How do people get over the fear of doing it?

[fairlylights13]

I feel so jealous of people who manage to go through with it because I can't find the balls to actually do it, despite how much I want to. I don't know how to get past that.

 

[peewee]

struggling with the same thing is so hard

 

[eternalpace]

In my previous attempts at partial hanging, I was able to get past issues with the rope and issues with its placement, but the body's self-preservation instinct was difficult to overcome. Now I'm living in a state where buying a gun is much easier... and if I can manage a countdown of 3-2-1 followed by pulling the trigger, then I should be good to go. There won't be nearly as much time for the self-preservation instinct to kick in.

 

[fairlylights13]

In my previous attempts at partial hanging, I was able to get past issues with the rope and issues with its placement, but the body's self-preservation instinct was difficult to overcome. Now I'm living in a state where buying a gun is much easier... and if I can manage a countdown of 3-2-1 followed by pulling the trigger, then I should be good to go. There won't be nearly as much time for the self-preservation instinct to kick in.

For this reason, I wish guns were legal in my country.

 

[peewee]

i was going to try drinking and taking some kind of opiate before fsh....i think at some point you just get despearte enough. i tried last night and couldnt do it and wish i had. i wish i could get sn or a gun but in the uk

 

[itsgone2]

In my previous attempts at partial hanging, I was able to get past issues with the rope and issues with its placement, but the body's self-preservation instinct was difficult to overcome. Now I'm living in a state where buying a gun is much easier... and if I can manage a countdown of 3-2-1 followed by pulling the trigger, then I should be good to go. There won't be nearly as much time for the self-preservation instinct to kick in.

I think the same. But I bet not really true. Someone on here posted as much. Actually pulling trigger not so easy. Hard to step off stool too and I bet trigger is same reason.
@eternalpace I'm not trying to crap on your point. Sorry if it comes off that way. Just that I bet it's also difficult. Still, I've known five people that have ctb and all five used a gun so ultimately it must be easier on some level. I'm not sure about all but some were drunk at the time.

 

[eternalpace]

I think the same. But I bet not really true. Someone on here posted as much. Actually pulling trigger not so easy. Hard to step off stool too and I bet trigger is same reason.

I think you're right... and I think that, when I have gun in hand, it's going to come down to a period of holding it in my hand, eventually saying F-CK IT, and pulling the trigger. I had a similar experience with partial hanging, when even after saying F-CK IT and going for it, the self-preservation instinct kicked in. Unlike the partial hanging, however, once I finally say F-CK IT and pull the trigger, there won't be any gasping for air, throbbing head, etc. It'll be over and done with much sooner.

 

[nyotei_]

In my previous attempts at partial hanging, I was able to get past issues with the rope and issues with its placement, but the body's self-preservation instinct was difficult to overcome. Now I'm living in a state where buying a gun is much easier... and if I can manage a countdown of 3-2-1 followed by pulling the trigger, then I should be good to go. There won't be nearly as much time for the self-preservation instinct to kick in.

survival instinct isn't dumb, it's still your own brain you're fighting with. even if logically it seems as simple as moving a piece of metal with your finger, you can't trick your survival instinct from knowing what happens if it lets you do that. it's notorious to overcome for a reason.

 

[eternalpace]

survival instinct isn't dumb, it's still your own brain you're fighting with. even if logically it seems as simple as moving a piece of metal with your finger, you can't trick your survival instinct from knowing what happens if it lets you do that. it's notorious to overcome for a reason.

I agree with you... I'm not naive enough to think it's going to be easy. With partial hanging, it boiled down to a period of just standing there before saying F-CK IT and going for it... and then other problems kicked in like the rope, its positioning, the self-preservation instinct, etc. I have no doubt that I'll be sitting there holding the gun for a while before finally going through a repeat of the F-CK IT moment and going for it. I'm not expecting a bed of roses, gun or not.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

In my previous attempts at partial hanging, I was able to get past issues with the rope and issues with its placement, but the body's self-preservation instinct was difficult to overcome. Now I'm living in a state where buying a gun is much easier... and if I can manage a countdown of 3-2-1 followed by pulling the trigger, then I should be good to go. There won't be nearly as much time for the self-preservation instinct to kick in.

Yes . That is a reason why I consider the gun method

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I could do it with a gun.

I want to do it NOW. I want to do it TODAY. The only means at my disposal is a shavette blade. I would push it into my carotid pulse and give it a good rip.

But that's nearly impossible. So I sit on my phone. Attempting any task prompts enough anxiety to want to do it again, but there's just no way.

 

[Knoc]

It beats me, i literally just suffer all day everyday and still can't do it somehow. People have killed themselves for way less. Is it a different brain wiring? Maybe a highly emotional state leads to impulse behavior? The use of substances that lower their si?

Is actually astonishing how much punishment can we resist as humans

 

[flip_bug]

I feel so jealous of people who manage to go through with it because I can't find the balls to actually do it, despite how much I want to. I don't know how to get past that.

When the negatives continually build and outweigh the desire to live. When you have no motivation to pick up the pieces, life is too hard, it is much easier to take the leap

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

It beats me, i literally just suffer all day everyday and still can't do it somehow. People have killed themselves for way less. Is it a different brain wiring? Maybe a highly emotional state leads to impulse behavior? The use of substances that lower their si?

Is actually astonishing how much punishment can we resist as humans

what method ?

 

[Nightfoot]

A renowned suicidologist theorizes that desire to CTB is not enough, that the acquired capacity to carry it out must also exist and includes things like lower pain sensitivity, fearlessness and impulsivity. He also believes this capacity can be increased by exposure to painful or provocative experiences and that some substances can increase capacity.

 

[bananaolympus]

Honestly don't know i was just in my bed extremely anxious and depressed, and i had like a moment of clarity i just said lets just end this and my brain agreed, no fear no doubts the moment i jumped felt a big relief no remorse whatsoever, ofc i live worse than before since i have physical problems due to my many injuries i sustained even though i managed to do a full recovery that took me years but still i haven't achieved that state of mind again

 

[copioushopelessness]

i was going to try drinking and taking some kind of opiate before fsh....i think at some point you just get despearte enough. i tried last night and couldnt do it and wish i had. i wish i could get sn or a gun but in the uk

If you could opiates why not make that the method? Fear of it failing? Depending on the dosage it could be just as quick but less pain.

 

[capi]

Honestly don't know i was just in my bed extremely anxious and depressed, and i had like a moment of clarity i just said lets just end this and my brain agreed, no fear no doubts the moment i jumped felt a big relief no remorse whatsoever, ofc i live worse than before since i have physical problems due to my many injuries i sustained even though i managed to do a full recovery that took me years but still i haven't achieved that state of mind again

Very relatable. Im trying to get back to the mindset i had for my first real attempt. I was so calm and ready.
Im so, so depressed and anxious now, its insane, because of my si.

 

[Kadaver]

I have the same issue. I have nothing to live for. Nothing to look forward to. I want to just kill myself so badly but I'm just too scared. I've always been really afraid of death even though living has been so painful. I have no future. The only thing I can guarantee is more misery. I just want this shitty life to be over

 

[Macedonian1987]

When things get extremely bad, sad and painful the SI simply vanishes in me. At least that's how my brain functions.