How do you plan on overcoming your SI?

[kingkong57]

I'm thrilled to have settled on a final destination for my consciousness. Partial hanging is my primary method, and SN my backup. OD'ing is my back, backup via something stronger than OTC medication, as experience has taught me OTC is neigh on impossible to CTB with, unless you at least use my first poll option...
I'm keen to learn what everyone's responses are and hopefully learn from some of you. I'm struggling with overcoming my SI, but willing to do anything to CTB as soon as possible. Thanks in advance.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe eventually I will reach the point of complete desperation where I cannot take any more and I cannot think past the thoughts of suicide. It is difficult to ctb as we are programmed to survive, if it was easier I would already be gone. I believe I will overcome it someday and finally get the peace I am looking for.

 

[Tomoko]

Right now is probably the closest I have ever come to naturally overcoming it. I'm just losing my mind today. Life sucks. Eventually though I will probably just try alcohol or something on a depressing night when I'm alone, which is rare.

 

[Jumping_realms]

Benzos and then go for it.

I have attempted 4 times and the SI kinda varied based on my desperation to go.

 

[summers]

I think si has a lot to do with the method. If you pick something quick, painless, and with a high success rate, that would be easier than something slower, potentially painful, and higher chance for failure/permanent damage.

For example, if pure f were readily and reliably available, that would surely be the ctb method of choice. No pain, fast, and reliable. Pin prick into a vein, push the plunger, instantly go to sleep and never wake up.

If someone is attempting co, it may be painless, but it's going to take a while, and if you get found close to death, good chance of brain damage. Drowning and jumping are even worse.

 

[bed]

benzos and impulse. Not sure I can really be impulsive with SN due to having to fast, but once it's time to drink it, I will try not to hesitate nor think about it and just down it.

 

[demuic]

When it's time for me to go, there won't be anything left to overcome.

 

[Manaaja]

Nike? I should try wearing my new balance running shoes.

I rarely ever drink alcohol, but I have used it for ctb. It hasn't worked for me though.

So I guess "try not to think about it" it is.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I'm a coward. But my hand will be forced. I've been institutionalized and homeless before. I'd quickly CTB to avoid either again. I'd also quickly CTB to avoid any kind of imprisonment--and seeing where the US is headed with its mass surveillance of citizens and redefining "free" speech," I wouldn't be surprised if wrong-think becomes illegal soon. Matter of fact, I'll eventually CTB to end the prison sentence of poverty.

 

[in pain]

The best way is by going through the motions of your preferred method. Or in other words practicing as many times as it takes so that it feels very normal to you - just like going into your bed, tucking yourself in, turning off the night light and drifting off into a peaceful and eternal slumber.

 

[kingkong57]

I believe eventually I will reach the point of complete desperation where I cannot take any more and I cannot think past the thoughts of suicide. It is difficult to ctb as we are programmed to survive, if it was easier I would already be gone. I believe I will overcome it someday and finally get the peace I am looking for.

I agree wholeheartedly but I wish I could speed to process up. I don't trust my brain

 

[deleted]

telling secrets maybe online and to people i know, something i would be ashamed to live if anyone knew

 

[kingkong57]

The best way is by going through the motions of your preferred method. Or in other words practicing as many times as it takes so that it feels very normal to you - just like going into your bed, tucking yourself in, turning off the night light and drifting off into a peaceful and eternal slumber.

This. Your response seems so sensible I just want to accept it and try to follow what you say. Can I ask you what your chosen method is?

 

[in pain]

This. Your response seems so sensible I just want to accept it and try to follow what you say. Can I ask you what your chosen method is?

My method is compression of the carotid arteries in the neck using a tourniquet. I've been putting my chosen ligature on my neck every night before I sleep and tightening it just enough that I know it's there. I've built a routine now for about a week. It's starting to feel just like another thing I do at bed time, like brushing my teeth. It has made me more calm about the process and the act of wrapping something around my neck.

 

[JCcog]

I've self harmed in ways that will make my preferred method seem like a cake walk.

 

[Jblack]

A combination of Xanax and alcohol.

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

In my experience when you get low and desperate enough it can vanish. It wasn't present at all when I attempted to step in front of a bus. I regret not dying then but it would have been a terrible thing to do to the bus driver and probably some of the passengers. Everyone is different though and the longer the time between initiation of the method and onset of unconsciousness/death- the more of a problem it likely is.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

As SI becomes the stronger the closer the date of my planned death comes, an early point of no return would be the solution. But I don´t know how to manage it.

 

[Chisel]

I don't think I'll have any issues. Knowing my lies ahead of me is far worse than the little fear I have of ctb. Not pushing through and staying alive will ultimately be much more painful and distressing.
No my choice is leave on my terms.