Discussion How has having a plan affected your mental health?

[sifp]

Has having a suicide method lined up made you feel better or worse? My therapist said having an out lined up hinders the possibility of recovery. What are your experiences?

 

[hdead]

It's helped me be patient enough to even give recovery a chance without going insane every second of the day. It's nice to know where the eject button is should I want to use it.

Getting this close has actually shown me that there are still other options to try, so I disagree with your therapist.

Edit: Getting this close also helped me find this place and seeing/getting to know people who are like me and think in a similar fashion. It has made me feel less alone and that wouldn't have happened. IRL I haven't found any of you. :)

 

[hevnsfall]

Having my suicide plan as my plan C made me feel relief because i don't want to be a burden to anyone.

 

[sifp]

It's helped me be patient enough to even give recovery a chance without going insane every second of the day. It's nice to know where the eject button is should I want to use it.

Getting this close has actually shown me that there are still other options to try, so I disagree with your therapist.

Edit: Getting this close also helped me find this place and seeing/getting to know people who are like me and think in a similar fashion. It has made me feel less alone and that wouldn't have happened. IRL I haven't found any of you. :)

Interesting. I think I'm gonna try the same strategy. May I ask what your backup plan is?

 

[Iammyself]

It's honestly helped a ton. I'm actually waiting on something to be delivered so I could do it if I wanted. I feel more relaxed and just living in the moment. Either I can fix my life from where I am or I don't have to worry about it anymore. I can understand the argument that it can hinder recovery and all that. BUT, I think it can also help in a sort of backwards way. It just depends, I suppose.

 

[h4ppyhypoxia]

still suffering each day, but wow, its really taken the edge off quite a lot, all the things that hurt me dont really "matter" anymore because theyre just for the time being, i dont have to stress about my future, whether its relational or occupational, because i wont be around much longer, of course i still do worry, but i can actually have moments of peace in my days now

 

[hdead]

Interesting. I think I'm gonna try the same strategy. May I ask what your backup plan is?

By backup plan, I assume you're referring to my 'eject-button'. It's either a very fancy well comprised cocktail of pharmacueticals or SN. I have both ready to go. SN being the one that will last me longer.

 

[delinquentsandwich]

having that ability to go whenever is deeply freeing
basically a huge weight lifted off my shoulders

life is a bit more bearable now
but I can see why recovery would be more difficult with a plan in place

why recover when you can leave? type deal

 

[sifp]

By backup plan, I assume you're referring to my 'eject-button'. It's either a very fancy well comprised cocktail of pharmacueticals or SN. I have both ready to go. SN being the one that will last me longer.

That is what I meant. I'm trying to get ahold of SN myself. I feel like I kinda missed the train on that one as it gets harder and harder to find. I might've been able to figure it out before the mental issues began to degrade my rational mind. Still gonna try though.

 

[hollow466ah]

From one side, it made me feel "at peace" because I knew I had the choice to just do it if I felt I couldn't keep going. But on the other hand it also made me feel anxious because the possibility felt more present, and I couldn't get it out of my head. So even when I started feeling better, the ideation remained in the back of my mind. I guess it depends on each case.