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Dosentmatter903

Student
May 5, 2023
100
I don't think I'm alone when I say everyone has their own coping mechanism. So hiw do you rationalize ctb? I've talked to diffrent ppl on here and always get a diffrent answer...what's yours???
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,618
I personally don't need to rationalize anything, the reality is that none of us are obligated to continue existing here and for me choosing to free myself from this hellish reality will always be the more appealing and logical thing. I see non-existence as being the only relief in this world filled with endless suffering, we are all destined to die where all that's inevitable is to decay from age so I would always prefer to leave on my own terms.
 
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ToTheTwillight

ToTheTwillight

Experienced
May 19, 2023
245
I don't think I'm alone when I say everyone has their own coping mechanism. So hiw do you rationalize ctb? I've talked to diffrent ppl on here and always get a diffrent answer...what's yours???
Everyone may have a different answers to this indeed, but i'll speak of what all have in common in regards to this.

First off, ctb is not something simple, it's not just a button click, it takes great ordeal to pull it off with excruciating painful methods, and on top of that, makes you feel really bad and guilty for those you are affecting.

Anyone who goes through this method, has to have will, disciple, and courage to pull through it, not much needed to be said about the reasoning why people want to ctb in this world, at least in this very specific community, it's easy explanatory.
 
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TDF

TDF

Meh might as well die
Jun 24, 2023
474
1) it is a permanent reality rather than a temporary problem that I can fix. And search hard within myself to see if there's a solution
2) my failure of my loved ones deserve punishment (don't think this resonates with most people)
3) I will just be a burden to my loved ones, can't see how I still bring my loved ones happiness
4)is there anything I want to do that requires me to be alive, or something I can do now. And for a lot of people there might be still a lot they want to achieve and do, for many there's still hope
 
Nephis

Nephis

“Death should take me while I am in the mood.”
Sep 3, 2018
278
I don't think I'm alone when I say everyone has their own coping mechanism. So hiw do you rationalize ctb? I've talked to diffrent ppl on here and always get a diffrent answer...what's yours???

I do not rationalize anything, for me the shores that call to me is where I must go, to free those that are bound to me, to give them a future, to wait for my dear friends who will likely follow me. I do not idealize death itself, I just hope for the best no matter where it takes me, I myself know it is absurd, but I wish to fight through that absurdity and make it a reality. I hope the same for you and everyone here, peace and happiness, no matter where you go.

~I will wait for you, my friend, at the shores of the end
 
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alonely

alonely

exists by being merely labeled
Jul 1, 2023
470
CTB is the only rational option for me. I've spent years trying the irrational alternative of trying to get better. I have no one. I have no "home", nothing to fall back on. I keep ending up back at 0. Starting over from 0 gets harder every time it happens and just keeps adding more triggers to avoid and ripping away more from my life. I see the pattern. It hurts more every time. It would be irrational to try again.
 
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