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darkest

Trapped in this cycle, a figure of eight
Feb 2, 2024
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I tried both and the closer I felt I was, the worse the SI was, till for some reason I felt I was moments away from passing out, but I felt this strong urge of wanting to live even if it's a miserable life, which is ridiculous now that I aborted the attempt and woke up next day in said miserable life, I know damn well I don't want to keep going in this world yet when I'm so close it's that overwhelming feeling that takes over and I hate it. when I was really close it felt really peaceful, I hate that I'm still here.

what are your experiences with SI and what helped you overcome it, and why are you still here if you did find a way to overcome it? (sorry, I don't mean it in a rude way, I'm genuinely curious)
 
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chandxoxo

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Jan 7, 2025
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those methods are something you've to do to yourself just like cutting/slitting so it's not recommended... some drug/medication method would be more useful to counter SI.
(now I feel like I'm aiding you and it makes me feel really guilty but I get what you're feeling personally I've been feeling it too)
 
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finalmission

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Jan 8, 2025
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Only overcame SI one time when i passed out from partial hanging, however im still here.

If you want me to share my experience after passing out lmk
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Lucky you, someone asked a similar question yesterday. I answered it here by linking to a bunch of other threads on the same topic.
 
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darkest

Trapped in this cycle, a figure of eight
Feb 2, 2024
62
Only overcame SI one time when i passed out from partial hanging, however im still here.

If you want me to share my experience after passing out lmk
Yea sure! I'd love to hear it.
Lucky you, someone asked a similar question yesterday. I answered it here by linking to a bunch of other threads on the same topic.
I'll look through that, thank you so much for your time!
 
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finalmission

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Jan 8, 2025
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Yes please!

I'll look through that, thank you so much for your time!
I used a relativly low window handle thing. But it was enough to constrict the cartoid arteries with a ratchet strap. My head was 90 degrees to the floor against the window and after first time testing my vision started going black and SI kicked in.

Next attempt same thing backed out when vision started going black. I dont remember how the third attempt because i passed out.

I then woke up absolutley terrified, as my sub-concious mind made me scream as if someone was strangling me for real and blocked my breathing until i got out from the ratchet. It was late at night and i thought i had woken everyone, but surprisngly the screams were fake designed by my SI i suppose to save me. And it blocked my breathing as well! Even when it wasnt constricted until i got up.

Now my SI is bigger because of this experience.
 
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darkest

Trapped in this cycle, a figure of eight
Feb 2, 2024
62
I used a relativly low window handle thing. But it was enough to constrict the cartoid arteries with a ratchet strap. My head was 90 degrees to the floor against the window and after first time testing my vision started going black and SI kicked in.

Next attempt same thing backed out when vision started going black. I dont remember how the third attempt because i passed out.

I then woke up absolutley terrified, as my sub-concious mind made me scream as if someone was strangling me for real and blocked my breathing until i got out from the ratchet. It was late at night and i thought i had woken everyone, but surprisngly the screams were fake designed by my SI i suppose to save me. And it blocked my breathing as well! Even when it wasnt constricted until i got up.

Now my SI is bigger because of this experience.
thank you for sharing your experience, it's genuinely helpful to know. I had a big fear of making too much noise mid attempt and waking people up, this helps in a way to know what to expect.
 
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finalmission

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Jan 8, 2025
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thank you for sharing your experience, it's genuinely helpful to know. I had a big fear of making too much noise mid attempt and waking people up, this helps in a way to know what to expect.
No problem.
I think next time i will try and apply even more pressure so when i spasm, its still enough pressure to block the arteries. But still i have the fear as well of waking people up or somehow subconciusly screaming at midnight.

I think closing my eyes during hanging when im about to black out will reduce SI to some extent, but the fear of the same thing happening again is too big. I shouldnt have woke up.
 

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