Help How do you get the courage to ctb?

[idiotenby]

I'm still fucking alive, I just don't know how to get the courage to do it. I have all these images and aspirations on this earth but it's just not gonna happen for me idk. I'm trying and trying but also not being able to try because I'm kicked down again and again and I have to try to get back up AGAIN?? anyways how do y'all finally get passed through ideation and into planning???

 

[Crescendo]

I think a lot of people share your sentiment. As much as I absolutely despise the notion tossed around by anti-suiciders that all people who terminate themselves are necessarily depressed or irrational, and as much as I find it important to circulate the idea that those who CTB can do so of a sound and rational mind, the likely truth is that the majority of people who carry it out were in a particularly bad mental state at the time. For many, a big motivating factor for overcoming the hesitation and moving from ideation into action is worsening life circumstances.

As for other ways of gathering courage or becoming more comfortable with the idea, something that personally has helped me is reading literature that is sympathetic towards suicide, namely philosophical pessimism.

 

[derpsie]

you'll probably be able to do it on a day you randomly wake up extremely furious over how shit your life has been, you could listen to music that exacerbates this feeling like super intense overwhelming stuff that makes you want to punch something or move your body erratically, don't listen to anything sad because you have to be hyped and amped up for this, have your methods nearby always and get some drugs that would inhibit your senses or make you even more angry. alcohol is nice you could use that but I think the goal is to be as angry as possible and just doing it on a whim.

 

[evilblondegirl]

I'm still fucking alive, I just don't know how to get the courage to do it. I have all these images and aspirations on this earth but it's just not gonna happen for me idk. I'm trying and trying but also not being able to try because I'm kicked down again and again and I have to try to get back up AGAIN?? anyways how do y'all finally get passed through ideation and into planning???

I write down the reasons why I want to ctb and it always makes me realize my life has not and will probably not get better

 

[Freedomm]

I see an exit, but can't find the entrance

 

[derekWest]

Being hopeless?, that's why I do nothing at the moment.