Any thoughts on this? I plan to jump from a very tall bridge, but am worried about SI.
ieatcrayons
Member
- Apr 5, 2024
- 33
It's pretty hard at least in my experience. I went to the Mike O'Callaghan-Pat Tillman Memorial Bridge before and I couldn't do it. To be fair I only happened to go there by chance and although I didn't plan going beforehand I was still very suicidal but couldn't do it. In my experience when you look down SI just naturally starts kicking in and you feel nauseous. Especially if the bridge is super windy. If I were you trying to plan this method i'd at least try to get super drunk or take benzos or something beforehand. Also i've heard that falling backwards is a lot easier for many people.
i would think taking down most of a fifth of whiskey would help lubricate things. might even get bonus points for making it look accidental when they check your BAC.
The problem is that I'm going to need to drive to the spot and use a ladder to get over the guard rail. And I'll need to do it quickly before anyone tries to stop me So, I'll need to be sober enough for this scenario.
bridgegirl
life on the edge, I guess
- Oct 16, 2023
- 138
I have the exact same issue. In fact I literally just said today that I wish jumping off a bridge wasn't so terrifying. But I think I'm ready regardless. I think it just boils down to, if you're sure then you won't really feel that hesitation - you'll just want to go.
Alexei_Kirillov
Waiting for my next window of opportunity
- Mar 9, 2024
- 1,043
My bridge wasn't even that high (8m) and it was enough to scare me out of jumping even though I felt extraordinarily ready and at peace beforehand. Never felt that kind of readiness and certainty before, and yet, the body still triumphed over the mind. It was the unknown variables that scared me, namely, in what orientation would I fall? Would I somehow get turned around and fall in a way that would injure me (drowning was the actual method, not the jump itself)?
So I think with that said, jumping off a bridge to CTB is indeed very difficult, but not impossible. Just make sure that before you go, you know everything about what it's going to feel like when you're actually standing on the ledge. When I had imagined the fall in my head, it was always so much shorter. Then I was actually there, it suddenly seemed huge. I think if I had known beforehand how high it would feel and if I had come prepared with some tips on how to mitigate that effect (ex. crouch down, don't stand up), I might have been able to go through with it.
TLDR: if you're like me and want a perfectly planned, controlled, and executed suicide, don't leave any room for unanticipated unknowns. Know everything you possibly can beforehand, because uncertainty breeds fear.
So I think with that said, jumping off a bridge to CTB is indeed very difficult, but not impossible. Just make sure that before you go, you know everything about what it's going to feel like when you're actually standing on the ledge. When I had imagined the fall in my head, it was always so much shorter. Then I was actually there, it suddenly seemed huge. I think if I had known beforehand how high it would feel and if I had come prepared with some tips on how to mitigate that effect (ex. crouch down, don't stand up), I might have been able to go through with it.
TLDR: if you're like me and want a perfectly planned, controlled, and executed suicide, don't leave any room for unanticipated unknowns. Know everything you possibly can beforehand, because uncertainty breeds fear.
soonatpeace777888
Specialist
- Jul 4, 2023
- 349
Wait, 8m as in 8 meters? That's nothing dude, good thing you chickened out or you would have only fucked yourself up.
Alexei_Kirillov
Waiting for my next window of opportunity
- Mar 9, 2024
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Like I said, jumping wasn't the method; I was jumping into a river with a loaded backpack tightly secured to me, so drowning would've been the method of death.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,946
It sounds like a terrifying method to me, I personally really envy and admire those who managed to succeed in it. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find the peace you search for.
Have you visited the bridge you're thinking of? Is it just fear of jumping that has stopped you so far or other things?
Placo
Life and Death
- Feb 14, 2024
- 735
Abyssal
Probably gonna die soon maybe?
- Nov 26, 2023
- 1,331
@mustangsally4ever, maybe you should try bungee jumping first? I thought about this week ago when i was walking by one.
_AllCatsAreGrey_
(they/he)
- Mar 4, 2024
- 587
SI is very strong in jumping. Posts from successful jumpers seem to be rare on SaSu. Many report it as being the most difficult aspect of the method.
I consider jumping, but feel I'd need something to help with this. Possibly benzos.
See also:
sanctioned-suicide.net
I consider jumping, but feel I'd need something to help with this. Possibly benzos.
See also:
How to overcome SI for jumping?
I plan on drinking. I did not drink at all for 10 plus years. I've been drinking a lot lately and I feel like it will definitely help with SI. I've also been watching and listening to some wild stuff about existence this seems to calm my nerves a little. I've also read a lot of stories about...
sanctioned-suicide.net
Do we know of any successful jumpers on SaSu? I'd be interested in reading some of their old posts.SI is very strong in jumping. Posts from successful jumpers seem to be rare on SaSu. Many report it as being the most difficult aspect of the method.
I consider jumping, but feel I'd need something to help with this. Possibly benzos.
See also:
How to overcome SI for jumping?
I plan on drinking. I did not drink at all for 10 plus years. I've been drinking a lot lately and I feel like it will definitely help with SI. I've also been watching and listening to some wild stuff about existence this seems to calm my nerves a little. I've also read a lot of stories about...
Alexei_Kirillov
Waiting for my next window of opportunity
- Mar 9, 2024
- 1,043
The only one I'm aware of is user notforl0ng. He had to improvise though when he found out that there was a suicide barrier on the bridge he was planning on jumping off of. As far as we know, he ended up jumping in front of the train instead, which imo takes even more guts. RIP.
Yeah, that's brutal. There was a time I looked into trains, but too many things can go wrong. Life could end up even worse if I ended up disabled/disfigured, etc. so I don't think I could risk train.
I think it is the same as overcoming SI for any other method- when you are ready, it will happen.
When you are not- your body will freeze, no matter how much you will it to move. You will not jump, you will not pull that trigger, etc. I have spent entire nights with other methods screaming at my hand to move, or for me to take that step, or action, or whatever- only to finally give up and feel like a damn failure.
When it comes to a fall from a height like a bridge or skyscraper, or full suspension hanging- I have considered perching on an edge leaning over, and then huffing nitrous oxide (laughing gas, it can be bought in canisters intended to be used to make whip cream) from a balloon- it causes euphoria, and eventually I would pass out or lose my balance and fall- either to the ground or to the end of the rope. At least then I'd go out feeling good.
When you are not- your body will freeze, no matter how much you will it to move. You will not jump, you will not pull that trigger, etc. I have spent entire nights with other methods screaming at my hand to move, or for me to take that step, or action, or whatever- only to finally give up and feel like a damn failure.
When it comes to a fall from a height like a bridge or skyscraper, or full suspension hanging- I have considered perching on an edge leaning over, and then huffing nitrous oxide (laughing gas, it can be bought in canisters intended to be used to make whip cream) from a balloon- it causes euphoria, and eventually I would pass out or lose my balance and fall- either to the ground or to the end of the rope. At least then I'd go out feeling good.
_AllCatsAreGrey_
(they/he)
- Mar 4, 2024
- 587
As I understand lookoutbelow was successful. Venin attempted jumping a few times, but as I understand he didn't in the end. His posts may be helpful, nonetheless.
This also may be helpful:
Jumpers
I've compiled a short list of people who have jumped to their death. These are all building jumps. This is to help with questions about if the height is enough. Plus people like to post about people who have jumped and survived so I'm just trying to create a balance and help convince myself that...
sanctioned-suicide.net
This is a great idea. It's very accessible. I've done nitrous many times, but never considered this application.
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etoilecupid
Member
- Apr 14, 2024
- 24
whenever i think of that i think of the episode "the view from halfway down" from bojack horseman. i dont want to stop you, but i reccommend watching that episode. even if you are at your lowest of lows, once you jump you might start regretting it
I jumped off a bridge once, although it was only 35m.
e: To the OP, it's quite difficult to overcome survival instincts with jumping. The best method I found was to do it quickly so as to not have time to think before leaping.
permanently tired
I'm going to make it count
- Nov 8, 2023
- 222
I went to a bridge 130 feet over water, but looking down I mostly feared it being too short. It wasn't as high as I wanted was the main issue for me. I want to believe in the certainty of a really high spot I could do it.
bridgegirl
life on the edge, I guess
- Oct 16, 2023
- 138
Oh yes, I've been there many times. I have had attempts out there at that spot. It's always the fear - that I'd feel pain or that the three second drop would be too long and I'd regret it.
lostinwoe
woefully bound to death.
- Mar 1, 2024
- 154
I think I found two bridges that will work. I haven't been there but I've been studying them. The only issue with the one that is within driving distance is whether I'll be able to climb the railing. The other bridges I had been considering had a lot of trees in the area and I was worried about one of the trees cushioning the fall too much. But with these two bridges I've found, I don't think there's any chance of survival with either. I know I will need to just do it very quickly to get over SI and also to keep from being stopped. If you ever want to chat with a fellow bridge girl, feel free to PM me. I feel like I'm getting really close.
bridgegirl
life on the edge, I guess
- Oct 16, 2023
- 138
I'd be wary of the trees unless the height is very large - but with a certain height, that won't matter.
I wish you luck. I've been going back and forth quite a bit with my own stuff, especially lately. God only knows where I'll end up. Also, I don't see a way to message you because your profile is private, but you can definitely message me if you like. :)
