_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
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I've seen many posts here about people who struggle with this, I know we don't owe anyone anything, but still, is there an ultimate answer to this, and how do You deal with this?
I'm just delaying it as long as I can, what else can you do? I'm trying not to prepare too much so I fleeting feeling won't make me do it, but I'm sure one day at least I'll be either free of bonds or suffering too much so I am learning what I can for then. I don't want to find myself in agony for the rest of a long life with nothing I can do about it but a wreckless suicideI don't really deal with it well tbh. I try and push it to the back of my mind and not think about it at all. At some point something inside snapped and I decided I had to put myself, my needs and feelings first and stop living for other people. But the idea of leaving my mother still plagues me, I just know how badly it will effect her and I feel terrible for that, but what can I do? I don't think there is a solution.