How have abusive relationships affected you long term?

[WholeHereafter]

Wondering if there are others in abusive relationships here, and how they have affected you? Looking for any support from people experiencing the same, and how you differentiate your own innate mental or physical health issues that lead to depressive and suicidal thoughts versus those brought on or exacerbated by an abusive partner?

 

[Lam1dz]

Wondering if there are others in abusive relationships here, and how they have affected you? Looking for any support from people experiencing the same, and how you differentiate your own innate mental or physical health issues that lead to depressive and suicidal thoughts versus those brought on or exacerbated by an abusive parta

i give the blame to all people in my life but my mom is the main reason since a was a little girl she's the reason i tried to ctb when i was 13 but failed now i am suffuring even more

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I had/have abusive parents. I've mostly excommunicated myself from them now. But it irritates the crap out of me every time the contact is made. I just get livid. I want nothing to do with me. There should be some kind of parenting license that people get in order to be allowed to have children I swear. They fucked me up for life. I've done some work and tried to heal the trauma but there's only so much you can do. Some things are just too deeply rooted in you, even on the subconscious level.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

at least half a dozen between 'care takers' and later in relationships. probably more but the CPTSD is real.