Almost every second part of my mind goes into every bad and scary stuff that can possibly happen. I believe that most of the things are related in some distant way. There are things i can't control - like accidents and stuff, health. But my mind lives with them. And it's very very extreeme. Really extreme stuff and fears and not about me-but the people i love too.. Lvining it since little. I've read somewhere that this is sign for PTSD. I don't know.
So usually i'm not afraid from anything that most people are literally scared to death. I'm a friend with "monsters" and i love them.
What i do to cope with stuff i can't control - I imagine how the years go and what desigions/actions/lack of actions can lead to this event. Like - i won't ever trade drugs /because in 5-10 years someone will fuck up and betray me, and i will have to kill them or something/, same goes with weapons and such things. Don't go on weekends outside town, because of high traffic. Whatever i do i'm so scared that i overthink it's possible problematic outcome years ahead and what i will have to pay too. In my head my country is going to be in a warzone - 7-10years from now. And i can't find any possible outcome to change this. It's only in my head, so everything should be fine, except if you know part of me in real life.
I'm scared that money can change and lose trust, and can't find a good way to store gold. Real estates...will wait a little - but again - governments can take that too much easier than bank accounts. Crypto works for now...at least you have some time to react.../politically triggered change in prise/
I'm really living the end of the world every day multiple times. I'm used to it. At least i can do what i want whenever i want outside my scary mind box.
i didn't saw this pandemic comming. Ya, i knew about the stock markets, but always tought that this was because of one kid's algorithm posted online about the spread. Had no idea why they give this virus so much attention back in decembre 2019. I did miss forseeing alot from what came this year. So i'm not perfect, and so there is some hope for humanity at least :)