I just try to focus on my job or studies and try to survive the day. It's hard and exhausting. Everyday.single.day
The only thing that I want is to end my life.
The only thing that I want is to end my life.
heldbyone
Member
- Jun 12, 2022
- 18
Overworking till i get sleepy
Disassociation can really help i used to insert myself in groups i thought i would be happier but they made everything worse so now i dont even have any social medias i feel so much better but not the best but better u know
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Me too lol
I was an alcoholic for 6 years after my first heartbreak. Leading to casual sex. Tbh porn and masturbation ruined me. It's all about how you're trained before 25
Wake up upset that I woke up. Smash an energy drink. Smoke and then realise it may all be over with soon
Nlis2244
Forever alone
- May 13, 2022
- 132
At this point the only thing that keeps me going forward is knowing that I will ctb in the next months. Now, if I don't manage to, then I'll have to find a better way to cope.
freedompass
Warlock
- Jan 27, 2021
- 768
Coffee.Tea. Vaping: recently gave up for 7 weeks but picked it up again coz my primary addiction, to food/eating seemed to worsen. Frankly any existence that requires so many props to even render it bearable is demonstrably shit.
NoLightRemains
I found my light again. Namu Amida Butsu
- Sep 26, 2021
- 374
This is basically my life. Gotta abuse caffeine to stay awake, and I vape weed to feel any enjoyment. In the midst of this, there is growing suicidal ideation and planning that helps me cope. Getting some relief at the thought of having SN on hand. Feels like the happiest I've felt about something in awhile.
i play video games to distract my brain of my pain..
freedompass
Warlock
- Jan 27, 2021
- 768
I knew I forgot something! The possibility of an out is definitely a huge cope. I do pour what's left of my heart out to other depressed people a fair bit too. On a lighter note - hot baths are nice.
NoLightRemains
I found my light again. Namu Amida Butsu
- Sep 26, 2021
- 374
I agree, I try to take hot baths often. My hygiene would be absolutely terrible if I didn't enjoy baths.
Chaestergram
Free spirit
- Nov 24, 2021
- 90
Drinking while listening to a shit tons of affirmations trying to keep my shit together without thinking too much but yep intrusive thoughts don't know what alcohol is anymore.
Superdeterminist
Enlightened
- Apr 5, 2020
- 1,874
I don't cope, I just suffer. Every day wanting to exit this nightmare. You might say the thought of ctb is the cope.
AstroV
Member
- Nov 3, 2021
- 75
I use as many different distractions as possible: reading, music, exercise, and watching college sports.
While it is impossible, I try to avoid sleeping during the day since I have nightmares any time I sleep.
That being said, in the end, all I am doing is giving myself temporary relief from the inevitable, as well as things that will not go away and show up when I sleep at night.
While it is impossible, I try to avoid sleeping during the day since I have nightmares any time I sleep.
That being said, in the end, all I am doing is giving myself temporary relief from the inevitable, as well as things that will not go away and show up when I sleep at night.
coyotestark
Free at last, free at last.
- Jun 13, 2022
- 72
Drugs, alcohol, driving the car fast, expensive hotel stays, shopping, and recently just staying at home and watching old movies and TV shows that I love. I've spent close to 50k in the past 3 months, I even quit my job over a month ago so as to maximize my last days. Doing what you want everyday gets old really fast, believe it or not. I planned on leaving at the end of the month, but I imagine I can only handle a few more days, maximum.
thankyouforthis
Member
- Jun 13, 2022
- 61
This is honestly the most encouraging thing I've heard in a long time-- possibly ever. This post encouraged me to make my own account after a few months of eavesdropping on y'all. Thank you for this.
CursedSoul
Cursed to stay, Cursed to Suffer...
- Jun 4, 2022
- 69
i cope by inflicting pain to the people i love, i know it makes me look bad, but i don't know, i get some sort of kicks posting self harm and suicidal thoughts to my friends and family, maybe a fucked up sense of being cared for ? but it's kinda weird, i enjoy more the pain i inflict then the feeling of being cared by itself, i i also self harm, play games to try and drown the thoughts, i didn't hurt people, at least willingly for years, but it still happened really recently that i accidentally hurted someone with my posts on IG
welcome the family btw @thankyouforthis ;) enjoy your stay
welcome the family btw @thankyouforthis ;) enjoy your stay
I'm just biding my time until the inevitable. I had some chance back then and looking back, it wouldn't have been bad if I had CTB that time. I would certainly miss many things that I could have had today and what not, but missing out the potential suffering and all that is a price I'm willing to pay if it means avoiding the shit situation I'm in today. No amount of future potential pleasure will ever change the fact that life (including things outside of my immediate control) sucks and even if there are good times, there are many more negative events that overshadow the good. It is never enough for me to live long term, only endure. And endurance is not infinite as at some point it will give way.
Well since I've lost the best boyfriend I ever had and my true love, family abandoned me, and my education failed me, I recently got back into drugs. I get high when I can, and I work a shitty cleaning job for ten hours each day except the weekends. Im dying this summer, but while I'm still here I have to basically distract myself. I save up what money I can and put it towards getting extra medications that will keep me comfortable when I die
TheDevilsAngel
LetMeFree
- Apr 22, 2019
- 833
I've had to stop smoking weed and my life is crumbling quickly I don't Wana be here at all tbh but I have to for my kids they make me life. For now anyways
I am as well. It's starting to affect my life and I can't stop. My partner and family couldn't care less
I don't cope. I lost the love of my life, good job prospects, family, and friends because I'm bipolar with other issues. All I think about is suicide. When I'm not thinking about that, I disassociate and lose track of seconds, minutes, hours, and days. Disassociating I guess could be seen as a
"Coping" skill, but really it just happens as if I'm on auto pilot. I dream of ending my life every single day so I can be out of my misery… I think if I were to say that something is a coping method, it would be the fact that I just think about how happy everyone will be when I do die. I guess that lessens my anxiety about not dying yet because I know eventually I will and I won't have my vile disability destroying peoples lives and crushing their life quality.
"Coping" skill, but really it just happens as if I'm on auto pilot. I dream of ending my life every single day so I can be out of my misery… I think if I were to say that something is a coping method, it would be the fact that I just think about how happy everyone will be when I do die. I guess that lessens my anxiety about not dying yet because I know eventually I will and I won't have my vile disability destroying peoples lives and crushing their life quality.
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Huntfish34
Enlightened
- Mar 13, 2020
- 1,619
Same for me..... Alcohol and numerous other substances to help numb / ease myself into another day of my bullshit life. Fml. -
VKVK
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- Oct 18, 2021
- 112
substances and avoiding responsibilities because im not strong enough for life
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
I don't really cope at all anymore. My problems are now obvious to anyone.
Chaos_Contingency
Member
- Aug 9, 2022
- 15
I just play games and listen to music to pass the time. Hopefully soon I'll find a good site on the deep web that sells Fentanyl so I can finally OD and rid myself from this miserable existence. Until then, I'll just keep on gaming,
