My husband passed via suicide a few months ago. I have dealt with loneliness practically my entire life, but especially lately; it has become a daily factor in a way that is inexpressible. Dealing with loneliness is one of the hardest things to possibly do, particularly as it is human nature to be social in some form or fashion. While finding a place like SS is not necessarily the most desirable, it's important to have somewhere to express it without judgement and with total understanding. It's important to focus on yourself, as well as any interests/hobbies you partake in (as they are healthy to do so, of course). Aside from SS, it may be beneficial to find other online communities (if that is what you are most comfortable/or able). While extremely difficult, it's imperative to learn how to make your mind a place that is comfortable--not necessarily great, by any means; but somewhere in which you can find some sliver of okay-ness. It is better to do things alone rather than not do them at all. Finding peace in loneliness is both terrible yet awakening. As we are both new members, I don't believe I am able to suggest Dm'ing. However, in the meantime, please feel free to express yourself however necessary; holding it in only makes it oh so much worse, in my experience.