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mango1128
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- Feb 4, 2023
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idk for the last few months ive been slowly and internally isolating myself, i think because i know what im gonna do and im subconsciously preparing for it.
no one in my life knows the true extent of my suicidal thoughts (im sure this is the case for many others on here). my boyfriend and my family really do love me and support me, i know theyd be devastated and i want to do everything i can to leave them with some kind of closure. i dont want them to blame themselves, but idk how to even start with writing the letters. what do i even say? do i handwrite it or schedule send an email? maybe im getting too ahead of myself bc i dont even have an SN source yet (plus im a dumbass and bought the wrong SN from amazon - check my post history lol) or any concrete CTB plan, just a strong resolve to do it.
im already planning on breaking up with my bf tomorrow to sever the bond and hopefully desensitise him a bit.
no one in my life knows the true extent of my suicidal thoughts (im sure this is the case for many others on here). my boyfriend and my family really do love me and support me, i know theyd be devastated and i want to do everything i can to leave them with some kind of closure. i dont want them to blame themselves, but idk how to even start with writing the letters. what do i even say? do i handwrite it or schedule send an email? maybe im getting too ahead of myself bc i dont even have an SN source yet (plus im a dumbass and bought the wrong SN from amazon - check my post history lol) or any concrete CTB plan, just a strong resolve to do it.
im already planning on breaking up with my bf tomorrow to sever the bond and hopefully desensitise him a bit.