How do you feel about your birthday coming up

[grungy自殺]

My birthday is coming up in a few minutes (and yeah, I say a few minutes, despite the fact that it's technically today, but the thing is, I actually know it by my birth time)

Do wanna know how everybody feels about their birthday

Because I feel like shit, of course

 

[MercurialTomato]

I imagine I feel pretty common feeling about my birthday as others in our community. I don't look forwards to it, don't want to do anything, overall a lack of care for it, except for if I don't get a message that basically says "Happy birthday" from my two friends. Then the feeling of worthlessness and hopelessness hits, because of course I don't deserve that but it's something I hold on to, selfishly wanting that thoughtfulness to appease my mind or something I guess.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I definitely get the birthday blues these past few years.
I don't like attention focused on me so it's not like I would want a big deal made out of it. It's more just the act of remembering. I am too sensitive and take it personally when anyone irl that I have consistent contact with forgets. And of course that's what I'll focus on.

Happy Birthday OP!!
Or not
Or ignore
I wish you whichever option you choose

 

[itsitbit]

I like other people's birthdays but I definitely feel pretty complicated about my own. They were not really a big deal for me growing up (not really any fuss or celebration). I feel fine with that, but just getting older brings a lot of rumination and anxiety for me. Some years it catches me in an especially bad emotional state; when that happens I feel really averse to people acknowledging it even with casual birthday messages- but then I end up feeling really guilty and Wrong for not reacting "correctly" to what most people view as a happy occasion. But after all I think this is not actually that uncommon of a way to feel, and in a way it is a "normal" reaction to feel bad, if your birthday is something that brings you psychological pain or discomfort, whether it's from your past or from what it's tied to currently or from what it brings to mind. For me at least I feel that it's not that I'm ideologically opposed to birthdays as a concept or anything, but it just happens to make me think about a lot of heavy and disappointing things, and that's really hard to cope with if your general day-to-day already has a lot of stress in it.

I'm sorry you're feeling like shit. Beyond it being your birthday, that's a really rough way to feel in general. If being wished happy birthday is something that is comforting for you, happy birthday, but if it's not a comfort at all, I get it and that's okay. You're not obligated to feel a certain way about these things. In any case I'm glad you could talk a little about it.

 

[thelostautistic]

First of all Happy Birthday OP

I'm sorry you're feeling down today. Know you're not alone in this feeling. I dread my birthday every year because I don't feel like my existence deserves to be celebrated. I also don't like celebrating the fact that I'm still here

 

[not yet]

Happy birthday, I suppose.
I don't like getting closer to my birthday, it just reminds me that I'm getting older. It's not that I'm afraid of getting old; rather, if someone asks me how old I am, for a whole year I might answer that I'm 20. But after the birthday, I'll have to say that I'm 21, and that already will be perceived as a little older. With that comes certain expectations, restrictions...

 

[darksouls]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

 

[yume_]

Eh, nothing I suppose, people often say that you have to celebrate your birthday bc its a "special" day, but i don't get it.
Normally I just don't do anything, just another day....

 

[BigTimeLoser]

I'm planning a fake business trip if I am still here.
I disliked my birthday before knowing my wife, then she taught me how to like it, year by year. How to enjoy it and even plan stuff for yourself., she taught me many good stuff. I miss her.
But now that I am no longer in her life, so I do not think I will enjoy it again.

 

[pax420]

Mine is coming up, April 2. shorter of breath, and one day closer to death. Everybody make a fuss over certain birthdays. 16th bday, 18th bday, 21st bday, etc etc. I get to celebrate this next birthday as my last birthday. Whoo hoo!!

 

[black_iris]

happy bday!!! (if you want that)

growing up i always hated my bday. i never had a party with friends or family but sometimes my mom would get me a small gift.

sad things always seem to happen around my birthday, when i was 6 my grandma died on my birthday. and a few years later my grandpa died in the same week. ive also had pets die in my bday week and my step grandpa also died in my bday week.

i find it all a bit ironic actually. now i dont think much about my bday because no one really cares anyways. but my mom got me a cute eyeshadow palette on my last bday. Shes like the only person who remembers it.

i hope you enjoy your day <3

 

[FoxSauce]

Not to happy I'll be 23 and thr thought of it makes me sad. Plus I dont feel happy I was born. Plus Ive havent accomplished much

 

[boyafraid]

My birthday is coming up in a few minutes (and yeah, I say a few minutes, despite the fact that it's technically today, but the thing is, I actually know it by my birth time)

Do wanna know how everybody feels about their birthday

Because I feel like shit, of course

Happiest of birhdays (:

Whenever mine comes around I always feel confused. Like I'm surprised that I made it another year if that makes sense.

 

[hopeless302]

happy belated birthday!

 

[Matchaaa]

First of all, happy birthday.

I don't have much of an emotional reaction to birthdays anymore; I just feel like, oh, I'm another year older. And buying a cake feels a little forced, like going through the motions. I'm gradually becoming less concerned about other people's reactions; it's probably just another ordinary day for me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I dread birthdays too. Not sure why really. It's just another day after all. I suppose the enforced celebration of being born- when I wish I hadn't been. I find it's a bit like New Years too- they tend to make me look back at the year- which is bad. Plus- acknowledge what age I am and where I'm at- which isn't great either. It's weird though because- on the one hand, I'd rather people just ignored it but then, when they do forget, that feels weird too.

I hope the day was a bearable as possible for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just another year of dreadful suffering in this painful, torturous and deeply undesirable existence that I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, for me every second is torture to exist and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

No matter what this evil, painful existence should just never be imposed and it's the most terrible tragedy how life even has to exist causing all this harm and torture, existence truly is a mistake and all I can hope for is the peace of non-existence, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the evil, suffering and torture of existing.

 

[wine is fine but]

mine starts in 2 hours time
it will be a good day, because the tracking number for my sn will be getting sent through to me

 

[ScaredCutter]

mines alll the way in december but luckily i get bday and christmas gifts. tbh i love presents a lot but i hate celebrating it, it reminds me of my age and how far behind i am and what is coming next. how every year i make such little progress that its so disappointing. but, i get suepr excietd for christmas instead.

happy birthday though! or late birthday depending on ur timezone

 

[meiherasayuri]

it's scary to have a birthday

 

[Pluto]

 

[violetforever]

i dont care unless i get to spend it with the only person i want to

 

[princexhhn]

Nobody cares enough about me to be there for me in my birthday haha, another day to spend alone. Id be happy if i got a cake from someone, i havent got one since i was a kid. People will not show up for my birthday but they will for my funeral. Another underwhelming day, reminder that nobody really cares.

 

[DownwardSpiral]

i dont care. if i had nice people around me it might be fun, but i'll be alone like any other day. its just a reminder of how time is passing by while im still useless and alone.

 

[buriedinmyhead]

My birthday happened a few months ago and I just felt intense dread and depression leading up to it tbh

 

[nails]

mine is coming up very soon and i'm dreading it, i get anxious just thinking about it. i felt similarly last year, and a lot of people told me that i was worrying too much and it'd blow right by. it ended up being significantly worse than i imagined and catapulted the horrible downward spiral that i was already in. i don't know how i'll be able to deal with it again, lol. hopefully it will be over before then

 

[heiwa2]

I wish I would stop existing before that. Usually I just get a little depressed on my birthday but this year I would really crash out.

 

[Even Flow]

Birthdays are fun

 

[February_In_April]

when I was younger I used to get excited for it but now it;s just another day or another year older and another year closer to my death naturally speaking.