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Summer Child

Summer Child

-cognitive dissonance personified-
Oct 15, 2022
23
Like everyone else speaks a language I don't. Gotta love autism. And like the people who "love" me are actually just deluded and I'm letting them waste my time purely because it makes me happy. Oh, and like a waste of resources in general.
 
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Cantbereal

Student
Mar 20, 2022
189
Made a series of stupid mistakes that in the end lead to unimaginable suffering. Akathisia and benzo withdrawal (from prescribed benzos). Possibly also serotonin syndrome that went undiagnosed and was classified as "anxiety and depression" by incompetent as fuck psychiatrists. I was in a complete stupor and not able to do anything but run in circles for 16 hours per day while not being able to tell anyone what is wrong. Doctors and family kept gaslighting me. Experiencing akathisia was the worst experience of my entire life and knowing that this experience is out there and goes unrecognized and undiagnosed every day made me lose all my connection to this world. It's chemical torture incomparable to anything else.
I can relate. Inner mixed with outer is even worse. Nothing can compare! And surgery brought it back fir me. Will I always have this. Meds exacerbate it.
 
Unlucked

Unlucked

Student
Jul 10, 2019
189
For me I stopped relating to the world, especially pop culture and different media. I now just try to be in my own bubble. I stopped watching YouTube as often and using social media or even watching anime even though I used to love it. I just don't see the point to those things anymore.
 
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Unending

Enlightened
Nov 5, 2022
1,513
For me, I'd be music. Lyrics , lyrics especially those.

And you ?
For the vast majority of the time I only know how to relate to suffering and pessimism in its many forms and everything else feels manufactured or alien to me. Music is a great way to communicate.
 
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DejectedRealtor

Member
Dec 1, 2022
21
For me, I'd be music. Lyrics , lyrics especially those.

And you ?
I'm obsessed with harmony. I love chords. I just love how harmonic changed happen in music, even though I can't describe it.

For some reason, I don't pay attention to lyrics. For some reason I'm more obsessed with harmony. Can't help it. Kurt Cobain once said: Music is first, lyrics are second. I love that attitude.
 
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minato

minato

湊 大瀬
Nov 28, 2022
7
An anomaly. A black hole. A bruise that keeps growing.
 

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