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Paintinglight

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A pretty basic question but I'm asking bc I was thinking that if you're in the process of dying it probably feels like falling asleep but with terrible pain/fear. And when you fall asleep you slip into a dream/your thoughts kind of with a subconscious feeling that you'll continue that until you wake up bc that's how sleeping goes. I feel like if I try to kill myself as I become unconscious or whatever I'll feel like I'm gonna wake up. Feels weird knowing I might feel like that but not wake up. Not necessarily asking anyone to share experiences bc that's personal but thoughts on what it'd feel like (in your mind)?
 
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cookiedough

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I know you didn't ask for personal experiences. But this isn't really a "close to death" thing. But it is very close to that thing. I experienced something super close to that during a suicide attempt. I was doing partial hanging. I just remember thinking "Wow, I'm really sleepy and tired". And things went black before I even knew it. But when my body dropped, reflexes kicked in and I just automatically pushed myself upright enough for it to stop. And even after pushing myself up, I still felt sleepy and everything for several seconds afterward. And I just wanted to go to sleep. But, full consciousness kicked in. Wasn't that close to death, but that's the most similar experience I have.
 
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*KNAZ*

The only way out is through
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I guess I would have to refer to people who have had near death experiences (NDE) and the sensations they report. Peacefulness, releasing of worldly concerns, floating. And people who have actually crossed over and come back talk about things on the other side. This video I saw on YouTube explains one perspective on dying.

What Happens Immediately After You Die



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"Swedenborg & Life" is a pre-produced web series that explores concepts from Emanuel Swedenborg's eighteenth-century spiritual theology and interprets them for a modern-day audience.
 
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Paintinglight

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I know you didn't ask for personal experiences. But this isn't really a "close to death" thing. But it is very close to that thing. I experienced something super close to that during a suicide attempt. I was doing partial hanging. I just remember thinking "Wow, I'm really sleepy and tired". And things went black before I even knew it. But when my body dropped, reflexes kicked in and I just automatically pushed myself upright enough for it to stop. And even after pushing myself up, I still felt sleepy and everything for several seconds afterward. And I just wanted to go to sleep. But, full consciousness kicked in. Wasn't that close to death, but that's the most similar experience I have.
I wasn't saying no personal experiences btw just didn't want to sound insensitive and like I'm demanding them.
Thanks for sharing. I'm almost scared knowing it might just feel like falling asleep.
I guess I would have to refer to people who have had near death experiences (NDE) and the sensations they report. Peacefulness, releasing of worldly concerns, floating. And people who have actually crossed over and come back talk about things on the other side. This video I saw on YouTube explains one perspective on dying.

What Happens Immediately After You Die



From:
"Swedenborg & Life" is a pre-produced web series that explores concepts from Emanuel Swedenborg's eighteenth-century spiritual theology and interprets them for a modern-day audience.

Thanks for the video
 
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*KNAZ*

The only way out is through
Oct 23, 2019
210
I wasn't saying no personal experiences btw just didn't want to sound insensitive and like I'm demanding them.
Thanks for sharing. I'm almost scared knowing it might just feel like falling asleep.

Thanks for the video
It may feel like falling asleep or falling into a deep swoon. Then it's followed by a sensation of still being conscious on a higher level. Only way I can think to explain what I've read about the subject. But I do believe this life is not the end. And there is Love and Peace to come.
 
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Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
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Death can't be that bad, I've never heard anyone complain about it
Peace/hugs
 
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cookiedough

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I wasn't saying no personal experiences btw just didn't want to sound insensitive and like I'm demanding them.
Thanks for sharing. I'm almost scared knowing it might just feel like falling asleep.

Thanks for the video
Aw that's ok. That was just me. Everyone is different. The actual falling out didn't feel scary at all. I wasn't even aware of it happening in that moment. I just knew I was very sleepy and tired. But remember this doesn't really count as a NDE. That was just the closest I've been to one.
 
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Mort

No use to know one
Feb 15, 2019
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Well dont if this helps but you the close shave i had with death.
A few years ago I developed very bad breathing problems due to a reaction to sum thing i breathe in. It took a long time to get to the point i am going to tell you about.
One night I had to go to the loo for a pee as you do . By this time my lungs were bad it took me 5 minutes just sit up . Then i had walk 20 foot to the bathroom it was like running the London marathon. I was breathing very had by this point i managed to pee in the loo and not my self lol . But i had to sit down before I could make it back to my bed . And thays when it happened my breathing became very laybord thats when i started to go . I got tunnel vision every was going gray round the out sid of my vision what i could was getting smaller and smaller. My hart the was pounding in my chest was slowing down my breathing was getting slower . I was dieing at this pont but they was no pain i felt all warm a fuzzy i never felt so happy. Then my instinct kicks in and no not to day your not dieing and then all the pain came back . My warm fuzzy feeling was gone i was cold and shivering took me another 15 minute's to walk back to my bedroom. But i was really piss at not going then i did not know how nice it would feel to die well did for me may be different for other people. Bin trying to find my way backto that lovely warm fuzzy place but no luck my instinct keeps getting in the way :( . Never looked so forward to dieing i know that the only place I feel true peace. Well hope you get to feel sum thing like that to :) :hugs
 
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SinisterKid

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Jun 1, 2019
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I took a massive OD [obviously not massive enough] sat on the floor with some music on my laptop and just went into blackness. Here one minute, gone the next. No pain, no puking, nothing, out cold. Its nothing to fear. As far as I am concerned, dying is a positive experience, not how it is painted by religion and pro lifers. Would I seriously be contemplating suicide if it was all pain and fear? Methinks not.

The overwhelming "sensation" I was left with was just one of total and complete peace unlike anything I have known in life. It was extremely seductive. But it is possible that my mind in the throes of death, did things I have no understanding of. See, just trying to rationalise something that cant be rationalised.
 
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Darkhaven

All i have left is memories
May 19, 2019
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You won't wake up because the organ that makes you feel awake will be oxygen deprived and, well, dead...
 
JimFord99

JimFord99

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A pretty basic question but I'm asking bc I was thinking that if you're in the process of dying it probably feels like falling asleep but with terrible pain/fear. And when you fall asleep you slip into a dream/your thoughts kind of with a subconscious feeling that you'll continue that until you wake up bc that's how sleeping goes. I feel like if I try to kill myself as I become unconscious or whatever I'll feel like I'm gonna wake up. Feels weird knowing I might feel like that but not wake up. Not necessarily asking anyone to share experiences bc that's personal but thoughts on what it'd feel like (in your mind)?
Maybe you feel just peace?
 
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overandout

Experienced
Feb 28, 2019
234
I took a massive OD [obviously not massive enough] sat on the floor with some music on my laptop and just went into blackness. Here one minute, gone the next. No pain, no puking, nothing, out cold. Its nothing to fear. As far as I am concerned, dying is a positive experience, not how it is painted by religion and pro lifers. Would I seriously be contemplating suicide if it was all pain and fear? Methinks not.

The overwhelming "sensation" I was left with was just one of total and complete peace unlike anything I have known in life. It was extremely seductive. But it is possible that my mind in the throes of death, did things I have no understanding of. See, just trying to rationalise something that cant be rationalised.

What did you overdose with?
 
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FailedWoman

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Sep 7, 2018
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I've once read somewhere that the brain supposedly releases a massive dose of DMT just before death. I found it really intriguing and wondered if it might explain NDE's and people meeting "god" and stuff.
I've been meaning to find some sources on this, maybe anyone here knows?
 
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“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
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partial hanging tripped me out when I passed out. you basically don't feel anything. if i secured the towel around my neck more i would have just felt nothing during my death.
 
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Oct 16, 2019
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My failed attempt with the CO generator: I just fell asleep. But unfortunatly, my SI kicked in while unconscious and I escaped the room and woke up in a different part of the house. No memory of how I got there. Its just a fade to black. Like going under anesthesia.
 
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bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
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My failed attempt with the CO generator: I just fell asleep. But unfortunatly, my SI kicked in while unconscious and I escaped the room and woke up in a different part of the house. No memory of how I got there. Its just a fade to black. Like going under anesthesia.
Exactly. I woke up on the floor coming to wondering wtf happened for a few seconds. dying feels like being put to sleep.
 
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Stan

Factoid Hunter
Aug 29, 2019
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I want to go in my sleep like my grandfather - not like his passengers that were screaming in the back of the bus.
 
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MaybeMaybeKnot

No ctrl-z when you ctb
Oct 25, 2019
339
I worked in hospice for a while. While I get they were not acute cases like ctb, every passing I witnessed was exceptionally peaceful. Breathing slows, sometimes the breathing changes to cheyne-stokes respiration, then it stops. A lot of times there were smiles near the end. I always wondered if that was the pineal gland dumping DMT. Elizabeth Kubler-Ross wrote a book called On Death and Dying that studies several cases. Again, these are terminally ill patients, but it's still fascinating. DMT: The Spirit Molecule is an amazing book about how DMT and NDE go hand in hand.
 
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Rachel74

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Sep 7, 2019
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Watched my brother go and it looked very peaceful, the eerie silence of it but so quick.
 
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teotme

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Oct 26, 2019
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I had major surgery in late 2016, and the experience was not of being asleep but returning to a blissful, peaceful state of nothingness. When the anesthetist forcefully shook me and repeatedly called my name, as I regained consciousness there was such a huge feeling of disappointment to be back (note that at that time I was not suicidal).

Literally my first two thoughts were "Who is this J*** you are calling?" and "WTF am I back here?". It appears that I had moved on and this personality had dissolved, and felt like I had been forcefully pulled back.
 
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*KNAZ*

The only way out is through
Oct 23, 2019
210
I've once read somewhere that the brain supposedly releases a massive dose of DMT just before death. I found it really intriguing and wondered if it might explain NDE's and people meeting "god" and stuff.
I've been meaning to find some sources on this, maybe anyone here knows?
At least in the end nature shows some compassion and mercy.
 
Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
Plus you fart and burp apparently, well known in the morgues.
 
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Throwawaysoul

Wizard
May 14, 2018
610
I've once read somewhere that the brain supposedly releases a massive dose of DMT just before death. I found it really intriguing and wondered if it might explain NDE's and people meeting "god" and stuff.
I've been meaning to find some sources on this, maybe anyone here knows?


I wimped out trying DMT, I want to give it another go. I think it would bum me out more coming back from the other side.
 
Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
Wasn't there a film with Julia Roberts and Keifer Sutherland called flatline (I think) where they tried this out?
 
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*KNAZ*

The only way out is through
Oct 23, 2019
210
Wasn't there a film with Julia Roberts and Keifer Sutherland called flatline (I think) where they tried this out?
Yep call Flatliners where these med students practiced stopping a classmates heart to induce NDE then they would revive them and tell what they saw.
 
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Rachel74

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Sep 7, 2019
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Yep call Flatliners where these med students practiced stopping a classmates heart to induce NDE then they would revive them and tell what they saw.
Thought so, really good film.
 
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Talokin

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May 17, 2019
77
I'm also 40 and BPD/PTSD. Suicidal since 5th grade (wrote about it in my LisaFrank journal....)

Never tried because of extreme fear of failure. Now planning on making CO generator, but I REALLY am committed to there being 3 times the needed amount of CO. Are you still trying this method? Interested in sharing why you think it didn't work? Would you like to share possible solutions?


My failed attempt with the CO generator: I just fell asleep. But unfortunatly, my SI kicked in while unconscious and I escaped the room and woke up in a different part of the house. No memory of how I got there. Its just a fade to black. Like going under anesthesia.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I guess this is what I'm really scared of nothing else
 

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