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ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,446
It will all arrive right here home. My former method was caffeine, actually bought it. They picked it up and gave it to me, never once wondering wtf it was, because nothing about me awakens curiosity, never has. Thanking politely as I took my poison from their hand.

That is sometimes the only power and dignity you have, holding terrible knowledge secret in plain daylight. Not terrible in the sense it would be any loss to them, ah but the sheer nuisance of a corpse!
Your plan A was OD on caffeine?!
No idea how to even imagine how it would end up. Chuckling at the idea of you turning into The Flash and just... vibrating through existence itself.
Google tells me it's a shit method. Actual death happens rarely and lots of suffering on the way.

You can actually get the stuff delivered to your door-step without anybody suspecting a thing over at your place?
Customs over here calls the bomb squad because farts smell like sulfur and consist of methane - a volatile gas. heh
Then again, I could be giving them too much credit. Paranoia.
 
woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
Your plan A was OD on caffeine?!
No idea how to even imagine how it would end up. Chuckling at the idea of you turning into The Flash and just... vibrating through existence itself.
Google tells me it's a shit method. Actual death happens rarely and lots of suffering on the way.

You can actually get the stuff delivered to your door-step without anybody suspecting a thing over at your place?
Customs over here calls the bomb squad because farts smell like sulfur and consist of methane - a volatile gas. heh
Then again, I could be giving them too much credit. Paranoia.

Would have been seizures and hell, but I think it'd work with AE. Plenty of people manage it if they don't puke too much.

Sure I can. It's because I am of no interest to the person at my place. If I told them today that I am about to die, they would say 'thank you, at last'. But I don't tell them, because they'd make sure I do it somewhere else and I will ruin this house for them. It was OUR home, some lessons need driving hard.

Ahah, you made me laugh. Just crossing my fingers customs won't care.
 
throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
I keep my eyes focused on something, anything like maybe an object and I make deep slow breaths in and out. Try to think of nothing and let your mind go blank. That's usually what I do.
 
Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
Dunno if I have answered to this one. But I go for long drives with my fav playlist on, sit down at a coffee deck near the beach with the sun on my face. Music, can't live without it and lift my spirit. Being here talking to all the members, and documentaries lots of documentaries or movies. Thats my secret, there was a time I used to blank stare at the ceiling.
 
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tinted

Member
Feb 24, 2022
5
I take deep breaths and cry.I try to convince myself that there is nothing to worry about.I try to come to term with the reality that i live in and move on with my life.I try to muster the courge to do the thing that makes me anxious.
 

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