How Do People Do This?

[throwaway123]

How do people do this? How do they kill themselves? I have read as much as I can...how do they do it? How do they leave behind all their goals, dreams without even knowing what happens after death? I hate even writing this. My mind is slowly loosening it's grip. I am melancholic, maybe melodramatic. I wish that I could be like so many here who are so matter of fact about their decision to die. This sadness, this grief, this depression is driving me mad. I feel all alone. This is torture.

Wow ,you're me.

 

[SeventyNine]

Not necessarily so, at least for me. I still have dreams and goals, but physical and other constraints now mean they can no longer happen.

That's kind of what I meant. Not being able to ever reach my goals, however simple they were, eventually led to me completely giving up on them. But of course it's different for everyone.

In the end, not having dreams anymore or not being able to reach them has a very similar psychological effect, I think.

 

[brighter]

its that moment when you've got pressure all over in your body, in your face and it hits you so bad. You realise you dont HAVE dreams or goals anymore and that you're broken so it has to end.

 

[Northerngirl1965]

When the will to die overcomes the will to live.

When you can't take anymore.

Or the suffering takes away all quality of life

 

[couragetodie]

I haven't loss all quality of life YET. But I think it's right around the corner. I mean I think that I have so little ability to maintain a safe, stable, happy life that things will just get so much worse if I stay alive. Ofc, the after life comes to mind — I was brainwashed into thinking about heaven and hell and such — god I wish that wasn't so. I wish i could just be a full blown atheist.

 

[Northerngirl1965]

How does partial hanging work?

Right?! I never understood how that was possible with a sheet until I learned more about hanging and especially how partial hanging works.

 

[TheCrow]

How does partial hanging work?

It works by cutting off blood flow to the carotid artery. Create a noose with a slip knot, secure the other end to something that can support your body weight (seems like a doorknob is used a lot in this method), and then lean forward. If done correctly, you pass out within seconds. I'm not an expert on this method, so take a look at this thread that has a lot of info:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/how-to-hang-yourself.1183/

 

[ctrl_alt_delete]

I haven't loss all quality of life YET. But I think it's right around the corner. I mean I think that I have so little ability to maintain a safe, stable, happy life that things will just get so much worse if I stay alive. Ofc, the after life comes to mind — I was brainwashed into thinking about heaven and hell and such — god I wish that wasn't so. I wish i could just be a full blown atheist.

Doc Hackenslash 'Thinking About Thinking', might be able to give you some pointers to breaking out of the brainwashing.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

How do people do this? How do they kill themselves? I have read as much as I can...how do they do it? How do they leave behind all their goals, dreams without even knowing what happens after death? I hate even writing this. My mind is slowly loosening it's grip. I am melancholic, maybe melodramatic. I wish that I could be like so many here who are so matter of fact about their decision to die. This sadness, this grief, this depression is driving me mad. I feel all alone. This is torture.

If you have no interests or desire in what this world offers you then there is no logical reason to stick around. As for after CTB, whatever it is it's going to happen to us anyway so there's no use in being scared of it.