Venting how do some people kill themselves so easily and randomly

[ultraparadise]

I have heard too many stories of people just killing themselves, it always sounds like they just did it with 0 problems. I dont understand how CTB feels so fucking impossible and for others it just happens like snapping your fingers. I want to kill myself, I have wanted to for a very long time but never successfully did it and its starting to annoy the fuck out of me why im still here

 

[PrismHon]

Genetics are a biatch.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Hurt, trauma, pain..greif ...loss ..
Sometimes enough is enough..

 

[ultraparadise]

Hurt, trauma, pain..greif ...loss ..
Sometimes enough is enough..

maybe I havent had enough yet

 

[imOK]

You only see the lives of others from the outside, you do not know what lead them there. You don't know if it was all that easy.

 

[Endlichkeit]

I think, one of the factors could be hatred. Extreme hatred of others, of oneself and of all existence.

 

[sickofwaiting]

I suppose we never hear about the failures

 

[Rynalia]

You only see the lives of others from the outside, you do not know what lead them there. You don't know if it was all that easy.

I suppose we never hear about the failures

These two combined is really the answer. Unless the person in question had left paper trails, a diary, or some sort of other record, we'll never actually know.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand as I also just wish to be gone, I just wish to be permanently free from this cruel, futile existence I never would had chosen and I'd just never wish for any of this. I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace with the suffering and torture of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, I always wish to never wake ever again, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

I think it's ease of method coupled with catastrophic loss.

 

[Forveleth]

You do not know of they did it on try 1 or try 583.

 

[Edge_of_the_Grave]

I've asked myself the same thing so many times: why does it seem so "easy" for some people to die, like it just takes a second, while for others — myself included — it's this long, torturous process of thinking about it without ever going through with it?

I think there are two very different mechanisms at play.

The ones who take their lives "suddenly," after a fight or a crisis, are often driven by a powerful, almost animalistic impulse. All the pain concentrates into a single moment, explodes, and the brain just shuts down. There's no room for fear or reflection — just action. It's like a blackout, and the body moves without thinking. If the circumstances allow it (no one around, access to a method, isolation), the act completes itself in seconds. That's it.

But those who've been thinking about it for years are often stuck in a kind of psychological limbo — the pain is chronic, not sharp. There's too much thinking, too much imagining, analyzing every detail. And in the middle of all that thinking, the survival system kicks in: fear, uncertainty, the sense of "maybe not today." It's like walking with the handbrake on. The mind says one thing, the body says another. And you end up frozen, exhausted, pissed off at yourself for not even being able to "do this right."

So no, it's not that others are braver. Sometimes the impulse just wins. But in the stillness, there's a paradox: that part of you keeping you stuck might also be the part that — in some other version of reality — still wants to live, or at least wants something to change.

I'm not saying this to be poetic. I'm saying it because if you're still here, even if you're angry and tired, maybe there's still something inside you that hasn't fully given up yet. And maybe, just maybe, it's worth listening to that before shutting it out completely.

 

[thealleycat]

I've asked myself the same thing so many times: why does it seem so "easy" for some people to die, like it just takes a second, while for others — myself included — it's this long, torturous process of thinking about it without ever going through with it?

I think there are two very different mechanisms at play.

The ones who take their lives "suddenly," after a fight or a crisis, are often driven by a powerful, almost animalistic impulse. All the pain concentrates into a single moment, explodes, and the brain just shuts down. There's no room for fear or reflection — just action. It's like a blackout, and the body moves without thinking. If the circumstances allow it (no one around, access to a method, isolation), the act completes itself in seconds. That's it.

But those who've been thinking about it for years are often stuck in a kind of psychological limbo — the pain is chronic, not sharp. There's too much thinking, too much imagining, analyzing every detail. And in the middle of all that thinking, the survival system kicks in: fear, uncertainty, the sense of "maybe not today." It's like walking with the handbrake on. The mind says one thing, the body says another. And you end up frozen, exhausted, pissed off at yourself for not even being able to "do this right."

So no, it's not that others are braver. Sometimes the impulse just wins. But in the stillness, there's a paradox: that part of you keeping you stuck might also be the part that — in some other version of reality — still wants to live, or at least wants something to change.

I'm not saying this to be poetic. I'm saying it because if you're still here, even if you're angry and tired, maybe there's still something inside you that hasn't fully given up yet. And maybe, just maybe, it's worth listening to that before shutting it out completely.

I definitely agree. In my many past attempts I find that I always end up scared and asking myself if I really think this is the right solution. It's like despite all the pain and suffering you've been through, you want to believe that there is still hope. That life can turn around. That the good will outweigh the bad.

It's a bitch when you're doubting yourself in that exact moment, but it's so worth it when those moments pass.

 

[vitbar]

Lots of methods have low success rates too, but that means some succede. People die by accident doing every day things too, unusual reactions to drugs etc. Lots of people trying means rare outcomes are likely.

 

[meloncholia]

I have heard too many stories of people just killing themselves, it always sounds like they just did it with 0 problems. I dont understand how CTB feels so fucking impossible and for others it just happens like snapping your fingers. I want to kill myself, I have wanted to for a very long time but never successfully did it and its starting to annoy the fuck out of me why im still here

idk if you've seen the video of Ronnie McNutt, but my experience of attempting was pretty similar in that you just get fed up with everything and do it without much deliberation.

 

[Luv (sic)]

I think it's just framed to seem that "easy". But to be honest most of the time were missing alot from the full picture.

 

[bankai]

The world's unfair ,that's why.

 

[lifeless.wav]

You hear only about successful cases. There are 20 failed attempts for each successful one.

 

[Britney Spears]

Out of desperation, challenging her body's resistance and breaking the barriers of SI. what envy

 

[Promised Heaven]

I've heard more than a handful of stories of successful suicides growing up where they were found and brought to the hospital braindead. Not all success stories are implied attempt and easy passing. "Easily" is implied as such since you only see the end result after it happened, we don't know if they've suffered in their methods (particularly overdosing) or fought to live.

In some cases, it can be extremely impulsive and the person just had the rare opportunities to do it (giving in to the call of the void).

All of those suicides involve SI being wiped clean for just enough time for them to be successful.

 

[oneeyed]

On my last attempt I barely hesitated. I got a bit disfigured and now I can't seem to bring myself to try. Survival instinct is a bitch and sometimes it just overwhelms you and other times the pain is so great si is nearly non-existent. I wish i could give a more thorough explanation but having lived it and not understand how, I can't.

 

[bhaloo]

I went to a park and there was a place along a railway line where a young male had thrown himself in front of a train. Fuck. How can someone do that. What kind of courage people have to throw themselves in front of a train? Have you seen the wheels on a train engine?

I admired him but yes, how can someone be able to do something like this.

 

[RoseGirl]

I have heard too many stories of people just killing themselves, it always sounds like they just did it with 0 problems. I dont understand how CTB feels so fucking impossible and for others it just happens like snapping your fingers. I want to kill myself, I have wanted to for a very long time but never successfully did it and its starting to annoy the fuck out of me why im still here

I personally feel like I'm bound to this world against my will and that one day when I'm close to death i won't get that voice telling me I need to continue.
Tbf basically every time i try to kill myself there's 0 deliberation just a need to be dead

 

[plan c]

ppl have different level of emotional availability, in a totally natural and neutral way. For a number of reasons like trauma or mental disabilities. Some ppl do not find it in themselves to share their feelings and all.

I respect and justify any reasons to leave, but i do have a greed privately... that get to hear from u'all and get to leave a piece of memory of u, upon your last stop on this side, up 'til probably your final moment. I'm getting perhaps too emotional. carried away. yet like many times i mentioned i cherish every chance we meet and every word we share. to almost everyone most of the times

 

[cylus46]

I don't know but I envy.

 

[alwaysalone]

I have heard too many stories of people just killing themselves, it always sounds like they just did it with 0 problems. I dont understand how CTB feels so fucking impossible and for others it just happens like snapping your fingers. I want to kill myself, I have wanted to for a very long time but never successfully did it and its starting to annoy the fuck out of me why im still here

I believe for some it's because they don't over think it. They don't let themselves get bogged down in details. I completely understand the desire to troubleshoot possible problems but I also think it can mess with your mind if you allow yourself to dwell on all the things that could go wrong. I believe sometimes it's just better to make that jump, pull that trigger etc... and not over think.

 

[LeavingEarly]

Zero idea how many times they attempted tbf.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

I have heard too many stories of people just killing themselves, it always sounds like they just did it with 0 problems. I dont understand how CTB feels so fucking impossible and for others it just happens like snapping your fingers. I want to kill myself, I have wanted to for a very long time but never successfully did it and its starting to annoy the fuck out of me why im still here

Short answer: These people get clear and serious about the business of ending their lives. They've stopped 'crying for help' and calling helplines a long time ago. They've quit talking to people about it, because the cold, hard truth of the matter is that people won't care until after they're gone. And they understand and accept this. They've reached a point of clarity, where there are no more doubts. They've chosen a method and came to understand the risks involved, and they committed themselves to it. They've seriously decided to go through with it, and don't spend a lot of time trying to get their reasons for doing it validated from strangers on the internet.

They've passed the 'it gets better' rhetoric. Like any goal, they set their minds and energy to that goal. They've planned. They're not worried about what song they're going to play. They know that there are video games and movies coming out that they will miss, but they've accepted this. They love their cats and dogs, but they aren't enough to keep them here. They get serious about it. Point blank, plain and simple. They don't let their minds pull the survival bullshit on them. Suicide is an act that calls on one to harness their will. I laugh when I see posts of people saying, "it's nice to know I can ctb anytime I need to." As if it's that easy.

People who go through with it are serious and move about the business of pragmatically bringing their lives to a close.

 

[suacide]

I don't know. I'm really jealous, honestly. I wish I could do it just like that, but then I think about the people I'd inconvenience. The workers I'd scare early morning. The person who has to scrape up my potentially rotten corpse if I'm not found fast. My dad's reaction. If my mom was here, what she'd think. The people who said I'm the last fragment of my mom left, only to find out I killed myself. Man.

 

[Mooncry]

Short answer: These people get clear and serious about the business of ending their lives. They've stopped 'crying for help' and calling helplines a long time ago. They've quit talking to people about it, because the cold, hard truth of the matter is that people won't care until after they're gone. And they understand and accept this. They've reached a point of clarity, where there are no more doubts. They've chosen a method and came to understand the risks involved, and they committed themselves to it. They've seriously decided to go through with it, and don't spend a lot of time trying to get their reasons for doing it validated from strangers on the internet.

They've passed the 'it gets better' rhetoric. Like any goal, they set their minds and energy to that goal. They've planned. They're not worried about what song they're going to play. They know that there are video games and movies coming out that they will miss, but they've accepted this. They love their cats and dogs, but they aren't enough to keep them here. They get serious about it. Point blank, plain and simple. They don't let their minds pull the survival bullshit on them. Suicide is an act that calls on one to harness their will. I laugh when I see posts of people saying, "it's nice to know I can ctb anytime I need to." As if it's that easy.

People who go through with it are serious and move about the business of pragmatically bringing their lives to a close.

Damn… Well put. It's brutal but true. I learned real fast that this shit is not for the weak of will. And I also learned that I have a very weak will.