How do you numb your pain?

[overusedusername]

I've failed cbt'ing so many times it's pathetic. I'm trying PH but the pressure in my head builds, I struggle to breathe, panic, and SI kicks in. I'm fuckin mad but idk if it's gonna work tonight.

How do you numb your pain? I've been crying for the last few hours and I just want to feel like I don't exist. I used to drink, but it doesn't really cut it anymore lol. Cutting and binging + purging don't really work for me anymore either.

Edit: I hope this is the right place to post this. Still figuring out how things work around here.

 

[Lamentice]

Weed, sleep

 

[overusedusername]

Weed, sleep

Does weed ever make it worse for you? Sometimes it causes me to spiral

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

By watching Spice and Wolf 2024

 

[Kokonoe]

self-harm, ctb attempts, self-destructive/risky behavior, substance abuse (alcohol, weed, prescription drugs). or anything that distracts me at least a little bit. or dissociation. even right now i'm in so much pain but i can't do anything about it right now so it's like i can barely feel it, even though i know it's there, and i know how much i hate myself for it.

 

[Endstati0n]

I've failed cbt'ing so many times it's pathetic. I'm trying PH but the pressure in my head builds, I struggle to breathe, panic, and SI kicks in. I'm fuckin mad but idk if it's gonna work tonight.

How do you numb your pain? I've been crying for the last few hours and I just want to feel like I don't exist. I used to drink, but it doesn't really cut it anymore lol. Cutting and binging + purging don't really work for me anymore either.

Edit: I hope this is the right place to post this. Still figuring out how things work around here.

Weed makes me paranoid and im too shy to go and buy opiods, so im left with the the good old masturbation

 

[kunikuzushi]

watch youtube, constantly listen to music, doomscroll, try to force myself to dissociate when the pain is unbearable, and ativan when nothing else works

 

[Lamentice]

Does weed ever make it worse for you? Sometimes it causes me to spiral

Weed is all feel-good for me

 

[Forveleth]

Used to drink but I can not do that anymore. Ate myself fat and now I feel gross so no food. Cutting does not really interest me anymore. Honestly, I have turned to healthy coping mechanisms as that is what I have left. I started hobbies, am reading more, and have started going through my giant Steam backlog. The important thing is to keep my brain busy. I start getting super upset when I have time to sit and think, so I always keep moving.

 

[discardedshards]

I've failed cbt'ing so many times it's pathetic. I'm trying PH but the pressure in my head builds, I struggle to breathe, panic, and SI kicks in. I'm fuckin mad but idk if it's gonna work tonight.

How do you numb your pain? I've been crying for the last few hours and I just want to feel like I don't exist. I used to drink, but it doesn't really cut it anymore lol. Cutting and binging + purging don't really work for me anymore either.

Edit: I hope this is the right place to post this. Still figuring out how things work around here.

by using as many distractions as possible, whether that be drawing or just writing down my emotions . . used to cut but i quit a while ago so trying 2 work on myself in the meantime has helped :]

 

[meowpuppy]

i usually just watch youtube, or play some games. i also talked to ai's that replicate characters, but nowadays i'm trying to avoid that.
if i just need a distraction, i'll try to read my books, and maybe listen to some music. unfortunately, my main plan for dealing with suffering these days is to just thug it out, since all of the things i talked about above are becoming kind of useless too..