How do you deal with not seeing your beloved, closest ones anymore?

[Tnatalie]

Only my mother's love still keeps me alive. It would be better if she wasn't that warm and empathic person, because I wouldn't live then. Im not gonna lie. I would rather the things to be like that, even for her.

Can't imagine not hugging her anymore but I truly wish I could.

Im really asking for advice how to cut off from that, not thinking about.

 

[chaewon]

I do not know your backstory or the reason u want to CTB, but having someone to care for and that cares for u is a very good thing to have, and it could be a sign that things might get better (excuse me if you are terminally ill or something, as I said im not sure whats ur reason)

But, if you want to push urself away to not think about her and do the same for her, it would probably take more time than u expect especially if you are her only child. You should just try to move out as it would be the best way to de-attach both of you.

 

[Forever Sleep]

The obvious answer is to move a prohibitive distance away. But then- that may not help. Just because a person isn't physically or even emotionally supporting you so much- you may still care deeply about them. You can also struggle with the knowledge that if you do CTB- it will likely devastate them- no matter how far away you are. That's my situation really. Having tethers here rather than supports.

So- the reality can become you get no hugs and less support but- you still feel like you can't leave them.

I suppose some people try to distance themselves entirely. Shunning everyone before dying but then- I'm not sure that really reduces the pain. Not for those that close to us. I imagine they simply experience pain both before and after that way. Plus- maybe they will blame themselves for not recognizing that the person pulling away was doing it in order to suicide.

 

[Tnatalie]

(excuse me if you are terminally ill or something,

U guessed right. Im just suffering insanely from this and Im glad you understand that's not about mental health, caring etc.

I really wish not to live