How do I ignore my desire for love

[Leonard_Bangley39]

I've never had any strong connections before, friends, girlfriends. wanting a girlfriend and a romantic relationship is all i can think of sometimes, but I'm in probably one of the most unstable points of my life rn and im aware that i need to fix myself and build my social skills before i can handle having a relationship. I don't even know how to have a relationship, let alone create one.

The lonely feeling eats away at me from time to time, how do i ignore/suppress this feeling until after i can fix my life?

 

[derpyderpins]

I don't think you ignore it. I know however I follow that up will sound cliche, but I believe it.

Desiring love, desiring connection: these are intensely human. Possibly what makes us most human. You shouldn't deny your desire for that, especially in such a pure form.

I think it's more of a reframing. The fact that you want to fix yourself and recognize faults, which we all have, puts you ahead of most. Having great connections is your goal. Think about it: if you were, for example, an athlete, would someone tell you to ignore your desire to win the game? No, you let it fuel you. The athlete thinks about that when lifting weights or doing drills. I think the key difference for you is that you don't want to latch onto the idea of any specific person, just the idea of a more fulfilling life generally.

In the meantime, the are many forms connections can take between "nothing" and girlfriend or life partner or whatnot. Some are temporary, or fleeting, but they do help satisfy that need. I think of Tom Bombadil from Lord of the Rings, or any sort of one off filler character in anime: maybe just for one day you have an interaction and shared goal with someone then go your separate ways. It's all part of your life's journey and slightly helps fill that need for connection, even if for a moment.