How do you stop abuse from ruining your life

[wantingdignity]

I'm not in it anymore, but I don't feel like I'm out either. I crave it sometimes. I'm scared of it. I've been no contact for months.

My body and mind feel fucked up all of the time. I can't stop thinking about it. I feel like begging for help, but the threat is no longer there. I feel crazy. How does someone get past this?

 

[martyrdom]

I have few words of comfort to offer, but I relate to you a lot. It sounds like you might have symptoms of CPTSD. Have you tried seeking therapy at all?