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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,880
How do people accept this life? Objectively, life is just a long series of troubles and problems. 90% constraints for 10% pleasure. How do people put up with it? Out of habit...no choice... I'm sure that if an artist saw the daily grind of commuting, working, and sleeping, they would say it's not worth it.
 
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annxietty

annxietty

“Is there no way out of the mind?”
Mar 27, 2023
177
Because is the only thing we have, and then death, which scares almost everyone, me included, so you keep going and you have moments where you break but not literally, you yell at that one person, or stop caring about yourself and others, you do things that harm yourself and/or others...

I feel that people that enjoy life just cope with the agony of it turning a blind eye on things, they find something that makes them happy and go for it, the world is full of pain and anxiety and we have to do all the work ourselves to get enjoyment out of something here, people like us are just too tired or too deep into the abyss to look for anything, so we exist day by day, crying, being angry, being miserable, until the day we die either by our own hands, other people's hands, or naturally. Look at someone """"happy"""" and try to analyze with an open mind their life.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,880
The impression is that people are being lobotomized; they've accepted suffering 90% of the time for 10% of the ephemeral pleasure.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Wizard
Mar 16, 2025
673
what other choice do we have? We're basically imprisoned here because of SI. Without it, people would be leaving here in droves. I don't think humanity would last a week.
 
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chrysalisuponme

chrysalisuponme

Oh my, little butterfly
May 4, 2025
12
Ignorance makes it easy for most
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
217
Last time I accepted it was before I could talk, so I'm not sure how others do it.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,115
Well, I can say that for the past 14 years I enjoyed where I worked. It went quick. I was an idiot and completely screwed up my life but it is possible to enjoy the grind

Now I think you'd have to own your own business. Private equity ruining every company out there.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,796
I'd never see existence as something acceptable rather it's the opposite, I'll always see existence as the most torturous, dreadful and cruel abomination that just tortures existing beings and there's just so much evil in existing, existence to me is a terrible mistake that is absolutely unacceptable in every way possible.

To be conscious enslaved in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured is the most terrible, undeserved punishment, I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how humans impose this existence causing all this suffering, cruelty and torture as a result. It's just so horrifying to me how so many humans want to do all they can to force others to be tortured in this terrible, painful existence for as long as possible, the fact that I cannot just painlessly cease existing so finally I can be at peace from this abomination that just causes endless amounts of unnecessary suffering is the most terrible, unacceptable crime, only non-existence is positive for me, for me only true permanent peace could ever be acceptable.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
906
Well, I can say that for the past 14 years I enjoyed where I worked. It went quick. I was an idiot and completely screwed up my life but it is possible to enjoy the grind

Now I think you'd have to own your own business. Private equity ruining every company out there.
Did you come here after getting fired?
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,115
Did you come here after getting fired?
No after it was announced. I'm still here. Keeping us for the transition. A number have already quit because of how awful it is. No one will survive. They even ditched some of their own people.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,043
Because it's all we know.
 
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rabbitjack

Member
Dec 6, 2025
26
I think it's the fear of the unknown associated with death that keeps people from ctb. Once the dislike for the known (world/body) drives one to favor the unknown, that fear diminishes and there is more certainty in ctb.
 
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AlmostNobody

AlmostNobody

Member
Aug 30, 2025
5
There is no really accepting, you just deal with it the best you can. Also, majority of people lack incredible amount of self awareness, thats why they are not burdened by the shit people like us are burdened with. They watch ballgames, jerk off/have sex, play an instrument, play a game and they are content with it, and honestly that might be good for them. Nothing good comes out of knowing you are born into a dystopian nightmare and from you being aware of how cruel even your closest ones can be. Great, we have expanded knowledge of social dynamics and we have insight in how corrupt the world is, what then? Well one should do something about it, right? Well in order to do something, you need more people who think the same way and so far I haven't found any or if you tell that to "normies" they think you are a lunatic. Normal person cannot comprehend what you are talking about because they do not perceive reality in a way that you do. Because of their state of unawareness, they are capable of doing things your brain is preventing you to do, because you are "overthinking" stuff. They can accept lower living standards and just pump out 10 kids in that situation and be happy. People like us are different. But you are not really overthinking stuff, you are thinking how an intelligent person should think. You take into account potential future threats, failures etc. and thats a lot of information for brain. Normie doesn't think that way therefore he goes through life unbothered by those things.
 
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sanction

sanctioned
Mar 15, 2019
708
More like there isn't really a choice. Either you kill yourself, or you keep going. Most people are simply living in delusion.

But mainly because it is just so damn difficult to kill yourself (feels painful/ scary), therefore many people are just stuck here without options. Instead, just waiting around for life to naturally finish us lol

And then in the time between, try to distract and lie to themselves as much as possible, just to prevent going complete crazy
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,880
Thanks for all oponions
 
Lamentice

Lamentice

Sayonara
Mar 27, 2023
98
I really, honestly, don't know & don't understand. Just as the people on the other side of this experience don't understand me. I want to say they are just less... aware? But I don't actually know that & it's an arrogant assumption from me.