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tired93

tired93

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Mar 27, 2026
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I have been raped in my childhood and in my 20's. I'm none but a discard of a human being. I drink every evening alone. I'm tired of being a "weight" for everyone surrounding me.
 
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EndlessRage

EndlessRage

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Aug 30, 2025
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I have been raped in my childhood and in my 20's. I'm none but a discard of a human being. I drink every evening alone. I'm tired of being a "weight" for everyone surrounding me.
It's one of the worst things that can happen to someone.
I was raped in my childhood. I get it.
I skip a heart beat whenever i remember it and forever wish i never had a memory like that to remember.
You don't owe anyone anything, you got hurt but you're not a discard of a human being.
All of those piece of shits who got away with what they did to us deserve to get flayed alive.
And seeing you talk about it reminds of me of my own trauma.
We never got any justice for what happened to us, all we can do is just stop existing to stop all the pain that's hurting us everyday.
 
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enne

blood sport
May 13, 2026
123
honey, i wish i had the answers…
i'm drinking myself to death over mine
you're not alone.
i've been touched since a child
told i was a gift-
later in my age became a "you deserve it"

if i could hold your hand, i would.
i don't know why this happens.

i hope you know you're with friends here.

sorry to pour my shit into your post.

i hope your night gets better.
we see you, babes.

you're no burden, it wasn't your fault. some people are just evil. keep flying and trying hun. i know it's heavy.
🤍
 
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toocraptoolong

Member
Apr 21, 2026
17
I'm so sorry you have been abused like this. I'm glad there are others here for you who can relate.
They are right - you are not discarded and you are not a burden. I hope you can believe this ❤️
 
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gardenhouse

Arcanist
Mar 26, 2026
437
I have been raped in my childhood and in my 20's. I'm none but a discard of a human being. I drink every evening alone. I'm tired of being a "weight" for everyone surrounding me.
I'm sorry for this horrible thing that happened to you. Painless is nembutal (old sleeping pill) but impossible to find now.
 
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gardenhouse

Arcanist
Mar 26, 2026
437
I'm in Italy
what is PPH book? Can you tell me the complete title?
Peaceful pill book by Dr Phillip Nitschke, you can find the link tagged on the front page of the forum.

Another way which is being discussed a lot lately here is Heath Ledger's way

Purebliss has written a long analysis about this method

 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,399
It's so dreadful and terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the peace you search for.
 
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TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,654
Barring some peaceful and nearly painless methods such as N, F, inert gases (N2, Ar, CO and such), there isn't many other options that allow for a peaceful and (relatively) painless exit, even then, there is the struggle of overcoming the SI and/or some methods that may still have temporary discomfort though it may be mitigated to some degree (even SN has it's discomfort if not paired with certain drugs such as anti-emetics or so).
 
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wanna_die

Member
Oct 18, 2025
10
My chosen method is exit bag. In other words I will fill up the bag with helium gas and inhale it until I get unconscious within a minute or so. For me, it sounds like the most practical and painless method compared to many other methods. Check out this website for some proper suicide methods, and you will find pdfs and books. Do your research.

A painless sucide needs planning and preparation.
 
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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
479
My chosen method is exit bag. In other words I will fill up the bag with hydrogen gas and inhale it until I get unconscious within a minute or so. For me, it sounds like the most practical and painless method compared to many other methods. Check out this website for some proper suicide methods, and you will find pdfs and books. Do your research.

A painless sucide needs planning and preparation.
I don't think you'd want to use hydrogen gas...
 
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wanna_die

Member
Oct 18, 2025
10
I don't think you'd want to use hydrogen gas...
Ah sorry. I made a mistake. I was gonna write HELIUM gas. Do you think now it is ok? And now also I edited my original text.
 
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