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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,306
I am trapped in this world as ctb is so difficult, and I have no choice but to suffer. I just try to pass the time. I tell myself that death will come eventually no matter what and I think about how meaningless life is. Nothing ever makes me feel better or comforts me though, all that I want is to peacefully pass away.
 
LastRide

LastRide

Specialist
Jan 23, 2020
369
I'm afraid I self-harm to cope when intensely suicidal, it helps suppress the urges for a bit. I've also taken overdoses, not to ctb but to 'block out' the feelings.
Oh great, I've been thinking I was the only one who was into "intentional overdoses without ctb as target" ! For me it's first of all a kind of "dress rehearsal" for my suicide, and secondly, bizarrely enough toying with death in such a way gives me a great feeling of relief - it's as if every time I come out of an overdose alive I'm getting more and more confident that I'm ready to go ahead, yes it makes me happy knowing that I'll be able to pull it off, that it will be an enjoyable experience, and that it's the right thing for me to do !
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,389
I cope by remembering the fact that my (and only my as far as I'm concerned) suicide is far better for the world than my continued survival would be.
 

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