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somewhatdeadly

somewhatdeadly

one more day
Jun 6, 2025
90
i know i should die and there is no better way for me i just dont have a fast method i can just do it anytime i snap like a gun or a instant medicine im too much of a coward about this to kill myself with rope train etc i know sounds like an excuse but i need instant pills or gun😞
 
usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
308
I'm using apricot seeds. Not painless or instant, but very lethal.

I tell myself either I can kill myself and end the pain or I can keep going for another 50+ years in suffering. I'm choosing to end the pain. It never gets better. At least not so much to the point that life is worth living.

But if your problem is you don't have a method you find good enough, not that you don't know what to tell yourself to go through with it then I don't have much to offer in terms of answers.
 
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snooperdooper

snooperdooper

Student
Jan 27, 2024
151
I'm using apricot seeds. Not painless or instant, but very lethal.

I tell myself either I can kill myself and end the pain or I can keep going for another 50+ years in suffering. I'm choosing to end the pain. It never gets better. At least not so much to the point that life is worth living.

But if your problem is you don't have a method you find good enough, not that you don't know what to tell yourself to go through with it then I don't have much to offer in terms of answers.
Is this an actual method? Can you please go more in depth?
 
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frayed

Student
Jun 6, 2025
113
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
159
I read a study about suicide mentioned that suicidal people took them 20 minutes on average to make up their mind if they wanted to ctb or not
 
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somewhatdeadly

somewhatdeadly

one more day
Jun 6, 2025
90
I'm using apricot seeds. Not painless or instant, but very lethal.

I tell myself either I can kill myself and end the pain or I can keep going for another 50+ years in suffering. I'm choosing to end the pain. It never gets better. At least not so much to the point that life is worth living.

But if your problem is you don't have a method you find good enough, not that you don't know what to tell yourself to go through with it then I don't have much to offer in terms of answers.
thank you for the method i did not know this was a thing dying of a apricot seems stupid but desperate times require desperate measures
 
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lookingglassinsect

lookingglassinsect

anxiety 9000
May 25, 2025
46
I read a study about suicide mentioned that suicidal people took them 20 minutes on average to make up their mind if they wanted to ctb or not
I read about this too, and I generally agree, but we can't get insight into a dead man's brain.
 

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