make the effort but it's not working. 3 weeks after jumping through hoops to register with a GP and still no confirmation I'm accepted.

So I find myself on a slow deliberate path, outwardly down but the extent of which nobody will understand how much until I have left.

The only feelings I have are for others and I really care about many of the souls here going through hell, I wish none of you had to ctb but I understand when you have exhausted every option there doesn't seem like anything left

The poker face is easy when you feel empty and emotionless