Help How do you guys deal with suicidal thoughts?

[Iamatiredlad]

Any recovery bros here got any advice on dealing with suicidal thoughts/spiraling? I had a really bad episode a few days earlier and I almost spiraled today. It's like if I ever feel hurt or rejected, even slightly, I can spiral really bad unless I manage to catch myself. Even then, the thoughts of just killing myself still linger. I am curious on what everyone personally does for themselves in their recovery efforts.

 

[ariewist]

substances tbh. Being sober and dealing with it is literal hell.

 

[Doll Steak]

When they are more mild maybe just listening to music helps but when they are intense and I have a sort of episode I have to be self destructive to ease the urges and I just ride it out until I basically tire myself.

 

[LastNite]

I play a game and watch Youtube

 

[lasttogo]

Scream. Like seriously if you can go outside or something and just scream like it's your last hour on earth. Cathartic and embarrassing so it's a good distraction for a bit.

 

[bluebook]

I'm not suicidal anymore but when I was, the ideation actually brought me a lot of relief. They still come to me suddenly and intrusively sometimes, but I dont think its anything to be ashamed of

 

[westerly_merlin]

I am getting better at spotting simple ideation e.g. "wow that is a long drop; I wonder?" rather than the more serious urges. The minor stuff is something I have lived with for 40 odd years and is not something I am overly worried about. (But is is nice to be here and know I am not the only person that has these intrusive thoughts )

I try and journal the serious urges, write down what triggered the suicidal thought and what is also going on in my life at the same time. Just committing it down in ink on paper takes the edge off for me, also looking back on those thoughts and the background life noise can be insightful. e.g. someone may have made a mean comment and that triggered an internal reaction but there may well have been other things going on that fuels my self destructive though processes.

Climbing also helps me, today there is a 6/10 background anxiety level but I am intending to hit the climbing gym tonight. When I am there, I will be 100% focussed on climbing and I will not think about anything else, plus I will see some regular faces and be able to chat about our shared passion.