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Purefly

Purefly

The Hands
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I've researched everything I needed to know go Ctb, I gathered all my resoruces and planned everything out yet I just can't bring myself to do it. And when I do get brave enough to try my SI pulls me right out of it and I start to feel like a failure. Is there any way I can overcome my SI and just do it?
 
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itsgone2

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It's a popular topic right now, probably always has been. There's no good answer. People say benzos or alcohol help. Idk. It's very frustrating.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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I want to die but I want to just sit more. Hard place to get out of. A gun would be done.
 
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Purefly

The Hands
Aug 26, 2025
22
I want to die but I want to just sit more. Hard place to get out of. A gun would be done.
If you were handed a gun to do you think you'd be able to do it? Even with the perfect situation I still can't seem to bring myself to do it I either get so sad and try to distract myself or I just feel too lazy to even bother
 
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I want to die but I want to just sit more. Hard place to get out of. A gun would be done.
I think this is true. In US guns are by far most common method. So if you have access to them it must be easier to get over SI. But not easy. I think still difficult.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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If you were handed a gun to do you think you'd be able to do it? Even with the perfect situation I still can't seem to bring myself to do it I either get so sad and try to distract myself or I just feel too lazy to even bother
I'm pretty sure I could do a gun. Could certainly do painless poison. There's no chance I want to live. It's all about the act. I'm too depressed for many lesser deeds.
 
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khairan

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Sep 4, 2025
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If you were handed a gun to do you think you'd be able to do it? Even with the perfect situation I still can't seem to bring myself to do it I either get so sad and try to distract myself or I just feel too lazy to even bother

I feel you. I'm planning to hang myself out in the wilderness but I know overcoming the SI is going to be hard. I believe getting a little wasted might help. Alcohol tends to put me into a psychotic, self destructive mode.
 
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